Why would I only name four?
There's so many reasons

Like the way your eyes have little crinkles when you smile
Or when your laugh gets high pitched when you laugh hard
Or when you wear your new glasses, because you look so **** cute

The way you act like you're a child
Or how you love those movies
I love how you seem like you don't care
But you actually do

I love when you play with my fingers
Or scratch my back a little
When you surprise hug me
Or when you're trying to be cute in public

I especially like how you stayed with me
Through those god awful times
You're what got me through
So I really honestly can't thank you enough

I like that you don't mind me
I like that you care
I like that you stay awake for hours with me
I like that you like me

I love that you're you
I love that you just do what you want
I love that you love me
I love you

some people just do not get it
do they?

they think they can see you clearly
when in reality, you are not a window

you're more of a piece of one-way glass
people think they can see through you
but from the other side
its completely opaque

they say
"Your smile makes others smile!"
when really you're thinking
"My smile is so forced."

its hard
seeing everyone all happy
when you're all sad
they just dont get it

so you laugh it out
you laugh when they do
you smile with them
you put on the best **** act you can

they dont know that youre breaking
they cant see it
its the one-way glass
they dont understand

you might open up to people
but they mainly just leave
some will stay
but its likely theyll leave

so you go to school
or work
or out in public
and you force it

you force your happiness
and your smiles
and everything
and you just laugh it out

laughing makes it seem like
youre perfectly fine
youre okay
but you arent

they just cant see through
the piece of one-way glass
they dont know
they wont know

as long as you laugh it out

the most simple thing to do
is breathe

but some people
find breathing difficult

their heart beats are fine
but theyre suffocating

theyre suffocating inside themselves
calling out for someone to help

nobody comes to help
they dont listen at all

their breathing slows
same as their heart beat

heart beats are simple
just a signal that says

"Hey! You ARE alive!
Don't fret! Don't worry."

but some people find it hard
to make their heart beat

to make their heart beat
to breathe

its difficult for some people
anyone can have this issue

but, its simple
right?

take a look at people sometimes
acknowledge them

befriend them
care for them

help them breathe
help their heart beat

those people will love you
whether you know it or not.

i cant do it
i cant speak

i cant do it
i cant talk

i can only talk
to certain people
and only a few
understand my words

i try
to make people understand
but they refuse to hear it
they dont understand

i give them hints
i speak
i give them clues
i talk

they dont understand
they dont get it
i cant speak
i cant talk

i dont talk to people
who dont understand
i speak
i talk

the people who get it
they acknowledge me
they pay attention to my words
they probably feel bad

i can speak
i can talk
i cant make them understand
i cant make them get it

i might just give up
but the people who
understand
would actually care

the people who
dont understand
wouldnt even notice
that i couldnt speak or talk

and i cant speak
or scream
or talk
or hurt anymore

When I was younger I've been on the receiving end
Always getting what others got for themselves
Now that I'm older I see myself giving in
I question why some people are kind to me
How could they when all I am is negative energy

I dreamed a world where I could wish on a shooting star
When I looked at the sky I wondered where the stars were
My demons held me down until I felt a pain that's sharp
I gasped for air woke up in the dark

I would rather live than be alive forever
Living for myself is my only desire
If Autumn ever comes around to change my mind
I know then I can happy and leave my past behind

Move like water around the rocks resting in a stream
Is how I live never overcoming anything
To move like birds in a forest that's so green
Is how I want to dwell before I am deceased

I dreamed I surpassed everyone's expectations by far
To imagine such a reality seemed too bizarre
Every time I want to move forward, all I can feel is the walls in the dark