When you think of me
I hope you think of my best not when others have put me through a test. Ignorance is always bliss. Rip the band aid off and leave me to bleed..
You know me,
the best I guess loved you more others less. Trusted you and well we have both failed each other's quests.
So together now let's explore what is it you see what do you adore. What do you hate can you handle more?

A joke, a laugh a gas giggling moment i guess so riddle me this over again
Lets start this midnight quest
Lets begin:

When you think of me
What do you see?
Am I someone weak or strong
pretty or not
Old or young
Good enough
Or less
I putting you through your own test
Someone who's just a thot
Or do you find me hot
**** and *** a blessing in disguise I guess.
When you think of me
What do you feel ?
Love
affection
Happiness
Be real
Haha meh nothing
Or more like
Disappointment and confusion
Am I like a Contusion a bruise on your elbow . Just plain annoying
Truly you know I'm not always mellow


Ah ha got it
Nothing you see
For to you I'm crazy
When you think of me ?
A smile or a frown
Do I let you down
Do I bring you up
I can fix your crown
King or queen
an ace I am
I really do love strawberry jam
Chocolate or chips
Sweet or sassy
When you think of me
Is it fleeting like lightening
Or just a moment that flashes by
A quick glimpse of a smile
a wink of an eye
Or a frown of discernment ?
Better yet a tear of disappointment
Rare to find joy behind those eyes.
Its my fault
****
Great disguise.
When you see me what do you see?
Love
Lust
equality
Pretty face
Nice *** and ****
Or a personality
Ahh not your eyes love-
But deep inside me,
What do you really feel?
When you touch me -
Does it make you smile
Do you feel relaxed
maybe a little wild
Nevermind you might be disgusted

When you love me
Is it because your lonely.
Am I just a body for warmth at night
Are you demons running away when I slide under the sheets to stay
Or do you only care when no one is in sight. Your ***** little secret maybe to embarrassed to diaplay
Affection is like a disease to you.
More like an affliction or two.
Like it once maybe twice but thrice you hate me.. Turn to stand and walk away.
Just a toy for today.

Does Your heart skip a beat in your chest
Is there something there,
In that heart of yours
Dusty and boarded I cant see enough.
I guess my life got pretty tough
Do you see you or just the worst in me
Nevermind the answer
I will tell you what I see.
it is me after all,
Breaking it down like a wrecking ball?
Why me!
question number one I'm nothing special
What CAN I see
I don't compare to your ex's Never claimed to be the best
I know I'm better then your last.
One of a kind made here in the USA
My grade would be an A
I'm nothing more then a jokeTo you and your closest friends
Pick on me point at me make me feel less. **** me off. Let's see what it takes.. To make her
Runaway its a joke
I guess I'm to easy
shes crazy you say!!
We love her
But not really ..
Talking **** sitting next to me
Scoff some more
now I am dying laughing on the floor
a game its become to see
Who hurts the most.
Aye keep it going  
running away you made it work
Who could love me
Me of course

Protective jealous
A rage maybe
I guess its all in what you want
Just not your type
At least on the outside
Or for your heart
The Worst I guess
At least from you to me

A little cuddly
I know
Insecure
Immature
Selfish
No self worth
Honest
Blunt
Elegent
Entertainment of course
Clothes on or off today?
Making me feel like a *****
your not  just any guy
Nothing more then a hypocrite
I love my chocolate pie
I love to watch people
throw
***** looks
******* again
I laugh at you as you throw the hook
Loving life
Its best for us
To bad we would rather choke
Sometimes I wonder
Maybe its not right
Im not Just a *****
My legs don't spread for anyone
Probably to ***** for most
But it's kind of fun.

I hope this isnt the side that you adore
For I can be
Selfish and mean
Callous and cold
Calculating and vindictive
To those who hurt me
Too professional at times
Overprotective
**** it blurred lines
Dont know how to smile
All the time
Resting ***** face
Clean and clear
No wrinkles to erase
Keeps the skin clear
Sometimes I lie because I dont want to hurt you.
Sometimes
I
Am
Too:
Protective
Jealous
Mean
Lazy

I want you to run, so you can't attack my pride.
Hurt me like the rest,
Its the ultimate test
Win or loose
Its up to you
Let's compare
I'll run and hide
I don't like taking sides

I guess I'm a gem when I'm not my worst self
Caring loving sweet and a pretty face to see nice *** and **** a display of art i guess
scared lonely  this world will drive a sane person crazy.
Why do I care
I'm just me.
Someone to always wear her heart on her sleeve
The way to get hurt I do believe
At least its me being real

i Cry and weep
sob and sleep
What's wrong with me
I'm not the worst person can't you see
Lessons learned
But never enough
For I'm changing day to day another moment another way
Another lesson learned
Time to sway far
Yet near
Not loosing myself again dear.
I promise one day I might be good enough.

Until then I hope you get your jokes worth.
Til the end
I try to change daily and be the best me. Not good enough for you I see
You have no pride in me  Locked away in a closet like a prize doll to take out and play with,
Til your done then toss me back..

I'm not just here to please you
I am here to
love and please me
No heart attacks
please
Let's be blunt and real
  leave me here to bleed.
Hatred is a harmful seed
Now enjoy the night
These words are done
Have some fun
******* and the horse you rode in on.
Bleeding the bandaids gone
narcissistic love

Knowing that time is just a measurement
that it is running out.
Don't play the games of the beast around you.
For loosing yourself should not be in the cards.
Take a moment,
and stand tall remember who you really are.
Fighting back breathless as each second ticks by-
the darkness you are starting to occupy.
Look for the light in the one you seek.
Gazing upon a midnight's dream,
Take a moment and breathe.
Look upon the moon tonight.
Think of the answers you seek
Don't embrace the madness around you
It just learned how to control you,
and you are loosing the game;
for allowing it to envelope you.
Stop playing all sides
make up your mind
Find what it is you desire.
Take a chance and the less traveled path.
Seek the love in the ones who care for you.
never asking for anything in return.
Be strong,
Stand tall,
Remember who the ******* are,
Remember the long nights draped in the darkest of skies
The freedom you felt...
and how you never wanted it to end.
Remember the long gazes
Like a Siren singing you a lullaby
Remember the end when no one controlled you
Remember the end where you are you.
.....

As I lay me down to sleep
I pray the God's my soul to keep
Watch over me and mine
Let my soul forever shine in love and light.

As I lay you down to rest
May the God's take your soul
May they guide you home
I know I will never be alone,
Your spirit beside me.

May you find Summerland
and be blessed in all that you had.
Look upon this life
remember the good times
Learn from the bad
I'll see you next time around
May the God's Bless your soul
May your guides Guide you home.
May you rest in peace
We will meet again

Now I lay me down to sleep
Praying the God's my soul to keep.
Guide me home when the time is right.
Keep my heart in love and light
In Summerland I will see you again.

Staring out the window.
The wind stirring the storm,
ice blades dropping from the sky.
I stare in awe.
as I see nature take out its hostility.
A beauty all its own

Ice shimmering in this world.
Like diamonds hitting the earth.
Its what I see
Beautiful in its own light.
Reminds me of how cold and cruel life  can be.
For the only enemy that ice has is heat.
So dark to light
Day to night
Yin to yang
The storms come again and again.
As this is life.

For you wake each night
with my kiss brushed upon your lips,
My taste upon your tongue.
two souls intertwined as life just started
to begin again.
Hearts enchanted
Eyes bewitched
You begin to start
a fatal twist.
Like the dance of death
In the rhythm of Mother Earth herself.
Nothing left to bequeath.


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Foresight it will be
just a mimic of the soul.
Something you can not control
and you will never feel right.
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Lost­ In my eyes you loose all hope
Let the words pounce from your pen
May you never feel love again.
Remembering it is just a parody of the world.

A reflection of a feeling.
None the less.
May your eyes see the truth hidden within
May your feet pounce once more on this soft earth again
May your nose smell deceit a mile away.

May your hands stray a thousand times,
for all the pain you have left for others to disguise.

Just to make them wonder if the imitation is in their head
Or will you die on your death bed for the mimic of a soul?
It is now you who bears the weight of the world ahead

Will you remember your true path or just let it go.
You are the mimic of a soul.
Again
and again.
May you pen,
for the loss of peace.
May you realize all of the deceit and dishonesty
and pain you have caused
May you realize  it was all in vain
For the mimic of the Soul
has no way to love.
Leaving you motionless
on a roller coaster
forced upon love.
Your happiness
depends on manipulation
Your ****** desires
are more then lust
A rage inside that I can see.
For the mimic of your soul is deadly.
Others blinded by you Mimic of kinship, lies and deceit
May your kingdom fall
beyond your limits
May your heart beat in despair
May your journey
be a thunderstorm you can not bare
May you live a thousand times
bleak days to greet you ahead
Binding the falsity
for in your Soul is blackness
so deep that only the awakened can see.
May you realize you have killed so many before
Remember the witch knocking at your door..
All for the mimic of love
A deathly punch.
All of this
Because
You are
THE MIMIC OF THE SOUL

I could almost touch your lips
I could almost taste your scent
I could almost relinquish in this dream
Getting lost on a never ending winding road.
Now it's time to set the scene
A man
tall and lanky
Dark hair
Dark eyes
Not  bad on the eyes
A soul so full of love.

A woman
Cherry lips
Button nose
dark eyes
and darker hair to match

Sensing the other in the past
the present taking hold

Reaching through the lacy veil of time
They reach and reach
But never to touch
Just to see
in a lacy screen
Falling asleep
to the lull of each other's voices
Caressing the mind so intimately that no one else could see
For the trials
begin
Never to fail
Not quite the end
Fire and water
a balance or test?

Souls soft
quietly reaching
Just to barely touch

You could almost taste me
You could almost smell me
Almost able to reach through a lacy veil
But time can tell
It never will be worth it
In the end
Turning away
they both reach one last time
To be bound by glass between them
barely able to reach and feel
Barely able to touch
Almost being the key.
Turning away one last glance
There story ends
and a new one begins.
A lover scorched
through distance in time leaving one
empty
And the other finding what they needed
in the end
Both feeling the pain
But nothing in life is giving.

For now the shroud of lace
turns to ice
at a demon's pace
Blocked
never to be
is this the end of what  could be?