From my friends and lover, To siblings and mother, My father, my doctor...
Just please keep it Honest.
If I died today, like the Dearly departed, Y'all tears would last miles From the point that they started.
And that's so hard to say, 'Cause the days I could breathe, Y'all were one step away In the distance near me.
They hear you scream and cry for help but choose not to care so why do you stay for them they don't care if you go if you stay so suicide isn't selfish for anyone except them they are selfish and put guilt on you even in death you'll forever be your own martyr they had you and didn't see you were here for them not you
Cannot poker face, unless you phonies Got some More ****. I sip on codeine and kinda dabble With that Morphine. But do not get confused, 'cause I Will never be A dope fiend. Smoking heavy clouds, you see my Lungs, they got some Protein. I'm easily influenced, if you Wanna Take me under. I be fearing no flesh and no Gods and No thunder. If I feel it In my veins, Then I need to be Numb-er. But please, not too strong. Can't let it be My last Number.
They gonna put blame on me Like they always do, But I'm holding all of y'all Responsible For the results of your Decisions. I said it, I meant it. Don't you ever forget it. Laugh now, cry later. I'll never regret this.
Stay awake through evenings And try to fight your demons. Even if you're bleeding, On the concrete, freezing. I keep contemplating How much pain to take, When really, there's not much Left to break. My heart gets skewered By your selfish stake. My trust is broken by you Sinful snakes. Cut the grass or should I Cut myself. Sleep in silence Or I could scream for help. My soul is covered by a Thousand welts. Stay awake through evenings, To get prepared for ****.
I ain't tryna be perfect. I'm good at flirting with the devil. With intentions always certain, I can never play the victim If I caused the others hurting. But I ain't give another reason To get treated like a merchant.. Like a servant So indentured, You can't even see she's worth it.
You ain't gonna step up, are you? Mrs. Get it done when I want. Procrastination's gonna harm you. Don't be hating on my blunt. That's the only thing that seems to Warm you. And now, I don't give a ****.
That's what you wanted. What you asked for.
All this pain is past due. You talking tryna glue it, But I'm looking right past you. Can't be crying, looking foolish.
You don't deserve a look from my eyes, When they searched your heart for So long. You wish you could make me believe I'm tripping, but that is just so wrong.
And we ain't got no old songs. No rings and no future. Nothing left so baby so long. That distance gon be torture. But for you, not me. I'm used to being lonely. Only difference is, I'm still alone, You just can't hold me.
****** up flow on purpose. If I wanted to be perfect I could be