I feel the pain and I push it away

I’ll Fill my mind with other stuff today

Yet you creep back in it’s hard to shake

Wondering what you think and feel is hard to take

I don’t know a thing, I’m in the dark

My Parental pain tears at my heart

The only thing that was sweet and pure

Lost to me through class A allure  

I’m sorry baby, you will never know

How I roll in pain and agony so

But not for me, but for precious you

A daddy should be a proud and stable statue

I let you down and destroyed my soul

I don't know who i am now, or where to go

I’ve lost my baby, my heart and my pride

The grass is never greener on the other side

I will carry on fighting and I will never stop

I will get you back I will come out on top...

Yeah right, my fate is sealed

No more cuddles, no more love I finally yield.

Take her and take her fast

And while you’re there point that gun and blast

Oh that would be so simple, such an easy way out

Just stupid thoughts from a useless lout

I’m in a bad place, a deep depression, in a fudge

Hours and days and thousands of pounds in front of a judge

To no avail, I sit back broken and bent

dead inside from the years fighting I've spent

She was my anchor, my hopes and my pride

She was also my deepest fears on an opposite tide

Now those fears have finally come true

9 months 13 days and 2 hours since I last saw you.



By J.N

Let’s talk about life and let’s be frank
All global strife starts and ends at the bank

With fake inflation and monetized debt
It Cripples our nations, controls us through threat

Now let me be formal and you might think me mental
But free markets are normal it’s really the Central

Creation of cash at a click of a button
Valued at trash, your debt they take cut-in

War for resources innocence left in lurch
While weaving clauses to suppress free energy research

The influence is deep, insidious at best
Our lives they will reap seen as figures to invest

It’s a perfect legal sin That we do not deserve
Its the evil of Central Banking and Fractional Reserve

Haunting whispers call to me while I lay upon my bed

Thoughts of guilt I long to free, to cast from out my head

In the deepest darkness of lonely night I see a flicker turn to flashes

Ghostly memories before my sight played out from our pasts ashes

By J.N

You love to lose
You live to die
A life of blues
I speak no lie

Stand like rock
To rise again
Patience locked  
Your heart to mend

You must stand tall  
Necessity see
You never fall
Nor take a knee

Time moves on
And so will you
sadness gone  
Life anew

By J.N