Thoughts racing, thinking of escaping
Am I trapped? Have I been confined to live in this place of regret?
This is all my fault, placed here through my actions, never to feel again the grace of satisfaction
Death appears to be the only light, it feels like there’s no reasons left to fight

A hostage to my own mentality, an everlasting insanity
There is no breaking free the chains of subconscious slavery

Consumed by the thoughts in my head, nothing makes sense but the voices want me dead
Constricted by the walls of my mind, telling me to leave this all behind.
Oh how I crave such a shallow grave; bring me to my final resting place

Death holds a constant grip on me

My head forever held in shame, forget my face, forget my name
Disintegrate all feelings once felt, pandemonium is where i’m left to dwelt
Beating hearts never felt so cold, living within this hell all alone
Ceasing to exist is all I’ve ever known
Calloused, broken, bruised and bleeding
My inner compass has lost its true north, always contemplating back and forth
Standing on the fringes of existence, pushed from the edge of my subsistence

A hostage to my own mentality, an everlasting insanity
There is no breaking free the chains of subconscious slavery

Unworthy to call this body a home; this prison of mere flesh and bone
I have become darkness incarnate, a true form of the blackest abyss
Deliver me from dissolution, no absolution from my own retribution

This mortal vessel has run it’s course, completely depleting my vital life force
Nothing can save me from myself, my own worst enemy, my soul forgotten like an unread book on the shelf

A hostage to my own mentality, an everlasting insanity
There is no breaking free the chains of subconscious slavery

With every notion of devotion I beg and plead to thee, please release me from this grim reality

All i ever did was care
But you were never there

Run, run
But you can’t hide
From the demons that chase you
Trying to move forwards
But continuously falling back

To live is to risk it all
We’re not getting out of here alive
Fear will be your downfall
We’re becoming susceptible to the mind hive

There’s no mask
To hide the stench
Of this rotting flesh

Frozen to the bone
Yet burning at the core

Upside down
Hang me from my feet
Let the blood run free
Let this life leave me

When did I lose control
Grasping tight with no grip
Falling through my finger tips
Will I ever become whole

Living this life in vain
I’ll take on every single pain
Ship me to the wasteland
For eternity I’m dammed

Tell me
Was this all apart of the master plan
Troubled times we have fallen upon
If I bare one more mistake, consider me gone
To the underworld; from earth forever banned

Don’t cry
You’re not to blame
I’m the only fault
I should have talked, instead I listened
I thought that was the truth
But now I see, the only person to blame
Is me
Shed not another tear
Continuing my walk of shame
This is meaningless
My head wrapped in pointlessness

Sick minds never to be cured
Falling trap to the sirens’ lure
Songs of the dead
Love me nevermore

A shot made in the dark pierces the heart
We were never meant to hurt, yet we choose not to heal
Sign my name in blood, I’m taking the devil’s deal
From the material world I’ll depart

Listen to the echoing cries of the souls lost
Too late to wish it was more I had fought

The silence of humanity is still louder than the screams of the dead
This place in hell I now call home
It was the closest thing I’ve found to not feeling alone

Keep your humility and thoughts of progression
For where I am now death was the only gift we wished for
Completely succumbed to corporate possession
Beautiful on the outside yet rotten to the core

Everybody will die
Everyone will suffer
You’re just a walking corpse
Slowly digging your own grave
You won’t be saved

Why do I push everything away
I can no longer keep this at bay
Pushing everyone out from my life
This torment of never feeling right

These shackles bringing me to my knees
I’ve built this prison and buried the key
If this was love it shouldn’t be killing me
Release me from the weight of this gravity

Awaken each day with a burning, aching pain within my chest, made from veins, bone and ******* flesh
What a sight to behold
As I watch this anguish unfold
Such a terrible mess
This is distress, at its best
Prisoner to this phobia
Confined to this hysteria
Walking alone fearing my own shadow
Never to know who i’ll become tomorrow

These shackles bringing me to my knees
I’ve built this prison and buried the key

Particles of mist fill the air
Looking through that painstaking glass
It’s me I see from the reflection on the flask
The sun rises as does my mask
Putting it all away, that underlying pain
Hidden away by a laugh and smile, no worry it’s only for a while

The horrors that surround me continues to unfold
“It’ll get better” is what I’m told
No one questions if it doesn’t
Leave me dead and bludgeoned

Numbing the pain through scarring limbs
Darkness grows near, the light becoming dim
My hope constantly wearing thin
When will I find pleasure ever again
The spite in myself is more than hate
Death has always been my fate

If this was love it shouldn’t be killing me
Release me from the weight of this gravity

I won’t waste your time with what goes on in my mind, because I’m slowly forgetting.
Forgetting everything one day at a time
Everyday feels the same, why do things have to be this way, a feeling of happiness never to be regained

Eyes have become hollow sockets
Lungs nothing more than air pockets
Heart empty filled with despair
Mind left with too much to bear

Overwhelming torture and discourse
Drowning every guilt with remorse
Nothing but bitterness and disgust
There’s no faith left to trust

I used to tell myself that I would never become someone else
But I should have told myself
I was going to be somebody

This world seemed so quiet when you were here
Now surrounded by static and noise
So again I find myself swimming to the bottom of the bottle just to block out all sound
Who have I become this time around