One day happened to change my life.
Tomorrow is also a hassle, however.
But what about three days from now?
Or even 4 seconds, minutes, hours.
It took you 5 seconds to say good bye, and by the time 6 seconds were up, you were completely gone.
Now 7 months have passed, you barely made a single call.
8...9...10 pills. At least that's all I remember taking. It was a dead night on the 11th month of the year. I thought it was going to be literal.
12 minutes had passed before I started to really blackout.
And by the 13th, I was knocked out.
Someone had then found me. My mother. "This shouldn't have to happen to my baby girl" she cried.
14. The age that began my depression. I moved a lot during that age.
14 then turned to 15. Things still weren't any better.
Now comes the big 16. The time were I can taste more freedom.
At least I thought I did.
But not quite.
16 is also the time this all happened.
A sweet sixteen soon turned into a damnation.
A father left her little girl when she needed him most.
I just wanted to vent + sorry if this doesn't make a ton of sense.~
How can something that's so free;
no guidelines or how to,
No grades or reports,
No do this,
Or do that,
Be so complex?
I'm basically stuck in the corner of my own mind.
The first sip of warm coffee
On a cold fall morning,
While leaves are changing,
And others are falling;
The birds are singing the morning lullaby,
And there's a cold breeze coming in from the window you never fixed.
The sun is just barely rising,
The sky a hue of orange and purple;
The time of day when you really appreciate everything,
And don't worry about anything.
Those are my favourite kind of mornings.
Sorry I haven't posted in a long time, I've been really busy, but I'm going to try to post at least every week! Thanks for the support :)
Tall dark trees,
A barrier to the sky;
Holding me back from the stars.
There are so many
Millions upon millions
I would love to just float up to them
Up into the unknown
No one would be able to hurt you up there
No mistreat or abuse
No more pain.
The stars flicker their greeting to you
Come up here, darling,
We'll take away your worries.
Even though they're so different from you
It doesn't matter
They will accept you
And let you live among them
Let me take this last breath
*Ill be up there soon.
This is from a story I'm writing about a girl trying to fit in and figure herself out. She's kind of a no one who moves around a lot from her dads traveling job. She's about to give up, but something isn't quite right .
I used to want to be thin
To be taller
To have more friends
And to live like royalty
But that wasn't the way I'm supposed to live
I am made to be the way I am
Like the things I like
And live the way I live
I am the one and only
No one else can be me
Why should I be someone else?
Even if you get judged,
What better does that make them
If you stand up taller
You don't need them
Those people who tease you;
Their words may hurt
But there's too many people in this world
For very few to hurt you
Now open your eyes
And clear your mind
For this is only the beginning
And I'm here cheering you on
Love yourself for who you are and what you have, rater than for what you're not and what you don't have.
That is the true key to life.
I'm a wreck, ma
There are people all around
And there is a smile on my face
But no one heard my cries
No one had seen the pain in my eyes
Everything looks like greyscale
With a twist of red
It was only on me, ma
My whole body
Was b r o k e n and damaged
There were marks everywhere
Where the red came from
Does no one still see?
I'm standing on a busy street, ma
Trying to scream
But everyone just walks by
I feel my lungs filling up
But everyone around me is breathing
I'm up on a building now, ma
Holding my breath
I'll jump, ma
Do you hear me now?
Are you listening?
Can you understand?
I can't hear you.
It's too late now, ma
I'm staring up at the clouds now
People are rushing to my side
Is this all it takes?
"This child must have slipped"
I seeked your attention
I wanted someone to listen
I needed your help long ago
And you didn't care
"They were a good friend"
Wait who are you
We've never talked
Suddenly everyone is sad
I've been sad for a long time
How come you didn't notice earlier?
It's funny when you're not a 'pretty face'
Because then no one cares until you're dead
But then you are pretty
And now everyone cares.
But I'm sorry, ma
You are too late
You should've noticed earlier
Good bye, ma
I'm happier now
*Not by your side
Suicide takes it's toll
Make sure you pay attention to everyone
People need help
Be there for people
Don't waste time hating everyone
We all need someone once in a while.
— The End —