When you're homesick,
you should go outside and close your eyes.
Then look up into the night,
see all the clouds in the same blue sky.
*It feels like home doesn't it?
It did, even for just a second.
Clouds are the same everywhere.
Laying in the grass
you look up into the sky,
it's a warm night between summer and fall.
The stars twinkle and you let yourself drift off.
You're floating up to the stars,
all of the things that make you who you are,
Then you wonder,
is it wrong?
To wish for a savior?
I'm here to tell you it isn't.
It's okay to want someone to save you.
To long for them...
to wish they'd rush into your life
and be there to catch you.
You're only so strong alone.
It's okay to sometimes,
want someone to be the hero you're dreaming of.
My heart fills up until it's pounding
I freeze and wonder where you are
or what you're doing...
Are we even in the same universe still
or are you out there floating?
A lot of my life has encompassed you somehow.
Whether I was just thinking of you during a sad time
or laughing while reminiscing...
I miss you and hold you in my memories.
Though, we'll probably never meet again
I hope time will untangle someday for me too
and we'll cross paths come what may.
I miss you.
Life is spinning around and around, things keep circling around and around, we all are moving like a whirlpool swooshing in our feelings until we thrash through enough to feel better.. but it just repeats and repeats.
Why am I tearing up
as I'm looking back at all this stuff?
I know I can't go back to these days,
so what's the point in feeling this way?
I dont remember the last time
I spoke to most of them,
So many of them are married now.
Of course I am happy for my past friends.
Sometimes it's just hard.
These people used to be the light in my life.
I'd run off the school bus to get inside,
just hoping they hadn't started a que yet.
I hoped so strongly back then
that they'd be waiting for me to get back.
Everything changed so fast.
Everything changes so fast...
I have not spellchecked this yet.
I hear his laugh
and the world stops spinning.
No one ever told me how good it felt
to just be happy.
To take a look at your life
and know what's happening.
Even if it's still the beginning
things can change so fast.
I never thought I'd move out
I always believed I'd be sad forever,
that I'd end up settling for someone
who always hurt me and made me cry.
Today I'm happy.
I can see my future unraveling.
I am in love with my best friend,
and I don't know what will happen tomorrow...
But I know it will be okay.
I'm finally in a place where I feel kind of comfortable. I'm not thinking about death everyday or feeling unevitably sad when I wake up. I feel like I will be okay and am hopeful.
Thunder claps before the lightning strikes.
At least it did for me, and I learned
how a storm can be a beautiful thing.
The sprinkling rain
felt like kisses on my cheek.
Flutters came along after,
and swept me off my feet.
Everything felt better in the rain
that flooded past my ankles.
Even if it resulted in a sprain
it was still worthwhile.
The thunder was so vibrant,
I wanted it to last forever.
I thought it would have been nicer,
but the thunder was the tip of the iceberg.
After the thunder was over
I had no time to waste.
I tried dancing alone in the rain
and jumped from puddle to puddle.
It just wasn't the same.
When the lightning struck I was lost,
determined to make things work,
I stood tall on the perilous ground.
I would stay until things cleared out.
I refused to let this time be like all the rest!
I wanted to pass the test with flying colors
but I lost myself trying to impress others.
I was stuck in a downpour for what felt like forever.
I let the lightning strike me
but I made it out alive.
I'm smiling up at the sky, in the sunlight
that's peaking out at me.
A storm is a beautiful thing.
I'm so glad that I can call you my friend. We may not talk every day or every month, but, it makes me happy to see how you're doing. You created a great bundle of memories with me and I can't thank you enough for the lesson you helped me to learn. I'm so glad that you're happy and have made such a beautiful life for yourself. I'm proud that I can look back and know that you're a part of my story. Thank you.