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Lately I've felt like I'm just floating
My home is here
My friends are there

And I don't know where I belong
I'm here not there and it breaks my heart
I hear new stories everyday
And I wish I was there

I left so many friends behind
Ones that stayed in touch
Others that stopped responding

How did we go from talking every day
To never speaking again?
I would ask you how you're doing.

Good. That's all I got. It's all I get.

Friends I'm worried about
That don't respond
And I can't ask others about them.

Because I was their confidant.
I was the one you could tell anything.
I regret the one time I was stupid.

The one time I didn't know
I didn't know what to say
How to handle your words.

I still love her.
I love everyone.
But I said the harsh ones too soon.

The understanding ones too late.
Instead of being the confidant I was the judger.
I wouldn't blame her if she stopped trusting me.

Whenever I think of what I said.
I regret it a hundred times over.
No matter how sorry I was.

You can't take back words.
Once they are out they are free.
I can't just erase them.

I'm not a judgmental person.
Maybe I once was.
A long time ago.

And maybe when I'm shocked
I revert back to my old self.
Maybe that's why

I said those things I said
Maybe that's why
I couldn't look at you

Not because I didn't like you
Not because I didn't love or trust you
Because I didn't know what else to do

And when you get scared
When you have anxiety like I do
You go back to being the old you.
 Mar 2017 Selena Bagby
Arcassin B
By Arcassin Burnham

I don't really count my blessings
If I did,
I'd keep a notepad,
I haven't really learned my lessons
If I did
I'd be on the right path,
Or a bunch of outskirts pushing and landing
In my way and putting voices in my head to
Help me take away the pain of feeling the
Pressure to move forward in my life and
Better myself in this cruel and sick twisted
Planet where there are all false teaches,
No more fake speeches,
No more stars in the sky for people's reaches,
No more fun or sunshine
For the people that get stepped on and
Ridiculed,
No more keeping folks in line for all these
Stupid rules,
Things have been getting real vacant
leaving my life to struggle,
I will not die a coward.

/

I've been on my own since the day
has gone
all my friends are gone
I'm just still at home
of course I'm all alone
I'm just waiting on......
the right day
I've been on my own since the day has gone
the skies are red
I'm feeling dead,
but I wanna die the right way
with something lodged in my head
I've been on my own.
©abpoetry2017
http://arcassin.blogspot.com/2017/02/real-vacant-my-own.html
 Mar 2017 Selena Bagby
Arcassin B
In world where there is corruption at every corner, in towns where there are certain places a black man can't go,
The mind state of a racist woman or man,
the hate will definitely show.

I Don't understand why people are racist and their parents definitely don't know what respect is,
Like a black boy that takes your daughter out to prom and holds her hand and dance the night away because her white boyfriend couldn't be true,
So you get mad at your daughter for the color she'll choose.

Racism should be dead but some whites take it to their grave,
listening to their parents in the past tell them to behave , be careful of the world, Go play and come right back,
And no matter what you do, do not talk to those **** blacks.

The Only Reason I write this is because i am dating a girl that is white And Her Adoptive mom is YOU'VE GUESSED IT - A HUGE RACIST !!!, her name is Sara Mills and she is the love of my life regardless of what any race has to say, I don't know why but its always been that skin color that i cherished the most when it came to relations
Not to further escalate the situation,
dont get me wrong i date any race of women, but only ones that give me the time of day to prove to them that all men aren't the same.

So Anybody That is Racist And Sees This , I Feel Sorry For You And I Only Hope You Find Peace In Everyone Instead Of Your Own Kind.

I Love Every Race , We should Be A One People World. :)
People should not have to be hateful period
 Mar 2017 Selena Bagby
Arcassin B
By Arcassin Burnham

Pick ya head up boy it's okay now , the eternal struggle is over so be proud,
What you ask for is what you get in life, to climb off the mountain,
gotta find your way down,
Looking for new purposes to fill your voids,
Knowing that in each time it comes with toys,
Life ain't about getting , its about giving but the generations lost in the chaos,
Got the kids in the school in the books on the way to college , But you so worried about
a wrist watch  and material things that don't mean anything at all,
Now Let me say this,

listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was...


i know what you're feeling, i've been there before,
there is no way to cure this,the pain just grows much larger,
if you feel like people don't want you around,
grow to learn more things,
i know it could get much harder....



listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was...

Pay attention in school and do everything you have to do just so you could get out,
You'll have problems along the way and everything that you do , people will doubt,
but don't mind them,
Follow your dreams,
And free think along the way in any age,
i'm not just speaking to kids ,
But i'm also speaking to the human race.
©ABPoetry:RisenLP2017 ©ABPoetry2017

http://abpoerisen.blogspot.com/2017/03/solid-heart-featured-on-r-i-s-e-n-lp.html
 Mar 2017 Selena Bagby
Arcassin B
By Arcassin Burnham

Take the shot,
please don't blow it,
unless i lose it,
I'll never know it,
feeling like i'm ten feet below,
on the slippery ***** , to what hell has to offer,
i'm glad that you know,
the things that we cherish, we lose,
i know that this life isn't proper,
Take a shot,
i command you,
but i don't wanna,
swear i can't stand you,
lord please just take the wheel tonight,
no more promises to fight , if you promise me we would stay
up all night,
stranger than a twilight,
trash is another mans treasure,
find it on sight,

thinking how long have i been in this condition besting all my other personalities of when i'm drunk infesting way too many signs of intoxication in ways that i would think is not good for the human brain,
if not then i don't act the same,
With life struggles you can erase,
work hard to replace the things that have been impacting all of us,
but the last of us don't need to say a thing,
locked up and get life in jail or don't really better yourself at all,
like dominoes , one day it'll be your turn to fall,
please don't let the serpent win , but you just wanna hang out with the boys,
please don't let the serpent win , but you just wanna get high with the boys,
please don't let serpent win , but you just wanna commit a crime with the boys,
oh look! the serpent at the finish line and its on you,
my boy that was your choice,

Take the shot,
please don't blow it,
unless i lose it,
I'll never know it,
feeling like i'm ten feet below,
on the slippery ***** , to what hell has to offer,
i'm glad that you know,
the things that we cherish, we lose,
i know that this life isn't proper.
©ABPoetry:RisenLP2017 ©ABPoetry2017.

http://abpoerisen.blogspot.com/2017/03/the-devils-nectar-featured-on-r-i-s-e-n.html
 Mar 2017 Selena Bagby
Arcassin B
by Arcassin Burnham


Going through a life filled with pain,
Thought Being born in this life was a shame,
In the making it was love I always wanted from my family
and friends and a girl to call my name,
cut a human being off like a speeding limit,
Only to be pulled over with a speeding ticket,
learning to do right in an economy that doesn't care
about your well-being, or your soul and spirit,
You were in it,
honorable mention,
linked up all your limits,
and the feelings, well,
they just left and did some feral shifting,
Stuck in a dark fantasy or maybe a death stranding,
i was here from the beginning and when you took your last standing,
you were,
misunderstood in a world full of impurity,
lived for the love of another in this monstrosity,
serve a near purpose for people you'd die for in eternity.
©abpoetry2017
http://arcassin.blogspot.com/2017/03/spiraled-memories.html
 Mar 2017 Selena Bagby
Arcassin B
by Arcassin Burnham


Would you stay or would you flee?
Would you go as far as burying the love you've always seeked?
Gravitating towards the things that make you sane is the key,
so why do you speak to me?

Would you fall or be on your lonesome in a world full
of demons that'll see you lose some,
of your sanity and dignity, hell is not fun,
Seen some carnations of that'll make you scream and run then call
on the chosen one immediately after seeing the sun,
praising unfair guidelines instead of the man that made
us all,
Breaking laws is why the world ain't free that's why we fall,
Looking for a sanctuary that won't disappoint us,
He warned us.
©abpoetry2017
http://arcassin.blogspot.com/2017/03/country-filled-streets.html

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