I have analyzed every one of my
mom's laughs
and divided them into lists of
the ones that make me the most
anxious and the
ones that make me feel the happiest
and even the ones that make me
want to cry
I need lonesome

so far today I have drank pop and
watched TV
and those are two things I don't do
ever

I picture us dancing in an apartment
somewhere in the future
and we've got socks on
the song that's playing is called "Such Bad Handling" by Toro Y Moi
because I've told you how much I like this song
and you knew that already
I can see us being so happy
dancing in our colliding spaces
but we are together
and you make me happy too
I hope I made you wanna dance
in socks

when we're tired from dancing I just
start to laugh and you laugh too
and nothing can compare to
something as great as feeling you
smile with me

you just kinda looked at me
with that look
that is so
******* you
and I guess we exchanged a
feeling
that something had to happen
and a
feeling
of sadness again

I listen to my sad friends and
their problems
I want to help them feel better
I want to make you feel better
I'm not always happy
and I'm not doing well
and I know more than I wanna know
but I think you're some kind of
magnet
and I can't get the **** away from
you
and I look at you
you look at me
we are friends
friends are cool
you should come over more often
I am truly always here for you and
your sadness
I wanna hug you and come see you
and lay under that table next to you
and I wanna high five you all day
long
I want my fingers to hug yours
****
I bet your fingers give good hugs
you're so tragic cute
and I wanna tell you that eventually
we may not be friends for long but I hope we will
be

everyone is collectively ****** up together and
I think that's the most beautiful part about
being a human

sometimes I wonder if
these nights in the dark amount
to anything

and then I realize
that I need this
dark more than some people
need me

I've got freckles & ****
and you've got those
******* headphones
but you took them
out for me
and I like you
because of that