Today my goal is to
                    eat and shower.
disassociate from the lack of sleep.
My mind singing a mantra of random
                                              nothings.
Clattering around like pans.
I don't feel real anymore.
Everything's so blurry and distant.
Never able to attain
                               anything.
Inconsistency is my middle name.  
You'll never know who ill be the next day.
self mutilation is my favorite hobby.
whatever it is i want it to hurt at least a little.
The Ice Cold Burn.
Pushing my self to the edge to see what waits below.
The journey i travel is treacherous.
surprises are lovely but there are hardly any pleasant ones.

The morning assaults my eyes.
your seeing through my facade.
but don't sweat it
                 I see through yours too.

Someday you’ll love you.
From the sparkle in your eye,
To the pitch of your laugh,
Even the color of your hair.

You will love every part,
From every wrinkle,
To every crinkle,
Every part of you.

But they will try to tear you down,
To make you frown,
To make you think you’re not worth it.

But darling you listen to me.

From the way you walk,
To the way you talk,
You will be mocked,
But don’t you listen.

From your weight,
To your height,
You are all wonderful to me.

Maybe one day you’ll see,
The beauty I see.
The way you were made,
So beautifully.

But until then,
Do not forget,
On how true beauty,
Comes from within.