After all the pain
I can't help but think
Is it truly worth it?
Being here time stops for me
Everyone else is getting on with life, going to work, going on holidays..
Me, I am stuck
Oh you monsterous voice in my head don't tell me otherwise. If I ever get to grasp ahold of you I will tear you to pieces, showing no remoarse.
For the time being I'll have to let you exist.
I will show you how strong I truly am, till you are deminished to nothing more than a spec of dust.
We don’t see the carrots to be cut,
We see the sharp knife that could cut us.
We don’t see the bridge,
We see the other side of the railings.
We don’t see painkillers,
We see medication we could drown ourselves in.
We don’t see the train,
We see the tracks we could lay on.
We don’t see the nice view,
We see the cliff's edge we could jump off.
I am not alive
I am merely a vessel trying to survive
the inevitable will happen
I can't take this anymore
I'm in too much pain
Just know it was a long time coming
You can't just stop thinking that.
You can't just stop feeling that.
You can't just stop being ill.