I've never felt more alone than I do when I'm with you,
You give other girls the attention when I'm here,
I'm you're loyal servant, best friend, and you are my first love,
I'll never know what its like to have all of your love,
I'll be alone as long as I'm with you.

Never enough
I'm never enough
I'm trying
That is all that should count
I'm trying so hard it hurts
I dont know what to do
How do I live up to your expectations?
You had so much time to learn!
I'm freshly budded into the world
By myself
Without any help
I'm trying
But I'm never enough
Never enough

The way you play makes my body tremble,
I watch your hands move down the neck of that guitar.
The fingertips you strum with are the ones that pull on my heartstrings,
Play me again you angel.
I've watched from the crowd and also from beside you,
I've been the girl who made the song.
My voice and your hands move perfectly together,
But the way you play makes my body tremble.

Happy birthday handsome
I hope you know I'm here.
I know you can get through this.
I want to be here for you.
You never respond with enthusiasm anymore.
You are so alone but you fake a smile.
You are simply waiting for another ball to drop.
Everything will be okay.
You aren't alone as long as I'm around.
Just smile and watch.
Happy birthday handsome

I drive my self crazy with the thoughts in my mind,
The things I shouldn't want, things I should leave behind.
I find myself pacing back and forth in this room,
Just realize I created my own doom.
She said I was different, someone she could love.
I kind of liked being held, right there up above.
All I can think of is the things I shouldn't have said,
And most of the time I feel brain dead.
They said I did it right, said she was always bad.
Then why am I the only one hurting and sad?
Now I've apologized and I'm not surprised,
I got no response from the girl with piercing eyes.

I sit here with you
You think about her
I'm all alone
And you're occupied
I try not to cry
You just don't care
Blonde hair
Green eyes
Small figure
The things im not
Guess i'll settle for second best.

I never knew
I never saw
While you we're there
Walking tall
You hid it all
From the day
That you were like me
Totally gay
Years of lies
Cover ups too
Now finally you're out
and you're you
Its okay to be out and proud
Don't hide anymore
From the crowd
Maybe now you'll notice me
Instead of waiting
To be happy.

A day unlike today.
The fresh fallen snow ,
The sparkling in my lovers eyes.
I want to be with Her forever
Even if we only make it to seventy.
The love, the beauty of a woman in my life.
The only thing that separates me from the rest.
Is her.
Those eyes,
Those lips,
The way she loves me and only me.
Its spectacular.

The breathing
The beating
The sweaty skin
The love
the laughter
The position I'm in
I'm alive
I'm dead
I'm here to stay
No worries
No comments
I'm fading away

I sit and think about all the things you've said to me,
Sweet nothings, the time you asked me to go on a date with you
I was almost but we stopped because you were too nervous.
So cute, so sweet, so independent.
Lately there hasn't been anything more though.
You don't talk to me anymore.
When you do its always,
"Give me an hour." "I'll be there soon." "Some other time."
No follow through though.
I'm waiting.
Always waiting.
"Soon" is never going to come.
I'll always be waiting on you won't I?

The girl Ive seen ,
The girl I know,
The girl thats cold,
As cold as snow.
She haunts my dreams,
She won't go away,
Tearing at my misshapen face.
I know I'm here,
Alone at last,
To sit and think ,
Of the girl of my past.