Riley June Sep 11
stomach blooming with sunflowers,
pick a bouquet to give to the one you love,
will they accept your gift,
the sunflowers won't ever stop growing,
no matter what you do they never leave,
you wear big sweaters to try and hide,
shower in pesticide and drink weedkiller,
don't let the weeds strangle out the sunflowers,
keep them safe,
let them grow,
don't shut out the light,
wake up and pick a bouquet to share,
if you leave them to grow soon you'll be coughing petals,
how can you hide yellow petals on your tongue,
each word scented with summer painted red,
carve around your heart,
hide away from the sunlight to wither away,
do you really think death will come,
i can see petals behind your eyes now,
why did you stop giving sunflowers,
leaves have sprouted from your fingertips,
please don't turn into a flower,
keep them hidden,
don't let them grow,
shut out the light.
Riley June Sep 10
do you ever feel like you are a scrap piece of paper,
people use you as a test since you have no worth,
like if you never existed people wouldn't even notice,
crumpled up and tossed to the floor to soon be forgotten,
who would remember something so completely ordinary,
lined up and picked off to assert your worth,
never picked but left to rot alone soaked in bitter tears,
does it ever get better,

for now, i sit in a corner and question my worth
Riley June Sep 9
i try to fill the hole inside my chest with lies and pieces of memories,
maybe one day i won't feel so hollow and cold,
each day when i wake up i find there is another piece missing,
no matter how hard i try to hold everything together it eventually all comes crumbling down,
every ounce of my being fights to stay together while simultaneously tearing itself apart,
invite others to gaze upon the husk of a person you once were,
muffle your cries with a lump in your throat so people won't come looking,
expose the skin you paint daily with metal,
how many people actually know your truth,
your family lives in a state of oblivion that shields their eyes and mind,
one day the mask you wear will loosen and fall to the ground to shatter,
what will you do after you lose all your protection,
is a warrior worthy without their armor or are they just another person to be forgotten?
Riley June Sep 9
just bury me alive,
fill my lungs with ash,
fold my arms so I may rest,
leave flowers to welt on my chest,
place a rock over my head to remember my name,
will you soon forget me,
one night my voice will slip your mind,
soon my face will fade too,
for the time I have left try and remember,
i'll have your mind soon enough.
Riley June Sep 3
sticks and stones make break your bones but,
words will leave invisible scars that haunt you.
the first time someone teased me i was taught to laugh,
they tease you cause they like you,
why are you so upset its a compliment you should be happy,
so the next time i smiled and let the words carve my soul,
wondering if everyone felt this way but to afraid to ask,
teachers never noticed when i would slip away to cry,
telling no one how much it hurt to smile.

days turned to months which turned to years,
the teasing never stopped but i learned to hide,
others went outside but i stayed away from the arsenal,
each day a new weapon was added to their tongues,
only way to survive was to stay small and disappear,
turn yourself invisible so they won't notice how broken you are,
damaged childhood memories will always haunt you.

hope you can find some sleep at night.
Riley June Aug 28
can you feel a coil in your chest,
does your stomach feel with dread,
will you shake like a leaf in the wind,
how scared do you feel,
what will you do to survive,
there is no hope for your life,
why try to beg for mercy,
don't you see this is your end,
i will run to the end,
sweep me into your arms,
lay me to my final resting place,
allow me for once to feel peace.
Riley June Aug 27
nothing helps anymore,
every morning the same drill,
take the meds to paint a smile,
keep people an arm's length away,
just become a stranger,
it hurts less when there is no one to lose,
never let your guard down,
make jokes so others laugh,
go back home and  get ready for bed,
cry alone until sleep washes over,
then wake and continue the act
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