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Jul 2020 · 168
miles away
Kris Balubar Jul 2020
1,096.4 miles away
180 minutes far
one phone calls dial
hoping to the universe,
you are here instead.

as I dream about you
lost in my thoughts,
I know that was not for naught.
I'm stuck here only to know how far you are.

I clutch to remind myself,
it will all get better in time,
your smile seems to cross my face,
setting my mood at a new pace.

I hold onto these things,
because these are coming
sooner than I will think of
in the hope of a better time,
that you will be here.
May 2020 · 277
5:06
Kris Balubar May 2020
Dear Mahal,

I have failed again.
I have failed once again to meet you
Maybe you are still out there
Searching,
Looking,
And waiting patiently.
Taking the right moment,
The right time,
Looking overly at this lovely sunrise.
Maybe someday you and I
Will wake up at this right moment
Overly looking at the sunrise
Having each other but until then,
I will enjoy this lovely sunrise.
Kris Balubar May 2020
Beautiful, funny, smart
Who likes laughing, I love your smile
Who feels happy, you make me happy
Who wonders, I admire you

Beautiful, creative, amazing
Who loves to change hair color, clever
Who loves to paint, I love your artwork
Who loves to stay up talking to me
I’m thankful I met beautiful, funny, amazing, You.
Apr 2020 · 185
I am silly and crazy
Kris Balubar Apr 2020
I am silly and crazy
I wonder if I am delusional
I hear you are beautiful
I see angels floating in heaven
I want to make you mine
I am silly and crazy

I pretend I am invisible
I would like to hold your hands
I feel your heart beating
I touch my heart, it beats for you
I am silly and crazy

I say I will give you all you want
I dream that I will never lose you
I will try to take care of you
I hope I will make you happy
I am silly and crazy
Mar 2020 · 66
something new
Kris Balubar Mar 2020
Excited
I standstill
A word was spoken
I feel joy

Full of quest
Full of comfort
Full of something
I feel wonder  

Awaken souls
Falling slowly
It’s new
I feel change

I can use to this, after all, it’s someone new
Jan 2020 · 52
Soul-mate
Kris Balubar Jan 2020
We met in such an unpromising place.
I never thought I'd fall for you.
The first look.
The first words.
The first talk, oh, you got me.
I've somehow lost faith in love.
But then, there I was searching, searching for the unknowns.
Then, there you were in the middle of nowhere, searching.
We were vulnerable, searching for each other.
Then, the universe has awakened our sleep stars.
Too fast.
Too real.
Too good.
You too were beautiful,
The mate I am looking for could have been in front of me.
Was it you?
Was it us?
Maybe, the stars were shooting,
Shooting for something, but not for you and me.
Maybe, this was just another tale to be told, and that is all it was.
Nov 2019 · 166
Unknown
Kris Balubar Nov 2019
It has been a while and
It doesn't feel wrong
Or right, but unknown.

Still, figuring it out
It may be brand new
Or the same as the old days.

Still, trying it out
It could be you
Or it could be the same game.

Still, I want this
You, I want you.
Oct 2019 · 91
Waiting. . .
Kris Balubar Oct 2019
Unsteady for hours, glancing up into the grey sky
Confined winds embracing me in
So deep I find myself in the pouch of the quests
Asking the universe to peek for the existence of
Pure love but I was stranded
Disallowing my departure for selfishness creature
Searching for help as the love unfold
Lost in time, and I'm still here waiting
Jan 2019 · 757
Broken Promises
Kris Balubar Jan 2019
You promised you'd be a better version of you.
But nothing has changed, you're still a sinner.
Days had passed, and you're still broken.
Still, you barely move in your uncover bed.
Alive, but doesn't want to move a single muscle.
What have you done?
What have you worked?
What have you done with your life?
You promised, didn't you?
Or it was all a script just like in the movie?
Where you said you'll change.
But you didn't, and nothing has changed.
I'm trying to meet my goals day by day, one day at a time.
Nov 2018 · 314
SMILE :)
Kris Balubar Nov 2018
A smile is the sweetest action hidden behind our faces. We smile for a billion reason. A smile after a tough day. A smile that makes everything just fine. Five letters with a little bit of sweet smile.
Oct 2018 · 11.5k
IF YOU DECIDE TO LOVE SOMEONE
Kris Balubar Oct 2018
SURRENDER YOUR HEART
REMOVE THE GUARDS AND RELINQUISH THEIR SHIELDS.
YOU NEED TO FEEL THIS THOROUGHLY
LOVE WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE SAFE OR MEASURED SO,
LOVE IRRATIONALLY.
JUMP OFF A CLIFF WITHOUT CONSIDERING CONSEQUENCES,
LOVE SPECIFICALLY.
PAY ATTENTION ON THE SMALLER DETAILS OF THE BIGGER PICTURE,
LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY.
BECAUSE THERE WILL BE DAYS WHEN YOU DON’T LIKE HER, BUT THE LOVE MUST REMAIN AND IN THE EVENT THAT LOVE BREAKS YOU, LET IT BREAK.
DO NOT CLOSE YOURSELF OFF OR SHUT YOURSELF DOWN.
YOUR HEART WILL BE SHAPED AND RESHAPED, BUT IN THE END IT WILL STILL BE YOURS.
AS HUMAN WE ARE BLESSED WITH THE SKILL OF ADAPTATION IT’S KEPT US HERE FOR EONS, YOU WILL ADAPT.
Not mine, but I really love this and wants to share it.
Sep 2018 · 217
Fall
Kris Balubar Sep 2018
When things change.
Colors, weather, feels.
Green to orange to brown.
Sunny to more shades of grey.
The feels of fallen hearts.
Falling leaves,
Slow music,
Cozy wind,
Loving fall.
Everything change,
And that’s how things fall.
Things change so fast
Aug 2018 · 1.0k
Unfinished
Kris Balubar Aug 2018
The feeling I get when I'm with you is indescribable.
The way you smile makes my world stop and stared
At the most beautiful on earth, You.
Now I wonder if you feel the same when I'm with you.
I wonder if you see my crooked smile,
Does your world stop too?
Do you look at me like I'm the most beautiful on earth?
Jul 2018 · 177
Waiting. . .
Kris Balubar Jul 2018
The Lord, the universe has a plan for you.
In the right place at the right time.
Wait, patiently things are coming your way.
Jul 2018 · 476
Done Trying
Kris Balubar Jul 2018
I had a long run trying to win without a price.
Addicted to your being.
With every moment, I catch a glimpse of you.
I loved you, hoping you’ll know it.
I tried not to show as much as I want to.
I'm giving up to improve myself.
Even if I have a chance to redeem myself, I couldn't.
I'm afraid I've gone too far.
I thought what I had was meant for us.
But here I am writing my sorrow.
Hoping they come across better than normal words.
If we're meant to be together, then it will happen.
Jun 2018 · 576
You're the one
Kris Balubar Jun 2018
First was a chanced
Second was a charmed
Third will be a luck
Finally, hopefully you're the one.
Is it weird to admit you like someone, but then you have only met them twice and it seems like you're inlove.
Apr 2018 · 191
Love for Two
Kris Balubar Apr 2018
The heart envies my feelings,
jealousy of your presence
when it wants more
longing for yours
craving slowly for a soft caress

Wanting to sparkles our breath
a crystalline melts of passion
searching for the love in timeless
fusing the sweet tender of two

It speaks the unknown language,
giving a new taste;
it weaves the thoughts in scarves
spilling cool love, that warms our veins
Apr 2018 · 2.2k
S E L F I S H
Kris Balubar Apr 2018
I should've known
You played a sweet smile
Capturing innocent hearts
Trust flows without thinking

Who knows I played
Right into your silly games
Trapped without knowing

Full of exposed,
You took things for granted
And left things unfinished

Selfish, creepy's me
I can't trust anymore

Well played,
You radiate the pain I feel
Mar 2018 · 900
The end
Kris Balubar Mar 2018
Weeks had passed.
Cloudy days had gone.
Snows had fallen and melting.

A new day is coming.

The sun is peaking,
And I'm still missing something.

Another day must come,
And I'm still searching.

Unlikely, delusional that YOU will still be around.
From weeks until now, I know that You are gone.
Feb 2018 · 2.6k
Dreams
Kris Balubar Feb 2018
Uncertain to know you're still in me. . .

Unconscious you're still around. . .

Vivid, you were so close to me.
Your face is still the same from
The last time I saw you, beautiful.
Surprisingly, you were awake.
Somewhere on the other side.
Unbelievable, I was dreaming of you.
My unconscious soul with your
Conscious soul meets, accordingly.
Feb 2018 · 675
I wish to stay this way
Kris Balubar Feb 2018
There are many words inside of me
that I feel I need to say
But there's always something in the way

Every time we get a chance to talk
you always have to go
The words are keep building inside of me
And I wish it wasn't so

You are part of me, perhaps my daily routine
I become weirder all because of you
I'm not blaming you or anything
I'm just glad your part of my everyday
And I wish to stay this way
Jan 2018 · 680
We met at the wrong time.
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
"We met at the wrong time, that's what I keep telling myself anyway."

Maybe we did meet at the wrong time.
Maybe we are not meant for each other.
Maybe someone else will come along.
Maybe you will meet someone else.
Maybe it was one time for a good time.
Maybe we will meet again someday.
Maybe when that comes, you will be mine.
Maybe when that comes, I will be yours.
Maybe then, we're both right for each other.
But maybe this time it's you, it's me, but not us.
"We met at the wrong time, that's what I keep telling myself anyway."
Jan 2018 · 6.2k
Stranger
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
Unexpected meets, searching for something.

No warning,

No caution,

Unaware,

Hours passed, I looked and found you.
There standing in the dim light, innocent.
Full of life, moving uncertain.
Our eyes locked on one another.
The excitement crawls through my body.
Wanting to speak the unspoken words.
There, we're both standing in the middle.
Strange, but you were the woman.
The woman I've been searching for
On this lovely evening.
Jan 2018 · 339
Closer
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
I want you close,
Actually closer.
Where our skins are
Touching one another.
Then after, our hands
Will align with each other.
Maybe now we're close,
Too close to let go.
But I don't want to let go,
Because I want you more closer.
Jan 2018 · 252
La Luna
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
60 seconds.
44640 minutes.
744 hours
31 days.
That's how long I've waited for you.
Unshaped, floating under the dark sky.
A light, brighten the big city.
Oh how lovely when you're a full.
Jan 2018 · 433
Wine
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
That's what they call you.
They'd never know who you are.
From inside and out you're good,
Delicious like a fresh cut fruit.
The first smell of yours I'm thirsty.
The second glass raised up I'm in love.
The last cheer of my glass I'm drunk.
Tonight I will give you my body, my soul.
You're not just a wine you're my sweet red wine.
Jan 2018 · 379
Let go
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
No one says it will be easy.
You just have to be strong.
So let go, let go of it.
And you'll see your worth.

No one says it won't hurt.
You just have to be ready.
So let go, let go of it.
And you'll see you deserve more.

No one says you have to stay.
You just have to let it go.
So let go, let go of it.
And you'll see you'll be happy.
Jan 2018 · 377
Unwanted heart
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
My heart is no longer yours.
The words that we shared are now gone.
The smile on your face is no longer my heart's desired.
Your beautiful face is no longer I adored.
Your wonderful soul is no longer wanted.
And the soul you've admired is no longer yours.
Jan 2018 · 153
Rain
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
You must have missed me.
Sometimes last week,
When you were just here.
Drowning my body,
Into your soul.
Just right, maybe that's
How much you love me.
You're right, that's how
Much I missed you.
Sometimes this week,
You came, just right.
Jan 2018 · 237
Heart Talks
Kris Balubar Jan 2018
I get a little-excited thinking
I'm a little crushing.
I feel a bit crazy thinking
I'm falling.
I feel chill thinking
I'm having fun.
I smile, thinking
It's real.
I feel delusional thinking
You are different.
I feel loss thinking
Everything is fine.
l feel alone thinking
I miss you.
I feel needy thinking
You're coming.
I feel good thinking
It's all reality.

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