Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
Johnny Dust Sep 2020
I can’t go inside
And I can’t drive away
Even my ******* car
Gave up on me today

Don’t you hate only buying clothes
For funerals
And work
When the world divides into two people

A lot of people tell me that it’s easy to say. “I’ve moved on from my past”
But it’s impossible to know for sure

But there’s always someone around the bend for you

Your dreams will never come true
No one will remember you
But you’re gonna be fine
You’re gonna be fine

And I’m sick to death about the future
It’s a weight no one can tell true
I’m lucky for friends like you

When the numb feeling you get from everything
Is both the bandage and the wound
But always more complicated

And I hate being drunk at night
By myself
But it almost makes me think that everything is
Alright
But what do I know
maybe home is just you when you’re happy
Johnny Dust Oct 2021
i showed you the sky today
it was a mixture of pink and blue
As far as I could tell
and nothing could stop me
from yelling, “i cant feel dead anymore”
to a neighborhood i knew wasn't
listening
Johnny Dust Aug 2020
What's the use in telling all of them if you have no validation,
What's the gain in the ending if the outcome only brings degradation,
I swear it you'll be okay, you'll be okay, say it with me you'll be okay,
The answer was silence i'll take it as a no,

Regardless of decent truths that we know,
You've gotta see it, we are not each-other nor our ghosts,
Tying the weight of her worries, jump in the lake just to see if you float,
And she dyes her hair as she dies inside, just a new way to hide,
And she used to believe in innocence amidst the lies,
And she needs just a few more days,
And good God when she speaks of death I could feel it upon the air,
Thickening the moisture in this back room, vibrations seeping through the walls with little care,

It's here that I see why she is,
Here now I see because she is,
She is, or she wants to be,
And it's here behind the dancers and the pretentious songs that we all know the words to,
That it's not about beginnings or ends, the journey is the thing, the journey is the thing,
And I'm untitled, a free roaming interpretation of what really is,
They all have their own thoughts but I could show em different,
And we're all broken aren't we, cause aren't we all just dreams that sizzled out,

And I will save her, I promise myself I could,
I can fit the space between her dreams like I should,
But I know it'll take time that neither of us have,
By God I'll make her see who I really am,
Not who I was, and I'll save her, rescue that body,
Create our own world where we two will live,
It will be just what we need and everything between,
I'll be her savior, that floating piece of her wrecked ship,
I will be so that she can be along with me,
And there will be "together",
Finally some sort of hope for us to hold onto,

But I let her walk away as the music pounds,
Maybe I just like the way what I think sounds.
Johnny Dust Aug 2021
Okay I just need a little time to come back to my place and I will be able to make it for you.
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
I used to see in color,
now I see a little less,
I used to try for banquet,
These days I try my best
If I could get a little rest. If I could get a little rest. If I could only get a little rest.
Johnny Dust Aug 2020
I’ve slapped enough hands
What is happiness worth?
Sometimes you have to embrace
The cautionary tale
That pain makes you exceptional
Johnny Dust Jun 2021
Nothing more satisfying than wasting fossil fuels on a trip back to your hometown

And

I can’t get wasted because I wasted all of my money on drugs
Johnny Dust Jan 2021
Champion shadow boxer
                                               Killing kings and myself

                    I am divine, half alive
                     Wasting my stolen time

My twins lie and wait
Taking what they want

                                     Ask me who I am next time
I might tell you the truth
Johnny Dust Nov 2021
“It should have been different
It could have been easy
But pride has a way of holding too firm to history”
And it spreads like wildfire
Johnny Dust Aug 2021
I took up the bottle to talk to myself
But I don’t like what he’s saying
Tap me out throw in a ringer
I’m losing my grip cause I’m losing my fingers
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
Between great heights and greater lows,
I see you.
No molds and a trembling community,
I see you.
You will love yourself. You will be free, and
I see you.
You often giggle at how trite the world is,
I see you.
What you need, the promise of good, of joy,
I see you.
And in an instant you disappear.
I love our talks
Just don’t love what we talk about
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
You’re a catch at a distance
But I’ve know you for a minute
As busy as your life is
Glad you’ve put me in it

I like to think you know
How things work out for you
And if you could show me
How to be and what path to choose

Because not every night is lit by moon
And no one ever knows the right way
Who can say
What the hell kind of good it’ll do today
Johnny Dust Aug 2020
Tonight it was your bedroom
Beside the corner office envying two lane
Underneath this imperfect breathing ceiling
You made me hate sleeping alone again

Again after years of forgetting how to sleep beside someone
Beside anyone
Giving it all up from loose ends and tight conversations

This is what it was
This is what it means
To give yourself to someone
For whatever they want

Tonight I held you because you wanted it
Maybe needed it
Maybe both
Tonight we were Fools and gave in to desire
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
The unforeseen has a way

of being                                                        

exactly what it is.
When it catches up to you
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
And bridges don’t take sides
I have been in the car for hours
Johnny Dust Jan 2021
Slow down on the smokin
So I thought you would help keep my mouth busy
Now the thought of it is making me dizzy
Now I’m coming down and so are the walls
Johnny Dust Aug 2020
The what's aren't important
to anyone
anymore.
It's the whys
and the hows.
Johnny Dust Feb 2021
I will make room for you to take up space..

To roam.
Don’t be afraid of me
Johnny Dust Oct 2021
And now I have to remember you
Longer than I knew you
I was a child acting like a child.
And
I’m irrevocably
Sorry
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
Sometimes

you miss
things that weren't
particularly good


for you.
And we all hate that you do, but lie as guilty.
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
How terrifying to see eternity when I look at you.
All the unflinching and unchambered pain and grief and joy and achievement in your years to come.
You’re all but too big a heart for your body, and all too shallow a breath for as much as you dive headfirst.
It hurts me when it hurts you. And I hate it. And I love it.
Johnny Dust Apr 2022
I wonder how many of your freckles
Are freckles
And I wonder how many of your freckles
Are embellishments
And I wonder how many of your freckles
Are just reminders.
I see you, sweet, sweet heart.
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
“I’m burning alive with stress and life”
All drawn behind my chest
There’s no running
I’ll wait for it to take its course
Then be well
Johnny Dust Jan 2022
“Do I really wanna live a life like this?

Maybe buy a little house?
Maybe have a few kids?

So I can learn what to be loved unconditionally is?

Is that selfish?”
No more than drinkin 20 beers on the coast eating shellfish.
Johnny Dust Feb 2021
I don't quite remember your name
But I know the wrinkles when you smile
And it's all I can do to keep my cool
Cause I haven't felt this way in a while
Late at night I wonder
Johnny Dust Jul 2021
No good intention is ever good enough
To feel like I’ve done nothing wrong
Johnny Dust Feb 2021
What kind of a sorry ******* would want to live like that?
wants to be tied down from the age of 26
Looks forward to no spare time, and an empty pocket book
Becoming a secondary character in their own paperback story
All too meaningful fights over nothing
Searching for other affections as the years drag
Filling potholes with any kind of quickcrete complements
Sleeping on the couch and eating cold meals, mostly cereal
Finding comfort in old tv re-runs and *******
And you’ll live out the rest of your days
Finding that Sickness Unto Death
Buried with your relatives
Packed into fresh dirt

There was a comfort, all encompassing, although short lived
Having a being, sharing with a being
Not just the redeeming, pretty, thoughtful, and joyful person you are
But also the grime, the filth, the disgusting and the putrid sides of you
And despite all you will do
They will wholly accept you.

Now what kind of a sorry ******* wouldn’t want to live like that?
It’s a shame we killed off those skeletons, I’m sure we would have found good use in them
Johnny Dust Feb 2021
The Strings are buzzing just like me
Cover art became our cover up
Alcohol it helps me sing
Or maybe helps with my honesty
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
She once told me that to live in the Underpass is to live under the heavy thumb of a malevolent God, every one of us a *****, drowsy bird too tame for the wilderness of the sky.

I remember when I first caught sight of the clouds, first felt the wind, smelled flowers...

all at once I felt every ounce of dirt weighing me down.
I thought it was what I was after
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
We’ve all tried to get you sober
Turn it over in your head
Nothings easy now
You should hate me you can blame me
Find a place to make a bed
Then you can lie down
We wish you’d grow up sometimes
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
You look really nice
And I like you
Especially
When you’re out of
Your mind
Like me
Johnny Dust Oct 2020
Now and then
I think about needless things

Stupid ideas and absurd gestures

Sometimes I wonder if
I’m just stealing air

From somebody else’s world
Johnny Dust Feb 2021
Don’t forget he’s one of us
At least he used to be

Passing judgment on passing strangers
Passing drug tests then passing out in your yard
Johnny Dust Apr 2021
Baptized in anger in pity and pride
And I won’t sleep tonight
Its only a drink
You only care what I think
When you’re high
Johnny Dust Dec 2021
I’m not so sick.
And I don’t really want to feel good when it comes back around.
It’s not much fun when I 180.
I’m so sorry most all of the time.
I miss your time with me.
Johnny Dust Jun 2021
Okay I love it so I love you guys so I can do that for when I love it I just want you guys too much and I’ll see what I want for when I have a chance at you and I can help with the other stuff and I’ll lay on my head and I’ll make you feel like you are in love and I miss your love and I miss my heart and love your love and I love love mama love love miss mama love love mama mama love love miss mama love mama love love miss mama love mama love love miss mama love love you mama love love mama mama love love miss mama love love you love love miss mama love love you love love miss mama love love you mama love love miss mama love love you love love miss mama love love you love love miss mama
I can do that when I’m ready
I guess my typing suggestions are pretty centered
Johnny Dust Sep 2020
Because all words are just made up anyways
All words are just complicated air
And I never forced you hand
It was just nice being there

And I’ll wash my hair in the sink
Because I don’t take care of myself nearly as much as I drink
I’m all badly tied knots and broken dreams.

And my chest is still full of fire
I’m all but a bad case of poor resource management
Johnny Dust Aug 2021
When you see an aging building
Or rusted bridge,
You are seeing nature
And man
Working together.
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
And regret the feeling of knowing what forever was like,
And monotone the melody of wondering wrong and right, right? right
And write down the words that can't weather the storms in your mind,
And memorize the patterns of your heart beating time after time
Johnny Dust Sep 2021
“All my time I’ve walked a filed line
I've held a vacant sign upon my eyelids
All my time, oh Lord, I’ve been so blind
But now I see the light peek through my doorjamb”

“But there’s no hallelujah
It will be gone soon
Yeah it will be gone soon
It’s just an empty room
This is our darkest day
We’ll never see the day
But slowly make our way up to the mouth”
Listen to Typhoon.
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
Surround me with family
guilty and pleading
they've got their conclusions about how it is, about how I am
what to do with the wreckage you toss to the side,
oh darling for you
yes it's all for you
when I'm up in the morning and struggle day in day out for you,
too bad you're as selfish as the last home I laid down in bed with
it's a shame when it's finished
fake people with all their fake lives will thank me
Yeah they'll all thank me
Wonderful snippets of laughter
Johnny Dust Apr 2022
There’s something nice about my **** smelling like coffee
And you ******* with the door open
And me sitting on your toilet while you shower
Or me joining you in the shower
And you making more coffee than we can drink in one healthy sitting
And me knowing **** good and well that you don’t have any love for me.
It’s okay if you’re lost right now
It makes for a better story
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
It Always was this.
Are we not drawn onward,
we few,
drawn onward to new era?
The empire builder is returning east, like the rising blade of the guillotine
Johnny Dust Feb 2022
You're nothing new, I swear.
You're nothing different.
You're just another one of them, fine with your fingertips digging into my shoulder blades when you're making me gasp, but so much less in the light.
I can't make a monument out of a good ****. That's nothing monumental.
Johnny Dust Aug 2021
“A real dish risks being eaten for breakfast”
It’s all fun and games until you never let anyone near you
Johnny Dust Mar 2021
We are all struggling with the same fundamental thing.

Even if we realize it or not we are all condemned to the same consciousness.
And the same condition.
An awareness that we are trapped in a mind.

In a body.

In a world.

In a universe of multitudes.

With no idea what any of it really is, or why it is.
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
“I'm of the mind
Your dispassion made you smarter,
Nothing of none.
Just a wandering of the slower.

That god of arrogance went from
thoughts to in your bloodstream.
Behind your eyes.

Shows the difference between the
life you lead and need,
The life you want and need.”
Born to live and work and search.
Johnny Dust Mar 2022
It’s no mistake we met,
Not mere chance or happenstance,
like it was written in some old dusty book,

I’ll fight in your corner,
And if oak doors and drywall have taught me anything,
It’s that I’ve got a mean right hook.
Stay in my corner, and I’ll fight in yours
Ron
Johnny Dust Feb 2022
Ron
She’s got the sort of hair that never looks the same way twice—that falls in all the wrong places, and looks dead **** because of it. She’s dyed it a bizarre, almost gray pastel purple.
Johnny Dust May 2021
i’m a part of a species so beautiful
that we build little homes out of nature
to shield us from nature
and walls that we hide behind
and think about ******* each other
before falling asleep
The Internet Destroyed Us
Next page