Oh how I long for the impossible,
to see your name on my screen,
to pick up and just hear a melody,
your voice itself a soothing one.

Oh how I beg for the unfeasible,
to somehow spot your smile,
amongst a crowd of strangers,
and feel alive again with you near.

Oh how I kneel and pray for the unknown,
for your soul to be at bliss and peace,
oblivious of the hastles and pain,
just what you wished when earthly.

A slow transition, yet so quick,
from strangers to healers, we went.
You ripped your skin, I saw through,
and it felt a reflection of mine.

Found a soul pleading to feel loved,
searching to feel safe and adored.
Scars bleeding, pain un-ceasing,
you knew to give, not to take.

Saw a heart that deserves love,
so lost and tired to search or ask.
Didn't know just being there,
felt healing and freedom for you.

Kindness is all you asked of me,
love was everything I had in me.
You healed, only to bleed more,
when you had to make a choice.

Like squeezing hard for a last drop,
found reasons to stay a little longer,
didn't matter a second or a minute,
it was considered the most precious.

Lived and laughed, in the moment,
loved, like there was no tomorrow,
stayed, until there was no option,
than to slip away for your good.

Yet, after the sun went down and,
darkness encumbered me in whole,
I wonder what could have been done,
to have had another minute with you.

A whole year just passed by,
didn't notice the 365 days gone.
Stepping into a new set of days,
nothing feels the same, and yet, it is.

It's just another day for me,
fighting hard with reality.
All darkness and emptiness,
nothing else can I feel around.

Another year lies ahead, and I hope,
I won't make it to the end of it.
Waking up to know I'll never see you,
is a pain that can not be put in words.

Bidding goodbye to the last year,
which took all hopes from life.
Continued into 25, without a choice,
to live with the memories and your soul.

Delved deep into myself to see,
to understand what you saw in me.
Couldn't find something unique,
that you couldn't find elsewhere.

But I did find childishness and smiles,
which came out when around you.
You saw what others failed to,
because you were the reason behind.

You had your purest honest version,
around me, and I got it easy as ABC.
We loved the version of ourselves,
that only we could bring out in us.

Could never figure out why,
but, all I know is my love for you,
would never change whatsoever,
unconditional it remains for all times

Such a fleeting time of bliss,
hundreds of memories,
of smiles, laughter, fights, and tears,
and moments of peaceful love.

All of which are now,
to be cherished for a lifetime.

We always spent time near the waters,
gazing at the reflection of lights,
the ripples forming and spreading,
every moment at peace with nature.

Sitting alone by the waters now,
looking at the birds flying over head,
listening to the splash against rocks,
you occupy all of my mind and heart.

They ask me to let your soul be,
but the heart isn't ready to let go.
I never disrupted your peace on earth,
and I'm sure, I'm not doing it now.