A four wall corner
That we used to hate to go to
Are now gone

As well as the facade of buildings
That we used to ignore and just pass by
Are now nothing in our sights

As well as the traffic jams
That makes us agitated everytime we’re stucked
Vanished like a strike of lightning

All because of mankind
The mankind that God unselfishly made
But some of us are destroying it little by little.

Butterflies fly in the meadow

While you are watching from a distance

Like how you watched him

Trees are bigger than us

Oceans are bigger than us

Sky is bigger than us

The World is bigger than us

But those are just a dot to him and his name is God

I am lost
So lost
To the point that Im walking with no path
I was blinded with loneliness

But then he came
And enlighten me
That there’s a lot of reason to thanked for
He let me reflect myself

I have complete family
I can eat whenever I want
I have a home
I am raised by my parents

Simple things do really matter
That is what he taught me
That is what he let me think about
That is what God taught me.

There are things that are too much for humans to handle

It makes us think sometimes that maybe our Almighty God isn’t holding us with care

Maybe he’s tired in forgiving our countless sins

Maybe he’s tired of giving us a second chance

Maybe he left us already cause he’s tired already

But at the end of the day, it is us who doesn’t care about him sometimes

It is us who gets tired in forgiving ourselves

It is us who didn’t gave ourselves a chance

It is us who leave him behind when we’re tired from everything

But it is him who fix our broken pieces

It’s him who let us take care of ourselves

It’s him who gave us instruments to make ourselves right and go back on track

It’s him who never leave us in  our dark and lonely times even if we did a lot of sins that makes him hurt even more because his our Father in Heaven.

‪There are times that your simply predictable and unpredictable.‬

‪There are times that you’re a nightmare dressed like a daydream‬

‪You’re too much to hande‬
‪Yet you let me become teachable‬

‪You let me down‬
‪That makes me grow‬

‪You let me shed tears‬
‪To laugh like there’s no tomorrow‬

‪You let me encounter strangers‬
‪That makes my life a beautiful disaster‬

‪You let me know my downfall‬
‪For me to realize my strength‬

‪You misguide me‬
‪To make me stand on my own‬

‪And now you’re close to end the book‬

‪The book that has unique chapters‬

‪Unique chapters that you made ‬

‪And in 2020, you’ll see what you made me do.‬

She is caught up in the moment
Of her sufferings
She doesn’t yet realized
That there is so much more to be thankful for
Than the things that she cried for

She was enlightened
When she talked to him
She was ashamed
Of what she’d thought of him

She was saddened
Because she didn’t know him better before
That‘s why simple things matter to her
Because she knows that Almighty God have plans for her

I will look forward

For the things that will be happening

And not on the what ifs

Its easier than said right?

I don't know why as well

Can you tell me?

They are there

No matter what happens

But where are they when you're most likely to give up?

I am crying at loud

Without nobody on my side

I cried and cried

And comfort myself

For something I did to myself

Isn't ironic? haha

Every teardrops
Every whimper
Every over thinking
Every what ifs

Will lead to big smiles
Will lead to laughter
Will lead to genuine happiness
Will lead to what will be

Every situations that we are in will always lead us to what God planned for us to reach his holy land with strong heart and devotion to him.

Heartbeat beats so fast

Don't know why

But there's someything in it

That says because of you.

Maybe, just maybe

If I let you in, I'll be whole for a while

But not forever.

We're all tired
For everything that exhaust us
In every corner of our lives
That pops up in the most unexpected way

We only die once
But we live everyday

Do you think I want this?

Do you think I didn't change my mind?

To have a healthy mental health.

I did it several times

Its just that anxiety come and go

And mind you

I'll never be ready for its arrival in my mind and soul.

Your words are sharp yet mending

That enter my soul

That makes me enlighten and become crystal clear.

You're my all and savior Jesus Christ.

You do not know me so well

Yet you're blabbering

Like you do know me so well

Twinkling eyes
were shining upon the horizon
With big smile plastered on face

Today, the twinkling eyes became emotionless
The eyes that sees the horizon
Became tears while sighing under the horizon

You and I and everybody else
Feels the pain of despair
Feels the pain of being left behind
Feels the pain of being ignored

But everybody have their ways to overcome it
Everybody have their own business to deal with
Everybody have their own guide to not loss their way
Everybody have their own beliefs and opinions in life

Those everybody have their own problems
But they choose to solve it
Everybody have their positive and negative side
But they choose to be neutral

Everybody have their own paths go
That leads them into unknown that sometimes called Risk
Everybody have their own origin
An origin where their beliefs and opinions came from

Everybody are unique in their own ways

Everybody is loss but they choose to believe and trust the process of their God.

I love life
But it makes me unlove it
Then later on I love it again
Why is life so complicated?

Hi! I am loneliness
To be honest
I was just passing by
But you invite me to come over

You entertain me
You let me talk about myself
You make me unleash myself
And now I am hurting you by being myself

My eyes glowing
Like there's no tomorrow
It makes everyone think Im so cheerful

But they didn't know its a mask
That hides my self from them
To save myself from pitiful looks and treatment

I am no one
Until you came
You make the unknown in me
To be known

You let me step out of my comfort zone
You let me feel things I've never felt before
You let me became dependent on your presence
Now I can't go back to what I used to be without you

Coz Im dependent on you

You know and I know
That the world will still round
Even if we stop
So might as well do our thing

That makes us happy
That makes us show our passion
To the world that takes no notice
About what we does

Let us live our lives to the fullest
Even if its hard
Coz that the fun part
Do things that makes us think twice but still doing it

It is all good now
Then something will come along
To make your smile fade

I am grateful

Then later on I am lonely

About the happiness that was blew

By the wind in my head

That came along when I overthink

I am what I am

See me as I am

But not as another person

You have in mind

I was and still walking

Half running and walking

In a spacious and dark dimension

Build in my head

With my buddy called Overthinker

Music is also a poetry

That has tone and sound

They express both unsaid thoughts and feelings

A natural resources
That is needed by all beings
Humans, animals, plants and soil
Are all water dependent

A necessity that will not vary

A good that will always be needed

No matter what happens

We are bound to grow

To change

To let go

And let ourselves do what we are meant to

We are humans afterall.

Raindrops

From the nightsky

Brings coolness

that makes individuals

Feel comfortable

And sleep tight

Like I had earlier.