I always thought love was supposed to be like the movies,
An ordinary man meets an ordinary woman and they fall in love right?
I mean c'mon?
Two not so perfect people meet,
and they form an unlikely relationship that last forever!
That's what love is supposed to be, right?
Love is suppose to be this heart racing , mind captivating pleasure that enables you to show your feelings in a way you never did before.
You're not supposed to be hurt,
You're not supposed to be depressed.
You're not supposed to wake up feeling like **** because the man you're in love with you can't have?
That's not what love is?
Then why does it feel this way?
Why does my heart feel like its ripped into a million ******* pieces by the man I love?
That's not like the movies.
Growing up, I always thought love was supposed to be this pain free thing. I guess I was wrong. :(
Tears on My keyboard as I write this,
Cause my heart hurts
I don't have you,
but yet it feels like I do
I can't wrap my head around it,
On why I feel this certain way about you
I'm Heartbroken over someone I never was with
But that's what a crush will do to you,
That's what being in love will do to you.
I will take your heart and dance with it,
Spend the night with it,
Then smash it into a million pieces when it's done
Then when you fall for another man,
It will do the same thing,
Time and time again
It fells so good
But hurts so bad
From your smile
To just being in your presence
I feel so ******* stupid
That's why there're tears on my keyboard.
I hate the way you make me feel
You make me feel in a way I never felt before
No one captures my mind like you.
You are in full control of me
and I have no clue
I try to run
but I can never run too far
There is something in my heart that pulls me back to you.
You're always in my thoughts,
You're always on my mind.
I feel like I'm yours
like I belong to you
I don't know.
Was it your smile?
And the way it slowly crept up and it caused the sweet lines and creases around your eyes?
And how they lit up when you saw me?
That was 2 months ago
and I still think about it.
You're just being friendly and here I am falling in love with you.
Maybe I'm too young to understand love
but I think i know what some it is,
Cause when i look at you
I feel like
I finally have lived.
Sometimes at night,
I pretend the pillow next to me is your body.
I pretend that it's you
And I lay next to it.
I pretend that the pillow mimics your shallow breathing,
That it is slightly rises like each breath that you take
And I pretend I hear your soft heartbeat in my ear,
Instead of the piercing silence that surrounds me.
Sometimes I pretend your smooth hands wrap around me softly,
And that your body presses against mines.
Sometimes I pretend that you’re with me
That you wake up with me
That you kiss me
I’ll never understand why my heart chose you
And I’ll keep playing pretend
Cause we will never happen anyway.
— The End —