You’re expecting me to chase your love
    put in more effort into this love than you do
    but when you think about it
    how can love be love when I’m the only one working to love you
    
You’re looking for me to do the most;
    blow up your phone when you barely respond
    steady getting pushed back
    & I question why it’s worth fighting for my spot

I can’t chase your love;
    I won’t allow you to make me out to be the fool
    when I’m getting nothing in return
    but a waste of time & for this phase to conclude

I Miss Me;
before the hell began & I was stress free
before I found out how sad life can be
before I really knew what pain truly felt like
before I found out love truly had a price

I Miss Me;
the old me that never had anything to worry about
when I was able to be me & didn’t have anything to be sorry about
when life was simple, when being a kid was full of excitement & imagination
before the times fast forward & getting older wasn’t my occupation

I Miss Me;
the old me that used to smile endlessly & cried less
when life was about feeling happy without the stress
the old me that was truly alone but not depressed
before life became a roller coaster & the walls my back wasn’t against
before life truly revealed itself, I became lost, & got addicted to the rain
looking for any way out to escape this great pain

I feel better off dead
broken promises of those who I loved dearly
feeling invisible & their actions stated clearly
that I was only needed when on their time
so I struggle to survive most of my days feeling my soul dying
from trying to love as I said I would
but yet, my heart remains ignored & misunderstood.

I feel better off dead
drinking heavy & contemplating on suicide
waiting to go home where the other departed souls reside
wanting to get high just to ease the pain within
caused by enemies posing themselves as friends
I see that monster in my eyes but I refuse to let unleash it
feeling like it’s just evil provoking & I can beat it
but I keep losing control every tear I shed
from thinking how life will change once I’m dead
free from the pain, free from the hurt
no longer living with fear that one day my heart will deperse

It’s days like this;
where I love being laid up next to you
legs around my waist, arms around my stomach
no better feeling than being close to you

It’s the feeling I can’t explain;
when I’m staring into your eyes
kissing your forehead & lips
as I blush whenever your smile replies

Yea, it’s days like this;
when I fall deeper in love than I was before
enjoying every second spent with you
which makes me want you more & more

Rainy Days;
I wish they never go away
I wish for a sunny day delay
& for these Rainy Days to replay

Losing You;
was the best blessing God ever gave me
all you’ve ever done was taught me how to hate me

Losing You;
I never thought the day would come sooner
trying to keep someone temporarily & create a future

Losing You;
destroyed me at first but I didn’t realize
your kind of love was only meant to leave me paralyzed

Losing You;
I thought you took my heart
because I couldn’t love myself, your departure tore me apart

Losing You;
was a blessing unexpected
& I regret trying to fix something that was better off disconnected