To my right
My spirit dances through faded expressions in and out of time.
Leaving my heart with an astounding sense of freedom.
No longer hinged
Searching of ways to destroy misery
I can see the flowers blooming under tiptoed footsteps
Carrying panic filled waves out to sea.



However I am drawn to the left,
My head oh so slightly tilts
In the direction where the wind blows fast
And my true being is something that cannot be grasped
Down it pours
These tears of mine begin to hit the floor
Lighting fills the sky
My body freezes
As I can feel a young life drifting on by
The closer the touch
The stronger the thoughts come
I brush it off,
And say something under the lines of “Cross Roads*”

My unforgiving thoughts
Takes me down low
My sorrow awakens
A body warm but hollow

My unforgiving thoughts
Awaits my caged in mind
Depressed
Smothered between wall beams
Mask on
Head held high
You would have never guessed
My unforgiving thoughts
Have yet to leave me at rest

My suicide attempts are **** poor
nothing more,
I'm at war with self
As days become years
My tears crumble up and dry to my face
They don't appear for the eye to see
Only I can feel them
Like the pain that covers me

Falling down this tree I go
Falling where no one knows
Piano music in my mind
Unable to remember the memories left behind
I can take a step and remember the last
Although I cannot capture the beauty of the past

I only felt;
what I'm forbidden to feel
The chocking around my neck
As I leave a life unfulfilled

The days sunset glistening in my gloomy eyes
My last seconds disappear as death arrives
The final thought I held within
Was "A Life Loved Is Hard To Find."

Her eyes,
Her strength,
The way she looks through the beauty of mine.
She puts me down,
Each and every time.
I think I've fallen down,
Down again.
She pushes me out the window,
I'm guessing we were never friends...