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8.9k · Jul 2014
Gay is ok. Rewrite Religion
Inevitable Jul 2014
I got writers block somethin serious, like no other. But I'm ready to drown my feelings and put them down under. I just know I'm not letting my life get taken away from your conservative mother. Why can't she just take those beliefs and treat em like somethin to smother. I don't want you to leave and listen to her and go find yourself a brother. You are my calm, my rain, but all Im hearing is thunder.
5.3k · May 2014
Trust The Untrustable
Inevitable May 2014
The tree portrays trust to tangle in the winds gusts.

Allow your mind to envelope my words in ways the leaves move freely.

Entwine with my body, silent secrets, sweet something's, shadow my sheer sorrow.
1.6k · Nov 2014
anxiety attacked
Inevitable Nov 2014
ice bath through my veins.
my chest caves in.
wrists bound in chains.

the tears flow.
I can't speak.
no one knows.
barely on my feet..

Heat wave.
trembles.
I can't be saved.
suffocation.
helplessness.
to my head, I'm slaved.
if you ever wonder what it's like
1.5k · Jan 2021
Contact High
Inevitable Jan 2021
lovely flowers rooted in my lungs.
medicated exhales clouding the air around us.
i just want you in my space.
1.5k · Oct 2014
goodnight
Inevitable Oct 2014
that last kiss
that last text
that last look
I don't know
where to go
but right now
all I know is
you were wrong
this is right
save your words
save the fight
I'll leave it be
as for now
I'll close my eyes
and say goodnight.

you led me out of denial.
just writing
1.2k · Feb 2021
spilled secrets //TW
Inevitable Feb 2021
To the few people i've given away my secrets to:

The moments I spilled my truth to you, the fragile flame I call hope had finally emerged from the deepest cracks I call me, and cried for help.

I don’t do it for attention.

Okay maybe i do it for “attention” but when you call help “attention” it makes it feel wrong.

I remember when I realized she was telling on us.

i know when I walk late at night and the quieted light I call life, inside me, flickers weakly and posts my 2, 3, 4am walks for anyone to see
she is screaming for help

I realized one day those walks were filled with hope of an inevitable demise. These sidewalks have no place for any being at hours when demons creep but i'm so comfortable under the moonlight with my demons in tow. ******* help me

One of the most dangerous signs for me is when you think im fine
spoiler alert i dont think ill ever be fine but

You see me in public. You see me smile. You see me reach out and make plans.

This my dear friends is my goodbye

Just to make your last memory sweet because it’s all you ever wanted for me
But so unattainable.. Until now
1.1k · Sep 2017
Love is a hell of a drug
Inevitable Sep 2017
I used to hit to get high or hit to get by.
**** I'd hit just to lie next to another lie just to feel my next cry and wonder if it hurt to die.

I used to hit to get high or hit to get by. That love was where my motivation lied. I wasn't looking for a single love but multiple feelings of maybe appreciation or the approximation of someone wanting my affection or attention.

I used to hit to get high or hit to get by.
3 4 5 people in and out of my room never seeing the naked truth or naked you that one who said loved should see. All I knew is I wanted to be what they need and who they see without the loyalty.

I used to hit to get high or hit to get by.
The rush was amazing. The divide was encasing as the sin and lies overwhelmed and the curtain started raising...

I used to hit to get high or hit to get by.

I saw and sobered. Not from love but the addiction itself. I sobered from the urge that made me want more, in fact this love I felt was more in depth. In fact it crept and wept sweet tears and happiness. All I wanted was the one; I saddened less. I was what she needed along with the loyalty. I asked about her needs and wants and acted accordingly.

I used to hit to get high or hit to get by but now I comply to loves law. Abide in her soul. A love and devotion I am no longer able to control. Our love is almost story tale told. I no longer wait for another to unfold.
999 · May 2014
Untold
Inevitable May 2014
The walls are caving in..
There's not much more I can Take.
The anxiety is taking over..
All these feelings I can't fake.
I like you a lot.. But I guess now it's too late.
I'll repeat that as my heart breaks
982 · Oct 2016
Ecstasy
Inevitable Oct 2016
Wrapped around her finger
Metaphorically and physically
The way she looks in my eyes
Heavy breaths exhaling desire
Light reflects off the sweat on our skin
I take a hit off your hips
Inhale your passion
Trace your curves with the tips of my lips
Grip your throat delaying your breaths
A sudden gasp as I explore your love

Follow me into ecstasy
904 · May 2016
Her flower
Inevitable May 2016
Hands trickle down your naked body like a soft morning mist.
Spreading your legs to expose your beauty.
Petals of your beautiful rose shine and welcome me.
Lookin deep into your eyes straight into your heart.
My tongue caresses your flower, sipping from your fountain.
Your body moves gracefully in pleasure.
Placing my hands on your hips to grip and lick...
Feeling you grip my tongue involuntarily as you climb to the point of ecstasy.
Gaining speed, grabbing on tighter.
Your body trembles wrapping your love in mine
expressing mine physically
Connected mentally
Her rain falls down ... Not a drop hits the sheets
808 · May 2014
The Cycle
Inevitable May 2014
What's it about?
Nothing I'm just writing
seems interesting
I guess words are enticing
they make me wonder
They can also be exciting
do you mean what you say
Are you saying I'm lying?
i think I'm in love with you
I guess words are inviting.
be mine?
No that's not what I was trying..
*but you said those sweet words

No wait why're you crying..
you were leading me on
But they were my words you were buying.
Poets are difficult to love. They're too easy with words and know what you want to hear.
775 · Oct 2014
dream away
Inevitable Oct 2014
I held her hand and she repeated after "I do".  I looked in her eyes and our lives started new. together as one.  our future ahead.  the children to come. to our happy ending, I led.

her hearts my home,
I awoke.
I wanna go back into a coma..
754 · Jan 2016
homeward bound
Inevitable Jan 2016
she never read my poetry. matter of fact she never gave a **** about anything that did to me.
she never tried to learn me, every chance she had she was intentionally trying to burn me.
I started thinking about a quote I once heard.
you accept the love you think you deserve.
when in reality no one deserves less than the world.
I was killing myself mentally, making myself go through hell with this girl.
knowing she wasn't anything, literally, wanting to go back home, critically, missing home, physically, speaking out my *** potentially ruining any chance I had of coming back home.
I was home sick but I was sick of home.
my mind made up a whole story of it own,
made me hate her for doing things for reasons she didn't, saying things she wouldn't, hurting me on purpose..
she hurt me on purpose, but we both had guns. I pulled my trigger first and they both turned automatic.
rapid fire shots sending head shots every round.
yet we were still standing,
fighting for the one thing we knew that wasn't dead.
white flags waving we realized we were fighting for the same thing.
fighting to come back home.
for my home was her, as her home was me.
italicized home, her, and she are a different person than the "she" referred to in the beginging
658 · Dec 2015
evol
Inevitable Dec 2015
i may be a demon.
i honestly think we all are.

but its the person that exorcises you,
that shows you love and forces you to fall.
645 · Jul 2014
7/14/14
Inevitable Jul 2014
Her lips are intoxicating.
Her body is hypnotic.
The way she speaks alone is simply symbolic.
Her words are for strength and unending devotion.
She took my heart and claimed it all with one slight motion.

The arch of her mouth and the show of that smile,
that one last kiss led me out of denial.
She's the love of my world, that seemed to tragic.
you started this fire burning, with just one matchstick.
So flimsy and fragile, like the day we first met.
That one single strike, easily had our hearts lit.
595 · Jan 2022
Orion
Inevitable Jan 2022
Orion taunts me these nights,
stretched across the sky but never making it to battle.

The constellation mocks me these nights.
I wish Orion would fall from the sky and **** me.

What a beautiful tragedy that in ways he already has.
591 · Nov 2014
sin for love
Inevitable Nov 2014
Even if I could go back to the beginning,
I wouldnt change the fact that we're sinning.
we're steady fighting,
Even when we're losing were winning.
589 · May 2014
How Am I?
Inevitable May 2014
How is she?

how are we?*

What about me? Dead.
551 · Jan 2021
We made it to "forever"
Inevitable Jan 2021
It took all year for the imprint of your promise to erase from my finger
and
In 7 years I will have a body you have not touched.
"Every single cell in the human body replaces itself over a period of seven years"
503 · May 2014
Requited likeness
Inevitable May 2014
You strum my heart in the most beautiful of ways. Like those sweet melodies you had sat and played. I felt my heart drop and the voices silenced. Yet all at the same times my feelings for you became requited.

That guitar sounded just about as beautiful as you looked that day.. I was lost in the music.. No matter how hard I tried I just couldn't look away... I lost myself in you.
491 · Feb 2016
my talk with god
Inevitable Feb 2016
i swear to god if you take her away from me again
might as well take my life with hers

i’m tired of these up and down roller coasters
i’d rather take a ride in a hearse

if there ever comes an end to us,
i'll quickly throw my life in reverse.


this pain in my chest is all too common.
maybe is the fear of being forgotten.
or the fear of being left, metaphorically, in a coffin.

i hope this isn't part of some trick or lesson.
karmas a *****, i’ve had her too much in my presence.
you can tell by my expression there’s no feelings i’m oppressing, i’d simply fall into a depression without you by my side taking my sadness and suppressing, to be honest, without you id turn to aggression take my fate as a message, and put a gun to its head for leading my life in the wrong direction.
464 · May 2014
Those Three Words
Inevitable May 2014
I read the words and my heart dropped, to say the least. Not sure if it was because of what they meant or because they were said to me.
Inevitable Feb 2021
It hurts knowing you’ve said these words before. Are they different though?
because they’re said to me?
No
I couldn’t be that significant.
recycled words and metaphors <
442 · Apr 2014
Loves Debt
Inevitable Apr 2014
We think and we love and we go deeper without regret.
Until we let out the truth and bet it's loves debt which is owed to us. Nothing's given. It's bound.
Loves merely the quest that leaves us lost.
I think this is the moment i've been found.
Old from notes
432 · May 2014
Against the world..
Inevitable May 2014
Many miles seems pretty far. But I'd go the lengths of the world to be where you are.

Lost in your actions. And hypnotized by the moment. I could've stayed right there, as long as I could own it.

I'm high off of you.. I could easily just jump and take flight. Take my hand and we can run away.. Unless.. You do in fact.. Plan to stay..
"And with all the mistakes I've made, you're still listenin'"
413 · Jan 2016
i wanna say im sorry
Inevitable Jan 2016
i used you as a crutch.
we were each others temporary soft touch.
i used you while you used me.
we both just wanted our ex to see.

feed me your lies while i shove mine down your throat.
you text me you want me then get wrapped in another guys coat.
i gave you the world, i was amazing, so you said.
but then right after saying you want no none but me, we're both is someone elses bed.

"I've got to talk to you" became a common phrase i heard.
is it cheating if the feelings are fake? the emotion blurred?
how is this a rebound if the ball was never shot?
we were never over our ex, so not a single one of those lies were bought.

i wanna say i'm sorry.
for playing you knowing where home was.
but to be honest, you played me harder.
you're a hell of an actor, here's your applause.
#j
412 · Jun 2016
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Inevitable Jun 2016
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You're my happiness and sadness
but lord knows you keep me planed.

For when you are near, I can see clear.
You're my clarity when standing in rain.
407 · May 2016
9/13/14
Inevitable May 2016
If mortality were more based off morality
than the way things happen practically;
actions and emotion wouldn't
come forth dramatically,
the good wouldn't die young and
the bad would die drastically.
Wrote 9/13/14  Edited 5/25/24   @ItsInevitable229
401 · May 2014
Show me a sign
Inevitable May 2014
God if you're out there
Could you show me a sign.
is there purpose to life.
cause I'm tired of tryin
It's hard to stand tall
When you're forced to fall..
Give me something ...
Something to fight for..
Open a few doors
Pick me up off this cold floor..

So god if your out there...
Just give me a sign.
Allow me to see
Cause I've been so blind.
What am I here for?
Let me show you more.
I'm sure I can be
What you made me believe,
Was perfect... Perfect and flawed.
398 · May 2014
My demons can swim
Inevitable May 2014
Yet once again,
Rain came down to drown my sins
385 · May 2014
Devoted Words
Inevitable May 2014
All my words come from reason. If not for you, they're for me, they give me something to believe in.
366 · May 2014
Silent conversations
Inevitable May 2014
I told her I didn't know what to say..
She told me then I shouldn't say anything. We sat in complete silence ... But we said so much...

I listened to her heart break. I felt mine cry for help.
357 · Apr 2014
Left Numb
Inevitable Apr 2014
Broken hearts and empty promises.

Eyes closed, minds tore wide open.

Hopes up, and I'm thrown down.

You left me again, without a ******* sound.
356 · May 2014
Hatred
Inevitable May 2014
You're
just
a
sorry
***
excuse
for
a
human
being
351 · Feb 2021
I don't have a type
Inevitable Feb 2021
I say I don't have a type
but you fit mine so perfectly.
dark and twisty.
a little too familiar.
346 · Aug 2023
For The Love Of A Leo
Inevitable Aug 2023
These wax wings stood no chance against your rays; I was warned, I know, but what's more tempting than safety

or perceived safety.

Like Icarus I fell from the sky into the waters and met a cancer; now i'm drowning cause I can't swim.

i'd rather be star gazing
but that's what got me here in the first place.
Wrote 1/14/22  @ItsInevitable229
332 · May 2014
Dream
Inevitable May 2014
Live the life I lust for. I'll live vicariously through you.
331 · May 2014
10w heartbreak
Inevitable May 2014
decided to Trust fall as she took a step back.
327 · May 2014
Beautiful Pain
Inevitable May 2014
Love is happiness, pain and thoughts of suicide. It's when two innocent peoples hearts collide. Still so young and unknowing of what lie ahead. And clueless to every word that they've ever said.

Not knowing what those words can do. They can catch your heart.. But tear it apart too. They tend to categorize what love your in. But whatever you say it is, it all comes to an end.

Wether it's a lie, a cheat or a steal, it all ends to soon against any deal. You said it'd be forever and always, but you soon become strangers to pass in the walkways. You say that you're over them, and soon enough you will be, but you constantly think of them and you know you loved undoubtedly.

After your first love, you're terrified. You don't want it again but you know you both tried.  

I'd say just throw your heart back out there, but I know it's hard. There is someone out there, you just don't know who they are.
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326 · Dec 2015
10w christmas
Inevitable Dec 2015
Christmas is in one week.
just praying I make it...
315 · Apr 2014
Clouded Emotion
Inevitable Apr 2014
There's a desire for those to feel your pain. To see if their action are matched, to prove you're sane. Or there otherwise to show you're wrong.. Instead of throwing someone else under the bus, it ends up being where you belong.  Share your story, let it be known. Actions speak louder than words so let them be shown. Silence itself can say so much on it's own.. Your heart speaks out, but let it speak slow.
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306 · Aug 2023
If You Were The Moon
Inevitable Aug 2023
If you were the moon, I think you'd still pull the tide.

The ones that start tsunamis.

If you were the moon, i think you'd still light up my nights.

Only with the help of the sun.

If you were the moon, you would have loved for you with desire.

The kind that keeps the fire lit.

But if you were the moon, i think it would burn.

The sun that you chase and will never meet,
still rises in the east and puts you to rest.
Wrote 1/14/22; Revised 8/30/23  @ItsInevitable229
296 · Apr 2014
Insomnia
Inevitable Apr 2014
Every night before I sleep, it's the same routine,
I lay here with thoughts thinking what they all mean.
I think about you and the memories are haunting,
and then I think of us and I feel like i'm taunted.
Tonight i'm thinking of changing that as I lay in my bed,
i'll close my eyes, bang bang, I'm dead.
The memories are like dreams not so easily forgotten,
I think of some memories as nightmares i've fought.
Im distraught cause I don't want to cry, I wish you'd come back.
I love you so much, and my mind seems to lack,
in having a longing in the idea of another.
I'm still mourning over my twin flame that I smothered.
Wrote 4/1/2014;  Revised 10/2/23
289 · May 2014
Rain
Inevitable May 2014
lives so carelessly..
grace and violence..
Try to fathom the truth..
has me in a trance..
Pours down.. washes it all away.
All in ways I wish my mind would..
Stand in the center.. Wash me away..
No worries. No pain..
Clear headed..
 It deserves more credit.
Simplest of thing can better your life as long as you let it.
Trying to write with writers block
286 · May 2014
Riddle Me This..
Inevitable May 2014
What is suicide when your soul has already died?
277 · Feb 2021
27 //TW
Inevitable Feb 2021
My life expectancy is 27

I will be 23 in April and with March approaching fast all i want to do is

stop

We make up 1% of the world population.
approximately 77 million of us among the 7.7 billion

We make up 10% of the worlds sucde rates.
approximately 80,000 out of 800,000 cases per year

I am also a woman meaning i am 3x more likely in general to attempt.

I was never supposed to make it past 11 and now i'm pushing for 27

no

i'm pushing for tomorrow because 27 is much farther away and its much more realistic to make it to tomorrow than to make it to 27.
Borderline personality disorder awareness
270 · Jan 2022
Dating
Inevitable Jan 2022
Ive got these women deleting the apps we met on because they think i'm the one.

I'm not satisfied.

How could I be when i'm cosmically meant for you?
267 · Jan 2022
For the love of a Leo
Inevitable Jan 2022
These wax wings stood no chance against your rays,
I was warned, I know, but what's more tempting than safety

or perceived safety.

Like Icarus I fell from the sky into the waters and met a cancer,
now i'm drowning cause I can't swim.

id rather be a star gazing
but that's what got me here in the first place.
258 · Feb 2021
If you were the moon
Inevitable Feb 2021
If you were the moon, i think you'd still pull the tide.

Actually, I feel like you'd push and pull, **** around and create a tsunami.

If you were the moon, i think you'd still light up my nights.

Actually, I feel like you'd come crashing through my sky as a meteor.

If you were the moon, i think you'd still reflect the suns rays.

Actually, i feel like you'd have to admit it hurt; the rays.

But if you were the moon, i think you would burn.

Actually you'd have to admit you're the sun that
still rises in the east to put me to rest.
The relationship between "star" and "moon".
Inevitable Jul 2023
Our connection is cosmically at will.
I see your shadow in the most specific places.
Hidden in my playlists and the loss of yours.
To IO and back. It never ends.
Like Saturn losing its rings, I guess it's inevitable?
Like a flame, it'll burn. and god does it burn.
Centralia still hasn't stopped,
and neither have I.
The rain falls when spoken of. Down my cheeks.
I have one video with just a taste of your voice and it's all I have left. I see your hand in view and have to see it now in someone elses..
youre a star,
even if not mine.
but you know as well as I do.
You're exceptional.
Superhuman.
My whole heart.
for me there will never be another. no one comes close. and I guess I have to live with that?
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