Don’t know what this feeling is...
Is it missing someone....no...
Or is it reminding me everything...I don’t know....
Just knew I m sad...
And wish for someone to hold me...
Feeling heaviness in my heart...
And my eyes become blurry....
And my mind blank....
So what’s the reason I feel down???
I have gone through this many times...
And never got an answer...
May be this will always be my part...
Never letting me go....
May be I also need it...
To remind me something...

— Jonna Adam

You were my first love...
May be that’s why you are special....
May be you will always be....
Though you never returned my feelings...
I never felt bad...
I keep on loving you for years...
There was time I thought falling for someone else will be like cheating you....
I hold on to you...
Made friendship with you...
Even after knowing that...
You thought of me as nuisance and silly irritating girl...
I cried over that letter...
And made up mind...
I should have stopped there...
but again my love for you wanted to forgive you...
Now when think back...
I was really a fool....

And again when we met after years...
You still make me feel the same...
The same silly immature girl...
You thinks my love for you is still there...
But what u don’t know is I never give my heart to anyone...
And never will...
You are my first failure...
That I accepted with a smile...
I again got attached to you...
Bcoz I found we both love late nights...
And your love for rain...
Your company just made me happy...
But alas we had misunderstandings...
Which will keeps on coming...
So we should part again...
As you said in better terms than hating each other...
I won’t say it didn’t hurt...
But to you I will never be a friend...
I will always be a crazy girl...
And you will again laugh it off with your friends...
So good bye my first love...

— Joanna Adam

I didn’t knew you too was missing from me....
That you were my childhood fragrance...
How l lost you...
I don’t know...
I remember the times where I hated sweet smell of perfumes...
How the smell of flowers irritated me...
How it brings up a headache....
And you came back to me again after a long long time...
Thanks to my better half that he bought me your fragrance soap...
I didn’t realise it that then...
Suddenly I started to carve for your fragrance...
That I bought perfumes and powders of your fragrance....
Still I didn’t realise that you were with me before....
Only when my sis heard my pondering thoughts about you....
And told it’s bcoz you were used to it for years...
In your childhood days...
Made me remember you...
How I waited for my father to get your perfume on my dresses...
Don’t know when I stopped using you...
As it was still there in many more years...
Still I didn’t touched you...
And forgotten....
I don’t know whether to be happy that you came back...
Or sad and angry that I missed one more thing in my life...
May be I  can be both...
And I do hope you will be with me always...
The sweet fragrance of Lavender...

— Joanna Adam

You told her to pick a colour...
To like...
As she didn’t have any favourite...
If only it’s been easy for her...
To choose what she like...
You think she choose to lose all colours in her life...
And she chose to live in shades of Grey...
Only if she could choose...
As she is drawn to shades of grey...
Colours become distant...
Something she thought will burn her  again...
As she is slowly started to mix colours...
As if testing hot water...
Let her to accept the colours...
Let her gone through all colours...
And when the time comes she’ll choose one...

— Jonna Adam

Wanna get drenched one day...
With you beside me....
And feel the rain....
Running around holding our hands...
Laughing around and let the rain kiss our skins...
And enjoy the coldness...
And when we stop to catch our breath...
How you will pull me to you...
And hug me from behind...
And caress my belly under my wet clothes....
And how you will part my hair and nuzzles my nape....
And gently give a bite....
Which made me shiver against you....
And I couldn’t hold anymore..
That I turned around and kissed your lips...
Standing barefoot on you feet...
You hold me tightly and deepened the kiss...

Have you ever wondered why the whole world is lusting over you???

The day you born...
You know you were different...
The one who should have treated you as princess...
Treated like you a prince...
He thought of making a Prince in Princess body....
He made her strong and independent...
Failed to notice what his princess suffered...
Where he saw the young Prince...
The ones around him saw femininity...
They saw the glow around her...
The glow she had when she was happy and smiling...
The ones who hugged her in protectiveness....
Show their disguise in the darkness....

And slowly your glow faded away...
Or you kept it away...
Afraid of being taken away...

And now you can feel the glow...
Pouring outside you...
As you are feeling happy and smiling....
And you are afraid again...
Of lustful eyes...
Which will stare upon you...
And this time be brave and say “No”
— Jonna Adam

Haven’t you ever wondered...
Even though hundreds applause you...
You will be down bcoz just one didn’t appreciate you...
One person who have the power to let you down...
To break your confidence...
To make you fall down from all the steps you have taken...
To wipe off your smile...
To make you feel that you are nothing...
And what you did will never be enough....

— Jonna Adam