The moon glistens and listens

while I release waves of emotions.



Emotions nameless—

But experienced throughout the day

and escape at nighttime.

Consuming cries and restless.



The moon glistens and listens

while memories replay in my mind.



Emotions hopeless—

Surfacing from my heart

and through my soul.

Shutting eyes and breathless.



The moon glistens and listens,

while I gather myself to sleep.

stuck in my head
to when we were young
Emotions made our decisions
logic. reason. never in sight.
stupid in love or just plain stupid
it was you and me

Seasons of my life —
And I feel like I’m evolving
but pain
Is repeating.
The love isn’t the same.
Love carries precautions.

I am not mad
I am raising my voice
To express how I feel about the things you do
But if you cannot comprehend the words spilling vividly
Or see my emotions painted on my face
Or my moving hands measuring my intensity
Then you assume I am mad

I carry my heart in a tight grip
With a melody, a symphony
That trembles out my lament
Of longing to be who I used to be
In hopes I change my path
To the one I am meant to be.

Paint me a picture
Of long ago
When the moon stood still
And dreams came true.

You say to go with the flow
But I move with a heart full of love
Despite the pain I carry
Ready to give.

How/Why
do you expect the best
when you offer the worst?

you really took the bait
thinking you’re better than me
you did to me what I did to you
bitter and sweet what you did to me

What a fool to think that what we had could be real
To think that a repeated story could turn out differently
But here we are broken for different reasons
You’re mad because I’ve had enough of your *******
And I’m upset from all I have been through
Sacrifices and rebellious love gestures
All for a greedy boy who can never Love

Karma isn’t always the case
Just your (guilty) conscience
teaching you a lesson
About compassion
Sympathy, empathy
You’re human
Learn from it
Mistakes, decisions
A life choice
Taken by chance
Or fate
It was given
So take the lesson
Or Karma
Will be the case

I reached
A dead end
With you.
Everything
With you
Was a
Roundabout.
So continuous
And repetitive.
I needed
Something new.
So I did
Just that.
I took a left
And I was right.
I knew
I reached
An end
With you.

A one night stand has turned
Lust to Love.
Sparks twirled in the darkness
Igniting fire from privates to heart
Burning brighter with every touch
from hands to heart.
The crackling becoming its own conversation.
A women with fury of her own
stands on the sideline
blowing our fire, trying to extinguish us.

If you’re tired of life—
you’re going the wrong direction.

You,
Them in the back,
and
Society
WRONG.

I’ve
got a
pleasant
knife
sticking
out my
back.

A chip, a chance
Same deck of cards
Bet.
All in with a poker face
I saw through you
Now you lost me
You didn’t even have me at all
You got it all twisted from the start
Thinking I’d fall for your game
Pulling the same exact card on everyone
But I’m not just anyone—
I’m someone—
Who couldn’t and wouldn’t be played the Joker.
I’m a Queen waiting for my King.

You didn’t give me anything that wasn’t mine before
I am no wrongdoer, just like you’re not righteous
To sleuth to snoop—
You’re doing too much.
Kicked you to the curb,
No hard feelings.
You just put me in a bad mood.

Do not crave me for the petals bloomed around into a beautiful bright red spread.
Do not crave me for the leaves decorated around my body in a dance with the light breeze.
Crave me for the thorns around every part of me for that is where my truth lies, where all of me is real and vulnerable.

Fate has asked me to dance and
I can’t say no.

I lived through it—
I am past it.

in a world
You and I
would be together.