I was looking back on myself from one year ago
In many pictures I had a genuine smile
For the most part I was content with my life
As an avid member of a youth group that loved me so
And I had so many great things planned for summer

Now things have changed and that smile has faded
Faded into something I could only merely wish for
It has been replaced and I don’t think anyone notices
Other than myself of course because how could one forget such a familiar feeling

I’ve said once before that things are much better than what they used to be and yes in some ways they are
But there’s something within me spreading this feeling of self hate and discomfort for who I am now
And there’s nothing I can do to prevent it

“Who am I and what have I become?” couldn’t be the  question I should be asking myself since I am clearly finding out as the days pass
But the better guess would probably be something like “welcome back. How long will you be staying?”