Do you feel your breath,
The oxygen that's being exhaled
Everytime you try to stay alive?

Do you recognize your voice,
the one that’s coming from your own mouth
when words are forming on your tongue?

Do you know that person in your body,
Those muscles that move
When you don’t feel like walking?

I want you here
Beside me
To make me feel like the only pearl
You’d be looking for in the ocean
To fill me up With hope
Like you’d fill up your mug with coffee after a tough night out
To gaze into my eyes
Like an abandoned puppy gazes at their saviour
I want you to spoil this movie for me
And tell me it has a happily ever after .

Rainy night
in the middle of warm August
shall make me calmer
Rainy night
tossing and turning
trying to find my place in your welcoming arms
Rainy night
dreaming of milky skies
and never ending sunsets
sometimes it's nice to get soaked

I know
My fences are hard to break
And that it often seems fake
Yet you try
To dig out
What was buried such a long time ago
Must admit
It’s all covered in dirt
May even stink a little
But
Can you hold on?
As i do not got none
But love
Oh deep love for you

A big house
is a lovely house,
a rich house,
a warm house.

A beautiful woman
is a cherished woman,
a clean woman,
a noble woman.

Both radiate:
her skin glows,
its columns shine
and the windows, oh so clean.

Try and look inside
you can't
              Can you?
take a peek.

As though its windows are clean
and her smile is inviting,
you can only gaze at the exterior
for when you get through the gate, the skin

The interior
is not
so
glamorous.

A cup of coffee so hot it
burns my tongue.
I like it, gives a kick

An opened book on Freud
laid out on the table so I’d seem
More cultured, educated

A joint in my hand as
I inhale the smoke with
the petrichor sneaking in from outside

A sense of calmness in this
chaotic world
somehow soothes me

Tranquility
It's gazing at the reflection of strawberry skies in an untouched lake
making you feel like the child you once used to be
thinking about what your mom is making for dinner
It's a warm summery breeze
hugging you like that blanket your grandma gave you for Christmas
while you slowly fell asleep
It's chasing a butterfly in your garden
feeling the wind in your hair , not worrying about anything but that **** insect
yet now
as we grow older
why must we be frightened of being tranquil?

Stay
right here
where you are
so close to me
questions, questions
those you keep asking
Why?
let it be
a surprise
a beautiful one indeed
let’s
Not dive so deep into the sea
as the night is still
so, so young

Should you find the most convenient way of breathing
It will not
make you
feel
more alive

sun rays
hitting me one
by one
with warmth
you radiate
making my skin
glisten and
my heart glow

you got me
hooked on the air
that
gently tickles my neck while
I dream
of never getting sober

I'm
dehydrated
lacking the water you pour into me
every time we
drown in each other's
navy blue oceans

So grand yet so small
So important yet so irrelevant
So beautiful yet so shallow
must thee live in an illusion
Or does real life leave too much of a confusion?
When night comes
All seems quiet
Yet
doesn’t the dirt seem to like the dark?

You are the home
from which the love I crave
We’re running out of time
And I’m still flying
A little too close to the sun
That little balloon beneath my chest
constantly filling up with air
As I float
Be careful
or It will soon explode
And it may never even land home

Hatry conquers the sea
In which is drowning thee
Them tiny pearls struggling a little
Trying to solve the final riddle

How could I Let go
When If I take
a step I will leave
My prints behind
And you will follow me,
You will follow me until
I stumble and fall
And crack my head open
The blood slowly flowing
Out of my body
As I try to fight you
Punch you in the groin
Make you leave me alone

How could I stop
To smell the flowers
When if I wonder
You take me by surprise
Grabbing me by the neck
As I gasp for air
And I see nothing but darkness
Nothing but the things I
Did not do
Did not remember
Did not achieve

How could I get rest
When if I dream
You take advantage of me
And paint the thoughts
And images in my head
Black, black as a crow
And it exhausts me a big deal
And as I try to wake up
You shut my eyelids,
Pin me down
And make me watch.

Tears, tears, tears
we all shed them
now and then
from all sorts of fears
my face, just like the amazonian rainforest
full of life
yet washed down with pouring rain
this feeling in my chest
is telling me to stay
to do as I should
to be where I should
but my mind is telling me to go away

I don’t want to get down
I want to get high
To stay high
To fly high
Out of it

On the verge of
What is there to see
A beautiful landscape of the sea
Washing away what we’re made off
Looking back
We drown
We fall

She is running
She is running from the death
She is running from the unavoidable
From the dirt
Trying to escape
From the unavoidable
All the time
All the death
Is it enormous
Or microscopic
Is it really just another system shutting down
Or is it a dying history
A dying memory
A dying life

I feel all that
Your touch
Your presence
Your breath
But can’t tell if it’s you I’m looking at

As a cookie
I crumble, easily
As an orange
Squeeze me , tears will shed
As the deep blue sea
Tranquil, yet slowly damaged

Life
Slowed down
It seems
Yet somehow
Moments pass quickly by
Leaving nothing but
A small stain
In the brain

Seated in a car with the windows slightly down
my father was hidden behind a mask, you could hardly see his face
we drove past the bright rapeseed fields
and I smiled as the smell of cows gently carresed my skin
like it always used to, spring evening

Sweet despair was in the air
came as quickly as the sun set down
will fade away when the first rays hit
but far away will still be felt
like it always does, spring evening

Years go by and my mind gets tired
life did look different those 10 years back but my dads voice sounded the same
as today, a warmth of the fireplace
like I used to feel, spring evening

Seems like a good time, to cease it
make it a happy ending, peaceful sky
could never feel this close to being a child, a child again
like I never thought I could, spring evening

A confetti
Ones may say
Even when the sun is down
She can light up the day

Clear like water
Beautiful like the sky
living in utter
Dreamlike delight

Yet when reality comes
Dark clouds creep in
And weakness in her bones

Wind blows
Confetti goes
And emptiness comes to life

And, somehow
That loved and loving girl
Can love anyone but
Herself

A confetti
Ones may say
Even when the sun is down
She can light up the day

Clear like water
Beautiful like the sky
living in utter
Dreamlike delight

Yet when reality comes
Dark clouds creep in
And weakness in her bones

Wind blows
Confetti goes
And emptiness comes to life

And, somehow
That loved and loving girl
Can love anyone but
Herself

I held my breath
for a second, The clouds stopped
running as if there was a small hole in  time, Just for me to rest my
mind, Just for Me to stop The pulse,
Just for Me to
feel alive

I gave All of my vulnerability away
For you, to you
Exposed the dirt of my soul
Not understood.
Kept on
Waiting for hope,

in despair.

To The smell
To The drill
To The simplicity
I adapt
Quickly, No thought
It Fills up my veins
With warmth
State of longing
But For what?
For Those few seconds
Of difference, change
The Crisp wiff of air
And Clean, white sheets
Strange, but oddly comforting

It struck me like lightning
Dangerously hard and out of nowhere
As though I felt it in the air
Yet didn't want to realise how
I'm burning inside and out
Yes, you set me on fire
Made my ice cap melt so fast
I'm drowning

How is it possible that
with one stare I'm in flames
and no fire extinguisher shall help me?
And so here I stand
a tree
burning from the inside
out of love from you

I held my breath
for a second, The clouds stoppedrunning as if there was a small hole in time, Just for me to rest my
mind, Just for Me to stop The pulse,
Just for Me to
feel alive

The grass turned greener and
Prettier, so much prettier
Like that lawn where she
lives , with her dog running
around in circles

and when I was holding
my breath, I saw it all
Like it was an ending of a movie
Those exhilarating several minutes Where
You can’t even blink

Yet I did, close my eyes
And when I opened them I saw
The sky , it’s depth and width
With the clouds rushing somewhere again