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10w
LB Parker Jun 2015
10w
I have become very uninterested
in a life without you.
With love, kelsey
13
LB Parker Apr 2020
13
We were children
Playing with I love you’s
Like a box of matches

Stolen from the top shelf
Look at it all now
We’ve burnt the house down
Love always,
kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2017
3:30 AM
tossing, turning, screaming
in my sleep
dreaming of a past life

4:00 AM
eyes open
chest aches
my stomach has turned itself inside out

4:15 AM
make some tea
sit
breathe

4:30 AM
cry uncontrollably

5:00 AM
the tears tell me to start writing again
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2018
I have memorized every inch of him
in hopes that when he goes
I might still have something left

but his picture fades with everyday
and now I have only shapes and shadows
of the man that I love
With love,
kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2017
One morning you will wake up
And all the monsters
You've been keeping in your closet
Will be lying in bed with you
With  love , kelsey
LB Parker Oct 2021
Rain dancing on an old tin roof, pouring through the open window
Seaweed sunbathing, calloused soles racing across hot sand
Sweet conversations between the wind and our birch tree
Tap water tea with honey, wool blankets prickling my skin

I fill up the empty vials in my mind with their extracts
Carefully storing each delicate moment somewhere safe and dry
Little perfumes I take out and apply to each pulse point
Whenever my reality begins to unravel
with love, kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2020
Rain on fire
Beating at my back
Scorching every inch of skin

Steam rising
Encircling this fragile frame
Spilling out the curtain

Let the river rush over
Carry these tears down the drain
So I can watch the pain
Our love has caused me
Spin round and round
Love always,
kelsey
LB Parker Jun 2020
When my scars
First spoke to me
I muted them immediately
Long sleeves
Stacked bracelets

But laying here
Surrounded in darkness
Nightmares lurking at the door
There’s something…

A humming
Sweeter than honey
Soft, patient
My wrists whisper

“…beautiful, kind,
   smart, brave…

                     …please don’t let go
                         we love you so…”


After all I’ve done to me
My heart still beats consistently
My lungs need no instruction
How are they so forgiving?
Even my skin is singing
Love Always,

kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2016
Sledgehammer
Glass heart
Should've known
From the start

That by the time
We would collide
I'd be left broken
on the inside
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2021
Where others have chipped away
There are now holes, growing cracks,
And each morning she patches herself up
Looking to her battered reflection

"Stone..."
Says the porcelain girl
"I am made of stone."
With Love,
Kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2016
We lay beneath the sky
And make our
own constellations
Shaping the world
The way that we
Wish it could be
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Mar 2021
When it’s all said and done
They’ll find me laying in the hallway
Mascara clumped below unblinking eyes
And a massive hole punched into the center of my chest

One detective will look to the other and say
“You’d think she would’ve seen it coming.”
With love,
Kels
LB Parker Jul 2015
There will always be
Something to admire
In the poetic gracefulness
Of horizontal desire
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2017
I have built
great stone walls
around me

And each time I consider
Bringing someone in
I picture
Watching them leave

So then I slam
the door shut
And throw away its key
With love, kelsey
LB Parker May 2015
The world is made truly
With only three things
Life, Death,
And Dirt
All of which we
Are part of
In the end.
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2017
I am from the second star to the right,
Wonderland, and OZ;
Where the Wild Things Are
and all the trouble that we caused.

I now know Desdemona
and, of course, Annabelle Lee
Beatrice, Viola,
for Love too
has blessedly broken me.

All of them though came
from other unconscious streams;
I desire not to be known for my name
but for my written dreams.
With love, kelsey
This poem no longer fits in my bio:( It was one of the first I ever wrote and it holds a special place in my heart.
LB Parker Jan 2017
Before
They were little black lumps of coal
Dormant embers
So weak and
Incredibly tired

Until I swallowed that match

Now the flames burn
Inside my stomach
Up my throat
And there's nothing you can do
To stop me

From breathing my fire
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2015
She loved
           the city
           the night stars
   the snow
She loved Love
especially
         falling
              in
                  Love
but now
      feels
Nothing

not even the blizzard’s icey teeth
sinking its fangs into her skin.

To her right is the road
that She followed
to break free
of the quiet, safe life
worth anything
and everything now.
Then She looks to
the deceiving mirage
of a new start,
a bright
happy
future
filled with big beautiful towers
glowing their fake lights like amber constellations.





her fault :
believing She was strong
practically invincible
safe
and nobody could
take that away

but in one moment
all that
fragile strength
was lost.

She never asked for
  the nightmares
  the fear of Him
or for the responsibility of
two heart beats

but He didn’t listen,
said nobody will ever believe her
and once She found out about It
She lost
her
mind
completely.

looking down to the
rage of rapids
She places her hands on her
sick stomach
listens to the ZOOM of the
carefree cars
their sounds verifying that She is
finally
                 entirely
invisible.

nobody notices
       her hair restless in the wind
  the hem of her dress
       gently kissing the steele beam
           that freezes her bare purple feet.


nobody notices
when She finally escapes
  when She sets herself free
and falls into
rectifying
darkness.
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2020
I loved you to the point it became a religion
Repeating the hymns of our past obsessively
To numb the heartache

In this great temple, I grew so dependent
On your entire existence
Your touch, your smell, your voice
My ecstasy and my undoing

Completely in awe, I believed it was your power
Which summoned these walls up to heavenly heights
Painting them in every color of light
But they were never really rising

No, I was just shrinking
As pieces of myself fell away into you


As the incense hanging heavy in the air
Strip me of my scent
Running greedy fingers through my hair
Stealing kisses, burning skin
While the thundering choir swallows all sound
Screaming but voiceless I drown
You are everywhere, and yet nowhere to be found


I see so clearly now, you were my Great Flood
But now I must conjure the strength
To make my Exodus
Because how can this be love?


How can I love anyone,
                                          if I am no one?
Been a while since I've posted anything...
Missed this place <3

Love always,
kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2018
If she is "fake"
then so am I
while she covers her face
with expensive concealer and mascara
I hide my pain
with long sleeves and cheap smiles
either way
nobody knows
what we truly look like
With love,
kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2021
I knelt down
Washed your feet in my tears
And dried them with my hair
Though in my heart I knew
You could not walk on water
With Love,
Kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2018
Long, healthy, happy
or bit and bleeding
they are the first to tell you
how I'm feeling
With love,
kelsey
LB Parker Jun 2020
Each time, I find something old that’s new
                        Hooked scar on the right hand
                   A freckle behind each ear
            Dimples just below the spine

       Find those gorgeous brown eyes
       Are traced in a ring of green
       Blue and gold flecks dancing
          Something
               Shifts and
                               I’m
                                     Falling
                                 Again
Love Always,
kelsey
LB Parker Nov 2021
I dismiss the jury, they’ve been absolutely useless
And move to pass my own judgement
In the case of toxic friend group vs my idiot past self
I find the defendant guilty on all counts:
Willful Unawareness and Lack of Boundaries in the 1st degree
Excruciating Neediness and Nonexistent Self Worth in the 2nd

They have to drag her from the courtroom
Screaming, spitting, legs kicking
Perhaps she really wasn’t fit to stand trial
But my hardening, calcified heart holds no pity

I make sure I’m there when they lock the cell door
I look her in those wildly disturbed eyes as I swallow the key
"Someone will find out about us," she whispers shakingly
Wrapping both hands firmly around the cold iron bars
I lean in, let her feel the loathing radiating from my skin,
"Over my dead body"
love, kelsey
Him
LB Parker Jan 2017
Him
My
     Joy
My
    Warmth
My
     Always
With love, kelsey
LB Parker May 2015
The pen moving even before
My mind forms thoughts
I write in surges
Of jibberish
Only I can then translate
Into legible expression
Poetry
Hypergraphia is a behavioral condition characterized by the intense desire to write.
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jul 2015
Te dua
M’bi fe
Je t’adore
Tsi ge yu i
Wo ai ni
S’agapo
Te amo
Sarang Heyo
I love you
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jul 2015
Love the little spider
Who naturally spins
its thin silken web
Love the little pig
Who is so happy
just to play in the mud
Love the little worm
Who is blind
but still tunnels the Earth
Love the little girl
Who hides herself
behind all those books
Because aside from what
other people may say
Everything that has been called
ugly
Will show you true beauty
some day
With love, kelsey
LB Parker May 2015
softly, slowly
rising
falling
drifting to sleep,
unaware of the nightmares
waiting for me,

to the sound of deep breaths
and the steady heart
in your chest

I miss this sweet lullaby
in your absence
of every lonely night
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jun 2016
I have learned that this life
Comes and goes like the mist
So I'm determined to do more
Than just exist
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Oct 2021
It’s the same face
Same shoulders, arms, legs
Sound asleep, sprawled out across my bed like a starfish,
Reclaiming all the space beside me that’s been empty for almost a year

It’s all the same person, my person, and yet as moonlight begins to pour in from the front window my heart stops

You think you know how beautiful the ocean is, but then the sun sets across it
You think the mountains are powerful, until Autumn paints them in fire
And then suddenly everything you thought you knew about your own world completely changes, bathed in fleeting colors and temporary refractions of light

Now I could easily lose days, weeks, months of sleep watching how that gentle blue effortlessly lays itself across him, softening every feature in the most perfect glow
With love,
kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2017
I'm walking on the shore and I feel the cold fingers of the Ocean pull me closer and closer into the waves. Up my legs, around my stomach, encasing my shoulders and neck. My eyes meet with the horizon one last time before the water rushes over and swallows me.
My name means "of the sea" and "ship of victory."

The Ocean has always felt like home.
LB Parker Oct 2021
All summer long
Magnolias, Cherry Blossoms
Sweet Pears and Wisterias
Gracefully dip their delicate limbs down
Shaking off soft flower petals
Happily sharing fruit with those passing by
Who gape up in awe of such generous gifts
Smooth and sweet
Their essence a beauty to behold

My place among them is peculiar
Few seedlings around here warp into my kind
A tall, looming Oak twisting skyward
Deep roots tangled so far into the earth
Hundreds of rings wrapped around my spine
So when the late August storms and brutal winters roll through
I cannot bow, my branches barely bend
By now they've known worse and are ready

As we shake off a recent rain
One Willow whispers to another
I swear it's like she never moves.
Some Laurel chimes in
Yeah I know, but good God
I'd rather break in half at the next breeze
Than end up like her right?


Feigning indifference
I begin to take stock of my leaves
Musing at the first few auburn brush strokes
Autumn has just left in my hair

The next morning, I wake to an unexpected quiet
Since when do the robins sleep in?...
My vision refocuses, and there he is
Beautiful, confident, intently gliding along the overgrown length of trail
Guiding him until he’s just a few feet in front of me

You must be joking, I think to myself
I see the axe resting on his shoulder
Perfectly content to barely balance forever  
Between his palm and the base of his neck

Only an idiot would...
He just keeps staring up at me
Why would he even want to…
But just then, hearing my thoughts
He drops the axe, soft earth willingly parts to receive its sharpened blade,
Presses a callused hand to my gnarled, scarred bark and
Leaning in closer so I can feel the heat of his breath on my chilled skin
He whispers, Because you are beautiful

And with that, I am suddenly rooted in sand,
The world slips away from beneath me
While the rest of the forest silently bears witness
To my great fall
With love,
kelsey
LB Parker May 2020
And of the ashes my soul shall be healed
Charred flesh and crushed bone restored
A witch no more, but a thing with wings
And fire igniting my veins
Love always,
kelsey
LB Parker Jun 2015
Look up to the stars
Distant puppeteers
Pulling at the fate woven between us
Invisible strings binding our souls
To one another
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2017
Eventually
When I look in the mirror
I want to see the girl
You call "Beautiful"
With love, kelsey
LB Parker May 2015
Regret is more than you would think
for it is a dark, dangerous sea
that shall trick my ship to sink
so my tears fill
my lungs and
drown
me
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Oct 2015
A tragic flaw indeed
Is the lack of serenity
For some things must
And mustn't be
But God
I'm too blind to see
The difference between
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jun 2020
Though I’m not certain
Of the soul’s form
I imagine mine to be
One with wings

A little bird
Singing for no one to hear
Beating its wings tirelessly
Against this bulky metal cage
Love Always,
kelsey
LB Parker May 2015
Though this seed
May become a rose
Only with rain
Can it ever grow
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2017
To me
Stevie Nicks
Mint tea
And his company
Are the perfect form of therapy
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Apr 2018
...I sit
        screaming
inside this
              glass
              box
           hoping one day
    my voice
                 will finally
         shatter
             it
                and set me free...
With love,
kelsey
LB Parker May 2015
There is a strange
Disturbing power
That he has over my heart
For within a day
He takes it
Breaks it
And then pieces it back together
So that I may be
Once more hypnotized
Into some twisted
Form of Love
Unquestioning and
For the moment
Unbreakable
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jul 2015
Let's try to ignore the fact
That all this time
You have "loved" me
And "loved" another
Behind my back
Because you already seem to be
Very good at that
Dedicated to someone I (thankfully) haven't seen in a very long time.
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Oct 2015
Fragile
Pale
Paper thin
Who she was is hiding within

I cry
And plead
Through quivering lips
As her essence slips through my finger tips

Her soul
Her heart
And Her mind
Disconnected all this time

So I pray and pray that she may stay
One more day, I say, just one more day
With love, kelsey
Something terrible has happened to me and my family. Please keeps us in your prayers.
LB Parker Jan 2017
You came so close
Punched your fist into my chest
And though you chose to
Leave my broken heart behind
I have no idea how to begin
To cope with
This gaping
Hole you
Left
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jan 2017
I love and am loved by
Strong
Wonderful people
Whose arms have lifted me
And held me
With such fierce devotion

I'm afraid I will never
Fully repay them
For saving me
With love, kelsey
LB Parker May 2015
You wouldn't need second chances
If you treated me right
With love, kelsey
LB Parker Jul 2015
Curiouser
And
Curiouser
I follow you
down
  down
    down
      Into the most
       Odd little world of
         Madness and magic
           Jubjub and Jabberwocky
              Red-painted white roses;
                 Such a beautiful adventure
                      I have only dreamt about.
                    Still I'm bothered by how,
                   Even in a place like this,
               You only think of the time.
            My dearest white rabbit,
         I would truly hate to see
     All of Wonderland
  go and
pass
you
by.
With love, kelsey

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