There’s no flying cars
We’re not living under the sea
Mars is still unsettled
Mail is not sent by rockets
But in 2020 all apples have faces now.
Apes have not evolved to work for us
Aliens have not made contact
We still have ten toes
We can not yet breathe under water
But in 2020 we sing songs instead of talking
There is still hunger
There is still war
We can’t yet teleport to a holiday destination
Or read each other’s minds
But in 2020 dorkiness got into the water supply.
Hibernation became an art form
Hermits live in communes
Elle Kay and Veda were never strangers again.
I think about you when I see a barefoot rider.
Or hear Fields of Barley or Is this Love.
Lime cordial doesn't taste the same.
And an egg is just an egg now.
Crying Little Birdy, dappled light and swaying curtains
Or alto voices that are lower than mine but just as bright.
I think about you when I use a dishwasher stick
That has the scourer with the detergent in it.
When I sit over the crack in a couch.
When it rains and it's cold.
When I have cold feet.
When I slip into cool sheets.
I think about you when Father Ted is on.
Imagine you in Paul Kelly songs.
When I smell cut wood, sanded back.
Or salt air.
Or see grey hair and weathered loved houses.
Or women in vests with lilac blouses.
I think about you in the water,
When I'm in the shower, or at the beach.
When it rains and when I drink.
In the blue and green and sometimes silver.
Or when I'm smothered in an unrequited love
That isn't yours.
Your heart will always beat,
With or without my love.
But only you could have shown me
Where I can touch it.
The fifth intercostal space,
Beneath your ****** line.
This sacred place under your breast,
The apex of your beautiful heart.
Now when I find my own,
I can only think of you.
We lay in bed.
She showed me all of her pulses.
And let me touch her heart.
When you talk to me
My Broca’s Area fails
And makes me so dumb
She doesn’t know she’s my future wife yet.
Also, the onion poems are all for her too.
I’m not creepy I promise.
Well, maybe she knows
We talk about our Advanced Care Directives a lot.
Little seeds, growing.
Little shoots, showing.
Water gently flowing,
To seeds in the ground.
Little bulbs, forming.
Little layers, warming.
Sunlight is transforming,
Little onions in the ground.
I wrote this to impress a girl.
Christmas is here.
Your absence is my present.
How lucky I am
To have the gift
Of missing someone like you.
She doesn't even celebrate Christmas
I glimpsed you in the universe last night
A shimmering body revealed to me,
Made of Saturn's rings, and stars and heaven.
Resplendent in celestial light.
I felt you follow me on my walk this morning,
Each ray of sun, pebble, and leaf.
Sparkling dewdrops and breeze, your gentle apparition.
When fate forked out in front of me this day,
On the eve, of the anniversary of your death,
In the red heart of despair, and desperation
Your face was clear in my mind, and I would know it.
So that this time I may make a difference.
Take your time.
I’m in no rush.
I will show you that I am there
When you need
I’m always going to be responsive to you.
If you come to me, I will always receive
If you touch me, I will touch you back.
If you kiss me all over my face,
I will lean in to your mouth.
If you tip my fingers, I will take your hand.
Every time you call, I will answer.
I will arrive each time prepared to be set
To have you let me go, or set me adrift.
I accept that this can happen.
But until you send me away,
I will always come to you
and I’ll always be early.
I’ll be here steadfast as a lighthouse
in the ebb of your tide.
until you come to me or pass me by.
Whichever way you go, I’ll show you to safety
Even if it’s to point you over the horizon.
And I would carry you there if it made you
You know I would.
Little by little your tiny hands
And soft cheeks, you're so close to me
Unravel into each other
Remembering the every day magic
Ernest and shy.
Nervous and happy.
Lovely alone time with you.
At last a moment together
You and a view, take me now.
Kisses so soft and gentle
Under the sun setting sky
Nearly sixty thousand people cheered for us
I am a musician
And a poet
And an artist.
I have the ear
And the mind
And the eye.
Which has qualified me to say,
Your heart and mind and physical design
Are beautiful in every way.
To lie down with you in the peace and quiet
To feel your soft touch and body near mine
Pressed against me
Your warmth and taste
Your fragrance and pulse
To hold you and be near you
To feel whole and complete
Next to another whole complete person.
To have you want me and to want you too
To save this touch and put aside my longing
To hold you and pick you up with ease
Lean into the here and now
For the rest of the day
And dwell into the eve.
I am so full,
Little laughs burst out of my mouth
And skips hop from my feet
Twinkles sparkle out of my eye
And happy sighs
I am so full
Kisses escape my lips
And loving words tumble out
My lungs contain shouts
I am so full
I’m fat with love
On the 22/02/20 She said she loves me.
And I said I love her too.
She said I want to give this a go, but take it slow
And so I guess we’re together now.
When I look at you
My Occipital Lobe makes
My pupils dilate
Shutting down so we can rest
Sweet R.E.M dreams.
Am I drunk? Or are,
Coursing through my brain?
If Love is only
Some chemicals in my brain,
This brings me comfort
Proof that Love exists,
Does not reduce its meaning,
Just the opposite.
A wise doctor said
We should try to make love work
Throw the sink at it
She also said to make it do the dishes.
History could hold
Clues to the mystery of
The mind and its way.
Take a moment to
Spend time in the memory
Of the day before.
The quiet hum and midnight darkness
Cool and contained you sit, sealed tight.
Cool air on my face and there you are
Illuminated in the blue fridge light
I roll and turn you in my hands
And hold your glass up to my cheek
Vinegar stings my fingertips,
But the brine is salty and the onions sweet
I replace the lid and seal the jar
I place you back with care
Until my lips taste you again,
I’ll remember you there.
An onion can grow from a seed,
From a tiny place and start its life
from the beginning,
to its end.
Or an onion can grow from a broken piece of itself.
If it’s tended to carefully
and the conditions are favourable.
And go on again
To begin again.
Poor rocket man your pride.
Like the black on my shirts hanging inside out in the sun
You miss the darkness of the sky and the glitter of stars
You just realised, I see in your eyes.
How far away you are.
Poor rocket man your weakness.
Flying to the moon never satisfied you.
From your house in the suburbs here on Earth
A heart that conquered the universe and,
The feeling never escaped you.
Poor rocket man your humanity,
You remember when the scenery flew by at the speed of sound,
Your feet never touched the ground
Remembering you lived in the sky.
I wrote this in about 2003 at age 18.
When I told you
I had looked up the time of the sunset and the point that was scored when everyone cheered.
When we first kissed because I was sure
It was at the same moment.
You told me that
You had searched medical record for the date and time
Of the patient you saw
When we met that first time.
Because you needed to know.
Let’s make a world,
Where at the end of a long day of work
I could hold your hand to your car outside
And give you a chaste kiss
Just a simple thing,
That a new couple does
Because they will miss each other
Because you are working late
And flying home the next day.
Let’s make a world
Where one day, if we were married
We could be out at work,
And I could give you a chaste kiss when your start your day and I go to my ward
And you to yours.
And when we fly to your home country
We could look after your parents together.
And when they die I could hold your hand at their funeral
And swing my arm around you.
And take you home.
Just a simple thing a couple does
Because they love each other.
Let’s make that world.
I wish, I could have just kissed you goodbye today.
It’s an angry girl music morning
In the good way
Channeling shakti through my veins
Out through my fingers
Power in my feet
Certainty in my voice
I feel like I can part the sea
With my words.
Divine feminine energy
Worn on my sleeve
Like I’m curling a bicep.
I keep you
Soft and held
And stroke your down.
That you may lay your cheek
Upon my chest
We while away the hours
In tender caress.
My little doves.
I pray these moments
have you left
Podged with comfort
and warm content.
Safe inside my love.
Heaven sent to me.
I had not known peace,
Until you both were in my arms.
Come sit here with me my friend.
Come and rest your weary feet
A comfy seat and window pane
As we watch the passing trains
And people on the street.
Come sit here with me my friend
Come and share with me your day
This sunny view and empty chair
Are not the same
Without you sitting there.
We've started eating lunch most days. I miss her when she's not there.
You are the sea.
You are cruel.
You are cold.
And I love you.
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