You know when you feel a horrible anger inside?

You wish you could be taken by the tide

I hear it screaming deep in the depths

It shudders right through my core

I whisper to tell it to leave me

Sometimes it scuttles away, obeying my wish

However other times it stalks and mocks me.

I'd like to be swallowed up by my...      
                
      surroundings.

My thoughts will soon be at peace.

             But that is just wishing my life            
                                  away....

Kidnapped by fears
my face wrapped in plastic
I can't breath
Teeth slicing flesh away
Pain tingles my whole body
Blood trickles

It's not mine
The dark rouge belongs to another
Throwing up adrenaline...

Just smear me in gold
Not crimson.
And Finally....
                               This will make myself **Known

Sprinkles of light beam down on the crumbled sheets.
It was just a mistake.
We both just wanted to Take
I lie, In this bed.
I'm sorry but this no longer will last
as the night happened too fast....
We will soon breakaway after we feast
As you devour me like a beast.


Just leave.
Leave me


suffocation...

Lust Leaves him.

              Just walk away like the others.
Don't worry, it's never too late to Separate.
Maybe it's time, What's the date?

I know there's something hidden, something you're covering.

                                  But you'll not whisper your reasons why...


Why?

Because You desire to watch us all suffer.
The gentle enjoyment begins to grow.
You foster an apatite.
The greed explodes...

And you are left there fattened, engorged by  all the pleasures.

Never let another say no.

I should have pushed.
I should have shoved.

I let it happen.
Now im stuck wondering..

My exterior may express calmness
However my brain is analysing...
Each little moment I will dissect and focus on a problem.
What might that be?
Something that I just can't see ...
Not just yet.
But I will pin point....
There has to be something
not right, However I will find out
It cant be this easy..

Tears are becoming difficult to gulp down...

They never stop.

Spilling, dripping and pouring from under my eyelids.

My cheeks become stained with black wobbly lines..

I feel a heaviness tightening in my chest.
                                     Like as if I'm being crushed.
All I see is pitch black...
I feel myself being swallowed.
My body aches all over...
                                            the darkness is digesting me....
How do I fight back?
                  They have me tied tightly to the point of suffocation.


...........Just let it....

Inspiration surrounds me
Yet I can't grasp it.
Support is said
However terribly given
That saying springs to my mind
"It's easier said then done"

I am sitting
and not doing
My head appears to be jumbled up
Concentration has not been taken into consideration.
I can think. I think.
I argue constantly in my head.
I feel as if I can't stick at one description.

I can Tell.
Months are gathering
Distance causes distance
but easier to break away.
I am ageing
Does that not turn you?
frowning lines are appearing
Sometimes my thoughts represent scrambled egg
I'm all over the world.
each slice of atom is spread onto a slice of pavement
I'm making little sense.
It's just all words that we create
We have all helped with discovering.
But to modest to say.
I thank you all for picking your destined areas.
As they affect us all.

From the start, I kept my heart
Defending myself from breathing in more lies.
My mind had already been tainted.
I thought my spoilt body could no longer trust....

Hold on..
wait..

There's a figure standing before me....

That's all it took, Just one look.
Passionate forgiving green eyes.
Longing to let me know...

Just take hold.

I want to dance with you
Let me take your hand
Press it against me
Sway with my hips
and kiss me passionately on the lips

I want to feel you against me
Let me show you
Press closer...

Lets dance tonight.

A cruel and heartless obsession…
I am only ever seen as a possession.

I am a dainty little thing
Tears spill from eyes while I sing

I had been expected to marry last   spring
My finger still had the ring

I don't know who murdered the king?

You see,
He was meant to marry me....
As I held the key..

It opened his heart
Like a work of art!

I placed myself here by saying 'Yes'
I am a pawn on the simple game of chess
We are all victims.
Agreeing to what we assume will make us look normal?

But all we Need to know.
Is to Just say that simple word

              **"No"

I hurt myself on a piece of glass today.
A perfect slice, etched into my skin...
Beautiful burgundy oozed from the cut.

A split second of watching myself heal.
I soon realise....
You will leave me with a faint scar.

I licked the liquid away...
with a laugh and a smile.
It was only an accident... a mistake.