You know when they tell you that
Life will figure itself out?
That you mustn't worry because you are still young?
That you have your whole life ahead to figure out your path?
I remember hearing this years and years ago
I am quite young
But a small glimmer of hope
Has finally shined my way
Maybe I do know a part of my future
Maybe I do know what will happen to me
And it is the best thing I could have ever asked for
So maybe know
I vaguely understand what they meant

This is where I question myself
If I ever really needed you in my life
Or if it was all in my head
If maybe you truly never saw anything in me
Even though you still know my name
After all these years
You still know my name
And so this is where I question you
If you ever really cared
Or if the distance drove us apart
If maybe you never wanted to let me go
Even though you still know my name
After all these years
You still know my name

I wish there was so much more than just this
And when she told me that it was stupid
I replied saying
If he hated me
Wouldn't he have left before I could see him?
Would he have looked back after we left the same place?
Wouldn't he have tried to avoid me?
Would he have said hello?
She said people change
I know they do
But who is she to tell me
That there is not even a small speck of friendship left?
I do not care if he doesn't like me as much as I like him
But as long as I can call him a friend
Then I am content

I am in my feelings a lot
But I wish I could see you while I am
Then maybe I wouldn't feel as bad
Isn't it crazy?
We could hug and talk for hours every day
And ever since you left
And I came back
It takes so much will power to even say hi to you
Do you notice me as much as I notice you?
Isn't it crazy?
That I came into your house
That we saw each other multiple times
By dumb luck
And it still felt unnatural
Isn't it crazy?
That even when I thought we could have come back together
I was still wrong
And that the only time you finally said hi to me
It felt so... strange
Isn't it crazy?
That I will come over again
And it will be so hard to be around you
Even though you were the one person that saved me
So long ago
When I had no one else around

I have been writing for months
Things that I have been wanting to share
Mostly feelings
But isn't that why we all do this?

It seems like I ***** feelings
Like I barely think about meanings
Like I put absolutely no effort into these
And even though even to me it seems like so
I feel that it is better like this
I felt bottled up
I wanted to share everything
Without being afraid of being made fun of
I understand
I understand that these are cheesy
Sad and cringe-worthy
Maybe I am too young to understand
But for now
I will keep writing
Because if that keeps me away from the monsters
Then I will keep doing just that

I have always found poetry stupid
I thought that poetry was only for the classics
And the only good ones needed a deep
Impossible to understand
Meaning
But I do not wish for those
People should read poetry because it makes them feel less alone
People should read poetry because they want to feel something
Not because they feel like analyzing every word
Not because they want to sit there
Confused and straining
Against scribbles on a screen or paper
If I felt alone
I wouldn't want to struggle
I'd want to read words that I know the meaning of
So maybe poetry
Isn't as hard as people think