Wanna know a secret?

I loved your happiness over little things.
And your messy brown curly hair.
I loved your beautiful blue eyes.
And your stupid evil glare.

I loved the way you made me laugh.
And the way you'd kiss my cheek.
I loved the way you said my name.
And the way you called me every week.

I loved your smirk when you tickled my sides.
And the way you'd cup my face.
I loved the way you held me too tight.
And the warmth of your embrace.

Secrets aren't meant to be shared.
For it's hard to have trust in anyone.
But knowing that we never stood a chance.
I thought I'd share this one:

*I loved you more then anything.
And it's hard to let that go.
Because loving you really hurt.
More then you will ever know.

Every day I hear about your love for her.
Because everyone knew you were gay.
And then suddenly you changed your mind.
You aren't supposed to ****** him away.

You told everyone you knew what you wanted.
Never did I think it'd be a man.
Because I thought you were in love with her.
And I could have loved him more then you can.

Confusion spins around my head.
Its almost as if everything was a lie.
But the pain will eventually leave.
Because everything does eventually die.

But in the end I thought we were friends.
Clearly that was a mistake for me to think.
Its almost laughable at first thought.
As I drown my tears in another drink.

Friends aren't supposed to hurt you.
They're not supposed to make you upset.
If anything they're supposed to be.
Your only safety net.

Now the final game is over.
And the deed has already been done.
You've completely ruined everything.
I guess you have won.

It appears your victory is present.
You broke a selfless heart.
By simply taking away the boy she loved.
And tearing her apart.

*******.
**** your stupid way of thinking too.
*******.
**** the dumb things you do.
*******.
**** if I only knew.
That all this time has gone down the drain.
Only to be left with this ******* pain.

One day they're going to forget about you.
They're going to move on.
One day they're going to disappear.
They're going to be long gone.

One day they're going to be with someone else.
They're going to start a family.
One day they're going to have everything.
They're going to be happy.

One day they're going to sit and think.
They're going to be listening to music in their car.
One day they're going to hear your favorite song.
They're going to wonder where you are.

One day they're going to see that the lyrics finally make sense.
They're going to think they should have noticed before.
One day they're going to see the connection.
They're going to realize you're the one they're meant for.

One day they're going to have sadness growing in their hearts.
They're going to try and blame fate.
One day they're going to feel the pain.
They're going to be already far too late.

She's a lot prettier then me.
Anyone can clearly see.

Whereas I am just a broken heart.
You knew this from the very start.

I was waiting for someone to come by.
Hoping that one day, I too can fly.

Then you showed up and I smiled more.
Hoping it was you knocking on my door.

But she's more open and outgoing.
It's like she's all knowing.

I'm afraid to be in her shadow.
Because it makes me feel so ******* low.

You began to fall.
And that's what ended it all.

You spin her and kiss her perfect lips.
And each time you do so, my heart rips.

That girl doesn't deserve you.
Because the truth is I do.

I loved you from day one.
Little did I know it was just for fun.

I've fought for so long.
This all feels so wrong.

You're supposed to be mine.
So no, **** it, I'm not ******* fine.

I have wasted my life away.
While you looked the other way.
I sat alone and cried, man it was rough.
You made me feel like ****, I wasn't good enough.
I eventually gave up on a happy life.
Screaming for you, while holding a knife.

Because when you lose your drive...
It's hard to stay alive.

This is the story of two little birds,
forced to keep their story unheard.
One quite frail with legs so lean,
the other a bit large, eyes of ivy green.
They met in the forest just barely hatched,
when they came across one another in the forest thatch.
They’d fly next to each other, side by side,
how sad their love, they had to hide.
They tried not to let their wings touch,
touching only a little, at least not that much.
They kept flying yet couldn’t seem to find the light,
their wings were tired from putting up with the fight.
At night they’d try to sleep, together in their nest,
comforting his beloved, the smaller tried his best.
‘Why can’t we love?’
Neither knew the answer as the moon shined above.
Sadness took over the bigger ones heart,
never wanting to ever be torn apart.
He was tired of being told no,
trying his hardest not to let go.
The smaller one whispered while taking in the cold breeze,
‘Hold on, stay brave for me, please...’