He held my hand when I was scared
He tucked me in and taught me to share.
He told me he would never leave
And told me that he wasn't a thieve.

What it was I never knew
Is what real fathers are suppose to do.

He was a liar
A stealer too.

But fought battles that where hot as fire.
He may of tried his best
But he didn't pass the test.

Now sitting here in misery
Not knowing how to deal with grief
I may not be with him again
Even if he deals with his sins.

He left me.
I now I have no hand to hold......

I look up and only see stars
You know there not that far

Unable to see the future and remember the past
But the present disappears so fast

It reminds me of his eyes.....
Nights filled with sorrow and sighs

Fields surrounding, full of lights
Pretending its alright

Darkness surrounds us now
While listening to distant howls

Breath like winds
Moans unable to apprehend

As stars start to vanish
He paints the sunrise on His canvas

I look over and you start to fade
My eyes fill with tears as emotions invade

Now only a distant memory
Feels like a century

Hiding under my fake smiles
Going though acres of trials

Glimpses of you at certain hours
Grab my attention and moments empower

Unable to witness you in sunbeams
Only able to stare at you in my dreams

His smile could light a thousand fires.....

Devastating existence pulls me downward
Gravity forces me down and forces me to live
Rushes of wind pull me forward
The earth says sorry and forces me to forgive
Senseless air drains my lungs
Once again, the earth pulls me down breaking my bones
Words carve and pierce my tongue
When nothings left to break, my body looks like piled stones
Wind and gravity stops as I breathe my last breath
Life flashes and before I know it
I take my last breath
As the world forgets I’d even existed.

Everyone glanced at her as if she were debris
Residue, that would never go away
Determined to go to an association but other mentality doubts
Her mother always told her "They don't care about how much you know until they know how much you care."
But the girl never achnoledged her mother
The girl thought her heart was unclean
Every moment was nonexistent
As if nothing was happening at all...
Her life had turned around, once acceptable to imperceptible
Pessimistic was she, as the world defyed her
Air was thick like wood as she held the last thing influential to her.
She swallowed the multitude of tablets all at once, trying to ignore the ****** taste
As she layed down and reflected her whole life
Happiness, tragedy, faith, expectations, achievement, ambition....
Lost in a nameless sea of faces, she exhaled her last breath in a silent scream
The world never knew her, not even her name
Despite her appearance or world of shame
Youth 're reconized her after her pass
Everyone gathered even her oppressors
Grief sorrow and misery were current
Her mother was right
Everyone cared because they knew....

Sometimes everything seems like absolutely nothing.
Reality is there...
but only seen from a distance.

"How do you let out all of your pain?" said the beautiful red-head.
"I write."
"How does that help?" asking questionably
"Do you know how when you open a coke bottle, and its shook up so its super full?..."
"Yes"
"Well, its kinda like that... You have to take it slow and let air slip one moment at a time." I say.

The clouds have lifted and cleared
But my soul is still dark and depressed
I see the ocean
Craving the waves I want to swim...
Deeper into my emotion
Just to touch my beautiful
Yet painfully stricken brittle seafloor......