Gulishta

Gulishta Aug 2018

The three hours I spend
Asking my mind to shut up about you.
And get on with the sleeping.

Gulishta Aug 2018

Plaster a fat curve,
Whenever asked to smile.
Mind and heart in shreds,
Being beautiful outside.

Unwanted attention,
Being centre of attraction.
Getting inside my shredded mind,
That's only distraction I seems to find.

Blatant ogling,
Iron clad hold on my waist.
Walking through an exhibition,
As if being the one presented on display.

Abused soul ,
cursed life,
Smile so big in the photograph .
Standing side by side.

A relation on pins and needle,
A bed made of glass shards.
Unacknowledged discomfort,
Sharing the world apart.

Blazing brown eyes,
The hatred inside.
Fingers clenched in fist,
Anger the blood-thirst in disguise.

Unveiling the monster,
Underneath the surface.
Projecting all the charm,
No room to escape.

Trapped in a life long bond,
An exchange of the vow.
Fear ingrained in every bone,
Not seeing an out.

Emotional instability,
No shrink can heal.
Threatening to destroy the destroyed,
To keep the mouth's seal.

The end is near ,
I smell it in your fear.
In the surprise on your face,
When everything turn into haze.

What I miss the most about that day,
The moment you realised,
Why I choose to stay.

Gulishta Aug 2018

Familiar but not.

Surrounded by the warmth of the loved ones,
Feeling the chills in every bone.
Living in the house of my birth,
Still not being at home.

Knowing ins and outs of this neighbourhood,
Not knowing if it's here that I belong.
Watching familiar faces passing by,
Not sure if I know them at all.

Refusing to stand still,
Giving my everything to the efforts of moving on.
Can't recognise anymore,
What had been my comfort zone.

Every corner tainted,
Every edge is sharp.
Watching my every step,
Couldn't save my heart.
Everything is familiar. ...
And everything is not.

Gulishta Jul 2018

Golden cage.

Dark blue sky,
    Not a star to shine .
Overwhelming pride,
    Nothing can excite.

No breathing room,
     No personal space.
Made of glitter and stones,
     My golden cage .

Dull rhythm,
      of my breathing,
Unblinking eyes,
      Not a key in sight.

Unchained bondages ,
      Invisible clutches.
Insignificant life,
      Unexisted existence.

Shivering bodies,
      Blazing minds.
Fearing monsters,
     Being one inside.

Only shreds are left,
    Nothing to sacrifice.
They say I'm privileged,
    Choosing to stay the other side.

Gulishta Jul 2018

REALISE.

The idealisation of the far-fetched reality ,
Doesn't make it right.
The happiness coming from someone else's pain,
Doesn't make you thrive.
The insensebility of taking wrong decisions,
Doesn't make you look cute, just cruel and naive.
The passing on of the confusion,
Shows your incapability of commitment or in general Life.
The repetitiveness of a command,
Doesn't make people oblige.
It's a simple game...
A game of what's wrong and what's right!.
Of seeing things you ignored ,
Being a self-centred blind.
It's an opportunity to open yourself up,
For the things you've done to others,
and putting yourself in their shoes...
And.....REALISE.

Gulishta Jul 2018

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I wanna lost myself into the depth of your eyes,
And never come out.
I wanna race through the city,
Climb the tallest building,
To shout out loud.
I wanna ride the giant ferris wheel,
And let my hairs down.
I wanna join the circus,
And see the world upside down.
I wanna spread my arms and fly,
Till I meet the white cloud.
I wanna dance under the moonlight,
With shooting stars ,
And crickets being only sound.
I wanna stay in your arms,
Till I get put into the ground.

Gulishta Jul 2018

Moment of the time.

I don't know who we are.....
               Half of the time.
All I know we exist. ...
               In the moment of time.

I don't want you...
               Out my side.
Just let me have you...
               One more time.
I'm trying to hold on...
                Let's take a pause for a while.
You don't have to go over many heights.
                Just grace me with your smile.
Don't be afraid to fall,
                I will be here to catch you every time.
Because we are...
                The moment of the time.