Broken mind Thoughts of the past Flood to the head Memories which were forgotten Things you wish remained locked Now rush past Clouding your mind Seeing what you went through Fearing what you have become Wondering where you truly are Silently crying out in pain Rushing to seek help Yet none can be found The fear you once knew Now back with vengeance Try your best to hide Remaining stuck In a never ending decent Into a spiralling depression You hold fasts to your chest Trying to clench the pain away But to no avail It lingers there still Scratching at your head You try to breath Hoping that it will not last But the more you wish the more it sticks You begin to crumble Exposing yourself to those you shouldn’t Hoping for them to love you as you are And not what they want you to be But rejection cuts deep You look down and notice Words of hate pouring out From your open scars Closing your eyes You shake your head Trying to dislodge the thoughts That cling to your mind You open your eyes again To find that the words have turned red There is an object on the floor Sharp and coated in crimson You realize in your delirium You have wounded yourself While trying desperately To rid yourself of the pain Puddle on the floor Staining the carpet a crimson red The blood which was once words Flowing out in a rush You stare Not knowing what to do You start to cry again As the pain begins to lift Slowly but surely the pain turns numb You try to grasp your chest But find your limbs are heavy Your eyes begin to shut You think in your mind This is the end You are finally free of the pain But are you truly free
Trapped in a sea of perpetual motions
Going through everyday life like a robot Gears on a never-ending clock Time slipping into the abyss Nothing matters Life turns meaningless In this simple motion of breathing Becoming like clockwork Twirling and spinning Thoughts begin to race The walls tightening Threatening to crush Silence Ear splitting silence Wishing for a sign A glimmer of hope You slip Falling into a sea A sea of faceless people No matter how hard you focus All you see is emptiness You try to grasp onto something familiar Yet all you can find is unforgiving loneliness It hurts to be alone Alone yet not alone People rushing by you Not a care in the world You reach out for help But no one sees No one hears your cries of pain No one can feel the agony in which you live You crumble more and more inside Asking yourself why is this life Where do I fit in this great big puzzle we call life How am I to find what I’m looking for If I can’t even answer the simple question Who am I? Who am I to be stuck in this **** Watching others go by like cogs on a wheel While I stand here motionless Unable to breathe Unable to see the people around me Unable to hear their own cries for help Unable to realize we all need help But have no idea how to communicate
To my far off love
Though these nights are long These days filled with cold stares I think to you and smile Your voice echos in my head With the first time you spoke Three simple words Which set me ablaze Words so simple yet powerful Ringing in my head Like chimes cascading in the wind Singing such sweet melody Escaping the darkness of loneliness Shimmering like fresh morning dew I look back to these words Feeling warm in the brisk air For now I return to sleep But not before I mouth these words For great comfort is brought When I say ‘I love you too’ Good night my love For when we are apart I long for your touch Your simple embrace But utter these words And I feel you near I hope you feel me too I love you
The darkest days reign asunder
We pledge not to this day But to the ever ending night And the shadows in which they walk Fear not the darkness For the darkness is friend No it’s not a pleasant one It will guide us through Here is the light of day Well with it burns agony Searing the wounds of the faithful Smoulders of ashes lay where they stood Seek not for the dawn But the eternal serenity of dusk For when the dawn comes Terror is all that remain Peace be upon you brother And your dire time of need For the caress of the night Shall comfort once again
Sleep is a great mystery for no one really knows what it truly is.
Is it our mind being teleported to another realm? Or maybe we are waking from the dream and going back to reality. Doubt time will give us the answer. For people have been studying dreams for eons. And have yet to find such an answer. Oh Java thou art truly my only friend. Against the impending doom which is burning bright. So bright it dares to engulf nations at a time. For that burning light is sleep. The enemy of the working man. And the dawn of an awakened youth.
Be still thy beating heart
For the damage will fade It may be deafening now But time heals all wounds The darkness you feel will surely brighten The anger that burns will surely dim Be gentle thy sorrowed chest For the pain is but nigh Peace will find you swiftly If only you rest a while Though now it feels Like the heart was ripped Straight out of your swollen chest Rest assured it was only a flicker A flicker of love that was doused With the waters of rejection The pain will slowly dissipate If only you let it heal Be swift thy healing words For soon it might be too late For if this damaged heart remain Surely the beating will stop
You say no one cares
You say that there's no one who wants you No one that needs you around But I have to ask Are you blind? Did you not see my gaze? Did you not feel my touch? Did you not sense my feelings? Did I not voice them to you? Did you not hear my cry? Did you not savor my speech? Am I invisible? I ask you simply Am I not enough? Should I wait in the shadows? For your glancing touch? Should I hide and wait? For something that may never be? Should I run for the hills? Never to be seen again? Why can you not see? That I was there all along. Wanting your touch. Wanting your gaze. You run around Talking to all But here I sit waiting For you to finally see See my heart Laying upon this platter Beating so softly Until no more