Lee Jackman

Lee Jackman Jan 2021

P assers-by
T reat
S trangers with
D ignity.

Cos you never know whats happening in there life.

#ptsd #stress #anxiety #depression

Lee Jackman Oct 2020

I been out drinking in our favourite drinking place, you was ways there playing crib with the other elders from the social club.

But this time your seat was empty this time your seat was Bear. I came home full of drink to hear the devastatingly news that you was no longer with us.
You will be missed it wont be the same without your presence in that group of men.

I know your child well and her children just as well. We will do our best to look after them though this horrible time.

We are sad to see you go but hope your free from pain and sitting with your wife under an old tree in the rain.

Lee Jackman Oct 2020

The power of a hug

I never understood the power of a hug, until i couldn't hug.

I couldn't understand what feeling lonely really ment, till i couldn't see friends and family.

These things i now crave, I know what its like to miss them.

COVID took these things from me and i dont think i will ever be the same again

Lee Jackman Oct 2020

I tell myself, You tell me

I tell myself i am happy being single.
You tell me thats not true.

I tell myself i dont need a family of my own.
You tell me you would make a fantastic father

I tell myself you will see the real me eventually and leave anyway.
You tell me you know me and that will never happen.

I tell myself im a waste of space and the world would be better without me.
You tell me im not and your life is better with me in it.

I tell myself if it wasnt for you i dont know where i would be.
You tell me i will never have to find out.

I tell myself how lucky i am to have you.
You say the same.

Please excuse any spelling, Im dyslexic. I have not had the confidence to share any of my poems until very recently. So kind words please

#family #alone #myself #you #leave #depression

Lee Jackman Oct 2020

On my own

Im in a room full of people.
In my head im alone.

People tell me you an amazing person we like having you around.
In my head im alone.

Please come out tonight they say, your the life of the party.
In my head im alone.

Its amazing how i can look on the outside when in my head im alone.

Please excuse any spelling, Im dyslexic. I have not had the confidence to share any of my poems until very recently. So kind words please

#alone #party #people #amazing #mind #head

Lee Jackman Oct 2020

The nice guy

Why do nice guys always come last?
Iv got so much love to give.
I would do everything in my power to give you the best life.
I would be loyal.
You would be loved.
You could trust me with everything.
Our children would know a loving father.
But it feels like you dont want that.
It feels like you would rather be with a player.
It feels like you would rather be cheated on.
It feels like you would rather you children didnt know there father.
Maybe you dont really want the nice guy?

Please excuse any spelling, Im dyslexic. I have not had the confidence to share any of my poems until very recently. So kind words please

#nice #guy #cheated #children #player #feels #trust #father

Lee Jackman Oct 2020

The power of a hug

Is it weak of me as a man to admit to wanting a hug?

Does it make me less of a man to say how much i crave a person's touch?

As a man an i aloud to say i feel lonely?

Whatever your answers I still just want a hug.

Please excuse any spelling, Im dyslexic. I have not had the confidence to share any of my poems until very recently. So kind words please

#hug #lonely #man #hard #question #feel