Juvie:
i should of never had it.
it almost ruined my life.
thank God for my second chance.
Money:
i dont deserve it.
i didnt earn it.
Girls i fought:
im not sorry for that.
The dude:
i regret me letting him do that.
i should have said no.
My dad:
i ******* love & miss you.
My 2nd big bro:
i love you so much and i cant wait to see you in 2 years.
My bestfriend:
i know i dont show it but i love you so much,
and i promise i'll learn how to show my emotions.
My mom:
im sorry for always ******* up.
i should of never did the **** i did.
'E' (some dude i aint sayin):
i cant keep letting you **** w me if you got a whole *** girl.
you finna get yo *** caught up.
dont blame that **** on me.
and if it to the point where i gotta fight yo *****,
i aint sorry bout it.
abuela:
why the ******* disown me?
my faimly aint do **** to you.
how you finna do me like that?
i trusted you.
Tina (my 'aunt'):
you aint my family.
i dot give a **** how much you cry, telling me you sorry.
***** i aint dumb.
you do this every time.
you is fake.
you steal, lie, drunkie, **** i can write a whole book on what you are.
just stay the **** away from me.
My mom's dad:
i dont call you 'Grandpa.' bc you dont ******* deserve it!
you dont care about me, and all you want is our money?
**** outta here.
stay the **** out my life!
Myself:
sorry for hurting you.


Some of My Confessions....

your hugs :
telling me you love me and you care.
holding me closer to you heart.
my hugs to you :
telling you to never let go and never leave my side.
holding you closer to my heart too.
telling you i love you.
your notes :
i still have the notes you sent,
i look at them and cry,
wishing you was still here.
my birthday :
you not being able to see me grow up.
you not able to see how big ive gotten sense i was young.
school :
not being able to tell you all my boy problems.
or asking you for help on my math homework.
homecoming :
you not able to tell the dude im with to keep me safe.
the sky/clouds :
i look up asking,
'why ? why couldnt it have been me instead ?'
nights :
every night not being able to hug and kiss you good night.

time :
day after day,
week after week,
month after month,
year after year .
im still missing you .

MY SMILE:
they arent always real ....
90% of the time i smile so no one asks whats wrong ....
most of the time , when i smile im crying down rivers inside....
im scared to show my real smile ....
MY HUGS:
my hugs are telling you,
'please dont let go i need you to tell me you want me in this world and im not worthless and i have a purpose .'
my hugs are telling you that i trust you....
MY EYES:
doors to my soul ....
i hide them bc i dont want people to see how much i need help....
i dont want them to see i need them ....
MY HAIR:
my only beautiful thing on my body ....
MY TEETH:
braces made them look good ....
all through middle school my name was ,
'TrAiN TrAcKs'....
MY FRIENDS:
makes me feel loved ....
FAMILY:
i would die for them ....
i would **** for them ....
they are my air to my lungs ....




Thats The Truth .... But Not All Of It ....