Gulishta

Gulishta Mar 2018

You loved me for that moment. .
Why should I ask you to love me forever.?
It was enough for me....
                         to know you ..
I won't change it for the world.
It was the best....
                       while it lasted.
We had a tremendous time.
It was beautiful...
                       Please don't be sad.
We got what we wanted. .
                It doesn't matter for how long.
Can you imagine??..what a tragedy it would've been..
                 Not knowing you at all?...
I'll carry a part of you with me .
You carry a part of me..
Someday.........somewhere...
       In the long down future ....
You smile when see me..
And I'll smile with all the light and memories that you left with me.

Gulishta Feb 2018

Last chance to fight.

No time to actually say that I miss you.
No time to actually express that I wanna be there for you.
I'm human, is that an excuse enough?
Or do I have to grovel and find the pieces to pick up?
I broke you into million pieces..
I'm the only one who can piece you back together.
Was it really a mistake??
Or were you just knew,how much we were putting on stake??
The dismissive way, you behaved..
Do I accept it??.
Or do you want me look beyond it ..into your unsmiling eyes.?
Help me here.... I'm not inside your head.
I want a last chance to fight.
Before you decide for us to separate.

Gulishta Feb 2018

By my side.

I wanna hold still,
     But wanna keep moving.
I don't want a choice,
     But the choice of choosing.
I wanna stay ahead,
      But so far behind.
I wanna live on the edge,
     But with a precocious mind.
I want you to let me go,
     But hold on to me tight.
I wanna fly in the sky,
     But with my feet touching the ground.
I wanna loose it all ,
     But still want to survive.
I wanna be alone,
     But with someone by my side.

Gulishta Feb 2018

Better than me.

The things I've never said.
The emotions I was too afraid to express.
Why?..why I didn't tell you?
What you mean to me.
Why ?..why I didn't accept your love?.
Instead of being mean to you.
Is it too late now??
Can I say it to you somehow?
That ..
For me you are the rotation of the earth.
That I miss you with my every passing breath.
You are the sunshine on the black stormy night.
You are my smile.
You are my expression,
when its hard for me to express.
You are my joy in the time of stress..
I wanna say come back to me. ..
But I won't.
Because baby!!!...you deserve far better than me.

Gulishta Jan 2018

Memories.

Living in the memories of you.
Dying a little every day for you.
Hoping to find a distraction,
Or maybe for wishes to come true.

They say people come and go in your life.
Why didn't they tell,
There's only bits and pieces to gather,
Of what has been left behind?.

Why didn't they have the road map,
For passing it through.
Or Maybe a magic potion to go back in time?.

Seeing myself in your eyes..
Made me feel beautiful.
Now I can't see myself without wishing for your eyes.
Not a blanket in the world to keep me warm,
Without having you by my side.
It's a dreadful feeling,
Wishing to be here as well as the other side.

Gulishta Jan 2018

Welcome home.

The butterflies in my stomach.
Jumping around and dancing is not enough.
The world is shining a little brighter.
My chest feels a little tighter.
This feeling! !..
      Can't contain it inside.
Eyes burning with joy this time.
The pearls flowing out of our eyes.
Don't wanna touch, ,
         What if I'm dreaming like every other time.
Then you hold me in your arms.
        I'm nothing but a piece of you,
That you left behind.
      Oh baby!!! Welcome home.
You are my every prize.

Gulishta Jan 2018

Happy ever after.

A touch like feather,
             Like warm summer weather.
A hope shining bright,
             And stars twinkling eyes.
A promise of a new life,
             No reasons to hide.
A love forbidden,
             A color that's crimson.
A feeling like wind in the hair,
            The life about to be shared.
A dodged bullet,
            And a happy ever after.