Have you ever noticed
The green leaves in the summer
Ever thought about the moment they would turn
A different color
When the yellows and oranges begin to bleed through
Or do you only notice their beauty
Before they whisper "Adieu"

I sit here every evening
every night
Nothing comes to mind
No muse in sight
I have an ache inside
I can't describe
I type a few lines
Words won't rhyme
Failing each time
The sting inside
A low lit flame
Dwindling down to nothing
Why can't I find
What's burning inside
And type it all out
Confusing doubt
Not even sure what it's about
The words pour down the sink
Draining to never be seen
I'm stuck in between
The chaos unheard
And losing myself
Placing my unfinished words
Back on their shelf

We are uncontrollable whirlwinds
Spinning faster and faster
We can't hang on to the world anymore
Everything is lost
A sad and pathetic disaster

We dance in the cancer
To the most sorrowful song
Destroying all that is in our path
Never acknowledging what went wrong

We walk past the scorched ruins
Ignore the slow burn of humanity
We feed the flames of our ego
To satisfy our own personal vanity

Everything crumbles underneath us
Nothing left to console
When this world is over and done with
It will cry so much harder
Than any human soul .

I took the words that dove from your lips
And let them drown inside me
Hoping that they would sink forever
Suffocating your washed up memory

Your name on the tip of my tongue
Your voice at the edge of my brain
Like jumping off a cliff to end it all
Forgetting you is hard to explain

Her embrace is a welcomed touch
A warmth filling your soul
You catch her contagious smile
A reaction you can't control

Her laugh is a black and white movie
A catharsis in her sound
Her energy a classic
A rush of nostalgia when she is around

Her eyes hold her secrets
Theres a mystery in her gaze
An unsolvable puzzle
An inescapable maze

Suspended in time
Weightless and unworried
We hang on to the moment
Sedated magic unhurried

His scent is captivating and wild
Forever embedded in my brain
Masculine and crisp
A few hints of the earth after a rain

Insecurities held at bay
I live inside your sanctuary
Your embrace keeps me safe
My senses relaxed and unwary

He caught the glitter running down her cheek
Kissed away the rain
Her twinkle a fading star
He wanted to siphon the pain

Ready to move mountains
He would lasso the moon
Water an entire forest
To see his wildflower bloom

Read you my poem
Excited to share, you're deaf
You silenced my lips

You dont get to pick and choose
Forcing someone or something to be a muse
Like nature it grows organically
From your heart and mind's insanity
Picking up letters and phrases
Hands typing quick across the pages
The rhymes don't even matter
Thoughts always seem to scatter
Never satisfied with the image you wrote
But it's better than words stuck in your throat

It's the quietest time of night
Where the moon has peaked
All is hushed
And you're supposed to be asleep

But your mind plays games
Making noise that keep you awake
Mocking your restlessness and fears
Little monsters play tug-of-war
And swing from moonlit chandeliers

I Find comfort in the dark
A pitch black tranquility
But little monsters search for a thought
To keep me awake unwillingly

Heart steadies like the sea
Holding on to the evanescent dreams
Waiting for the pounce of little feet
Jumping on on you like a trampoline

They've finally tuckered themselves out
From running about
They curl up beside me
And count their sheep
Beside little monsters
I sleep

Your eyes are an inferno
I cant help but look away
Slow burning in my chest
It's not your gaze, but what you say

Your words set me on fire
Slowly hushing the embers
Charring what left inside
Pacing your slanders

Every tomorrow will rain
To wash away the ashes
But your words left a stain
And you still hold the matches

My mind wanders all day
And I daydream of you
Closing my eyes for a moment
Imagining myself on top of you

Just a few more hours to go
It's been such a long week
Longing for your warm embrace
Your silk touch on my cheek

I hear you calling
Every minute of every day
I leave you waiting
I'm sorry I couldn't stay

I'll make it home to you
Your patience goes unsaid
I cant wait to crawl into you
My love. My bed.

Slowing chipping at my shell
I watch it start to break away
Some days it doesn't seem to crack
But I still make progress anyway

Inside this loved but shackle of a shell
I've been the same me
Living by my limits and inhibitions
But I finally feel like breaking free

Unsure of who I am to become
Like a mystery without a clue
There's beauty in ultimately finding one
The discovery of something new

The pieces fall off when their ready
Those tiny slivers that once kept me safe
Breaking through your own shell
Is about growing and finding your place

My head is heavy
Broken shards in the sides
Stiffened vines creeping
Taking over my insides
A booming weight of chaos
Buries me alive
Left with the fear of survival
And only a pinhole of light

You drew her in
Like the last breath you'd ever take
Drowning in her eyes
Hitting the blue and silver wakes

She reached for your hand
Shaking you from your slow descent
Her touch like a velvet rose
A warmth without an end

She laughs and you close your eyes
Hanging her smile in your mind
A gallery of your favorite pieces
Her portrait a one of a kind

You look into her eyes
How waves of blue collide
But she sees weary hollows
Something her exhaustion cannot hide

You touch her hands
So soft and enduring
But she feels her fingers
Parts her anxieties keep shearing

You watch her smile
Like replaying a favorite memory
But she notices her smirk
Crooked and unsteady

The mirror you hold is cracked
She will never see what you see
Her insecurities unwavering
But you will repeatedly disagree