I’ve learned a lot of things
in my eighteen years of life
and one of those things is that
people can change like seasons
I didn’t find it quite surprising
when his beautiful oranges and reds
turned into whites and grays
but I must admit
I never have had someone
expect me to change
with their seasons
and go from a loose sweater
to a whole fireplace

Do not tell me
I chose not to search
for happiness when
I had a sunflower
etched into my skin
to remind myself happiness
is out there

i. create a whole book in which
that is the premise
ii. ink your skin with a something yellow
a sunflower will do just fine
iii. start wearing more yellow tones
iv. turn your eyelids into a sunrise
v. form a list of yellow objects and cross off the ones
that have betrayed you in the past
vi. eat as honey like Van Gogh ate paint
and then maybe, just maybe
you have rewritten the whole definition
of yellow

When I woke up
I realized that you’ll never like me
the way I liked you
so, I took a deep breath
counted to ten
and moved on