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Čortoloman Feb 2018
How hard can it be? To let it all go to hell and change what you have to change. Let it all crumble and pale.

Making mistakes is human?

Sure but when u start repeating them over and over again you reveal a idiot in you.

Because you obviously need a large cleaning. People change hard because they have already built all this relationships and have spent years of life under this construction.

You think you can change every single word that you said and regret and now realise it's a mistake? Well good luck with that impossibility.

How hard can it be? To let it all go to hell and change what you have to change. Let it all crumble to dust then rebuild again.
When life slaps you don't show teeth you stupid idiot. Who do you think you are. The world can crush you within a day. When life shows you where you break. You listen, become humble and change yourself for a better tomorrow.
Čortoloman Mar 2018
Bring it up.
Speed it down.
Blood, blood is
All i want to see.

Lift the gun.
Feel the triger.
Scream, scream is
All i want to hear.

Climb the chair.
Ready the knot.
Misery, misery is
All i want to ****.

See the edge.
Forward to empty.
Sleep, sleep is
All I really fear.
Čortoloman Sep 2019
People only die when ready.
Rock only rolls down the hill until it stops.
Particle moves another.
Information is forever contained.

The transformation from thought to light is in every form a road to completion.
A thought is a wave until it becomes a particle.
When the cycle of this transformation is completed it will associate itself with time and become light.
It will associate itself with space and become the vessel.
Once it is both it will become reborn.
Čortoloman Feb 2018
Why are you so ******?
So ******* ******.
So chaotic, so depressed.
Why do you live?
Who do you live for?
You hate yourself.
You hate the world that made you.
You hate the world that left you.
You hate yourself.
Why do you wake up?
Who do you wake up for?
Searching for yourself in a place where everyone loses themselves.
Contradicting your character. Contradicting your soul.
You are hurting yourself.
You hate yourself.
You are just a human after all.
Inborn nature to create and destroy.
So chaotic. Makes no sense.
Join the rest of the universe.
Čortoloman Feb 2018
(0.) Even though the irony it has 1 dot.
All is contained.

Infinite dots yet so perfectly lined up.
0 is infinitely small while 1 is already so long.

4 directions to us so normal. X-ray vision but we don't care because its not about us and because of the limit we see yet potential something we like to forget.

This is all there is. It's important to some in the future and to some in the past which both cant be seen yet all we can imagine because small is too small and big is too big. Also has the biggest potential because of its infinite directions yet so finite in our heads.

All is the same. No past or future here.
To them we are also seen in xray yet they don't seem to care either. 2. Was too small while 4. Is too big. Yet existence is, and even though in cycles, but is.

4. Was too much so what do I know about this one? Maybe here to exist and not to is the same thing as in 4. Where future and the past are the same...

Sure you still have the eyes of all seeing?
Yeah you do actually. There would be no world or no, no world. There would be no you since you are all that is. Bigger yet smaller than everything. Should you dissappear, there will be everything missing once more.
Finally done :0
Čortoloman Mar 2018
Ignorance is a Curse.
Čortoloman May 2018
A: Don't you find it irritating?

Z: Hm?

A: Don't you find irritating the human need to feel happiness?

Z: Isn't that only natural? When you are happy you feel good. So
you will want to feel good when you aren't happy right?

A: But that's not natural. Being happy is just a state you can be at. It's not the state you were at before or after. Being neutral is a state you came from and will go to.

Z: So should I feel the need to be sad when I'm happy just as I have the need to fell happy when I'm sad?

A: No, that does nothing. You shouldn't feel anything at all. Or have a need to in the first place.

Z: That makes no sense. Life is what the living does. You can't live without a need to feel can you?

A: Well maybe being alive is not a natural state to be at as well! If it was you wouldn't die or be born.

Z: What do you mean?

A: Well maybe life and death are also just a state you can be at, but neither are the natural states...

Z: Ugh... Third state beside Life and Death?

A: Yeah!

Z: What would that be?

A: Well for that to work I guess there would have to be a third party involved, like a soul or something, then we could say that it's only your body that is alive or dead. Your soul is then just a presence that trough a medium called body is collecting experience.

Z: What about emotions?

A: Let's add another body in the picture! Call it „emotional body“. Emotional body is using a physical body as a medium to get experience from the world and then there is a soul that is using the emotional body as a medium so we get a perfect being!

Z: Isn't that a bit of a stretch?

A: Who knows.... But then we could say that there is finally a natural state to be at. It is called „Soul state“. In this state you resonate your three bodies (the physical, emotional and soul bodies). In this state you are not „Alive“ or „Dead“, you are not „Happy“ or „Sad“, you are just a presence.

Z: And how would you get to this state called „Soul state“??

A: Well you should ask yourself why do the other two bodies exist in the first place?

Z: Hm.. Well to experience things right?

A: Yeah..

Z: Ohhh! So the soul is a presence that trough the two bodies experiences things! So once it has experienced all there is to see and feel. It will finally enter the „Soul state“!!

A: exactly!

Z: But isn't there just soo much? We don't really have enough time to experience all there is...

A: well who said you live only once..

Z: Reincarnations?

A: Mhm.

Z: But why don't we remember things from our past lives?

A: Well it would be rather easier to experience everything if you think you have only so much time. That way you will use all of the time given to you to live at your fullest!
Story I came up with to connect the puzzle pieces together in a way that i feel comfortable with XD
Čortoloman Nov 2018
Idemo onda zajedno u svijet.

Ja, ti i tko god pridružiti se želi. Idemo dalje od samih sebe

dok ne nabasamo na nedoseživo.
Čortoloman Mar 2018
Ignorance is the source of Death.
Čortoloman Mar 2018
Ignorance is a Cancer.
Čortoloman Mar 2018
There ain't place for my mind to rest. There ain't place for I in me. There ain't place for Me in God. All i can do is wait until we become one.

Logic is something humans like to think is our road of evolution but at the same time it's a made up road that helps us escape from the rest we left behind. You are not ready to think like I do. Because neither am I so you need to go back to where it all began, back to where we were one...

But then again it's a cycle without rules and true order and in this cycle you are made not complete. Your nature is with reason without reason so you can live and stride forward wherever that may be. Because if you were truly complete you would have no reason to strive and would become God. In the end we all become one, whenever we live forever or die alone. That is what im striving for.
Čortoloman Nov 2018
Jellyfish in the sky. Darker than sunlight, colder than water. She is slimy with giant spring in mind. Devoid of thought, devoid of sorrow. Existence she is in her own eyes, no human to say as well. Existence she is in her own mind, no thought to confirm that as well.
Čortoloman Apr 2018
Koliko se puta moram uključiti u sustav i razoriti ga da bi dostigao neutralnost?

Jesam li ja sustav koji trebam razoriti?

Postoji li razlika između mene i svega oko mene?

Ako razorim sebe možda ću i svijet razoriti.

A onda se mogu ponovno roditi. Kao drugi sustav koji ima drugi zadatak. Jer moji je zadatak da razorim.

Mržnja, istinska mržnja dolazi iz ljubavi. Kao i potreba za osvetom. Možda mogu... i u ovom svijetu koji je lakše razoriti nego voliti..
Čortoloman Oct 2018
Puno tamnih opisa. Jezivih priča. Tko je tu lud? Ja, ili ja koji želi biti lud? Jesu li te priče priče? Ili ne želim vjerovati da su tu i sada kao ja i ja.
Čortoloman Feb 2018
Nice. Dot you are mine. Or maybe not.

Why do you do or why do I?

No matter if or not, you are dot,

Dot, the dot.
Čortoloman Mar 2018
Neutralnost je neutralna. Nije mir ni kaos, već nijedno. Nije bog ni bez boga. Nije ni jedno. Nije ni sreća ni ljubav ni tuga ni mržnja, već ni jedno. Informacija i znanje, ignorantnost i podatak. Isto je. Postojiti ili ne. Isto je.
Čortoloman Feb 2018
I like tea.
All sorts of tea exists.
Some for illness, some to calm, some to bring you up.
You came to my threshold one day asking me to show you the light.
And so i made a tea that sings the song of creation, a tea that brigs death to the living and life to the dead, a tea that suits you the most.

You drank it without hesitation, A tea I could make only once, A tea made of my heart and soul.

The world was turned upside down. The past and the future became only a part of you yet all united in the one and only. To exist or not became the same and both were at the same time.

Your voice was the one heard by all. Your mind was the seed of all war, love, death and life.

Yet came the day the tea wore off.
You were turned to dust and became a part of my threshold.

I gave you the tea not to rule others but yourself. Now another eternity has to pass in order for you to appear again...
Čortoloman Mar 2018
And so once again.
I become Me then realise it's not me.
I lose this feeling then lose Me.
And so once again I become I.
Divine Me, Divine All. Without any if it could be comprehensive at all.
So once again I become Me.
Čortoloman Feb 2018
While I walk the woods you will walk the edge. Yes, we are both there but you seem more You, even though you will be nothing soon and won't even look like yourself anymore. At this moment you are the most beautiful thing in this world. You and everything around you acknowledges your existence.

You are alive.

This means nothing to the ones that haven't been introduced to this world yet. And neither does it mean to those that already left. But to you. Who will feel it. Who will see it. Who will know it for a moment at least.

You are alive.

Some will cry.
Some will laugh.
Some will forget.
Some will die.

While i walk the woods you will be there. Stuck inside an image forever burnt inside this one that is neither dead nor is he alive.
Čortoloman Mar 2018
I am the source of ignorance
i am the Source of ignorance
i am the source of Ignorance
Čortoloman Feb 2018
Čortoloman Dec 2018
Umoran sam. Baš umoran. Nemam volje više i umoran sam. Fali mi fali i umoran sam. Trnce u mišićima, trnce u žilama, pritisak u glavi i pritisak u srcu. Umoran sam.

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