Shiver
    Patter
Pitter

Ombre colored
         Gout
           Pressed flush to bone

Hellions march
Witch tip  
        To cat tail

Rift n eager
           Expectations above meager
                                        Grammarly says this texts sounds dissatisfying

Ouch  

So upon couch I settle
Lights ground to the pestal
Twill flicker no more

So no knocks at the  door

Ghosts exist
I've seen my grandmother's ghost
Who she used to be

Before dementia snapped the reigns
And ***** took off with the carriage
I've seen ghosts

A whole room
Wavering
Its only a projection

A happy family
Happier times
A mother

Who hadn't given her oldest the mantle
Who'd bake pies with me in the rise of dawn
Just before work

I've seen ghosts
But I can't remember
What I used to look like

Photos have been burned
There was no stamped vinyl
Of the voice I used to have

I've seen ghosts
Smaller frames ******* in a bag
Oh how small my face used to be

The ghosts are gone now
Sometimes
Rare times

They come out
I'd like to imagine when they do
They've come to say hi

Sorry for the way things have ended up
Sorry for the ever constant smell of decay
Sorry we weren't around long enough

I've seen Ghosts
But they're gone now

I'm the only one left
A skeleton
Looking back at specters

The sun was the first to fall
The winds still wafted gently
So no one noticed

When the brightest star in the sky
Furrowed it's brow in the mirror
Noting

The light tinted hue of gray
Proposing to its circumference
"Only for a day"

But

The days grew longer
Tinted grey
Dug in its heels

Turning itself to inked infinity
Lined tattoos
Arcing across the surface

A vortex
Around faint pulsating inferno

Just one more day

I've met my maker
The thin blue lines
That hold space on paper

Have busted
All bestowed
By the figure occupying the chair in front of me

Starred drops of laughter
And sea scented smiles
Wrapped and bound

By flesh blood and ligaments
I smile
Writers Block

Is what I've taken to calling him
But Tyler is a lot shorter

Totally captured
Heart fluttered faster
A constructed cage

Found to be
A gold and black glaze
Just right

One night
To be held and had
Guided around hedged mazes

Weeping willows
Dusting smoke trails
Smudged shadows

Chasing dusk
And dawn

Out doors
Forboden shored
Pacific mist

Graceful fits

Exhale
Inhale
Deflate
Inflate

Entwined intellects
Heart of spades
Hollowed haze

Can't find the end of this maze
Cryptic graves
O forgotten staves

Twirled canes
lawless days
Forgotten Czars

Cross scattered scars

Top fingers
Clacking clicking
Against the wall flesh of my heart

Seam reversed innards
Octaves that follow
The hollow wronged laugh

Wounded deep sorrow

I'll see you tomorrow

Sweeping falsetto
Wood shined
Somber glow

Curving phantoms
Bowed over bow
Cream candlelight

Wonderful frights
Hems
Sweeping over the dance floor

Perfume daintly teases cologne

Twisted hips
Broken roses
Father dozes

Stale air
Circulates through these lungs
Blood vessels enlarge

Tears streak crimson
Staining dessert cheeks
We keep turning

The world keeps turning
The world keeps bleeding
Blood that's been shed

Runs throughout
The rivers of faerie
Twisting

Turning
Leaping

I've been waiting
The hue of your name
Has faded

Left out in the sun for too long
Crumbling off of my tongue
Favorite things

Have yet to walk out from my brain
Sick of being kept there
But not really being used

Old news
Disregarded
Sometimes I wonder

Did you ever have that talk with your dad?
Did you try?
Did you watch as the words shivered out of your jowls

Curls of anxiety
Wafting throughout your stomach
Sometimes

The idea of you folds itself out of the corner of a favored book
And I miss you
Other times

I forget you even existed

Towards the hill
Where the sun rises
Ends curl up

Eager petals unfurl
Awaiting the daily process
Fragments

Have fallen upon this vessel
Letters have become shy
Tucking themselves

Between these thin blue lines
Color leeches out
Imagery that was once used

Finds another place to be
Peeling itself
Off of this screen

Calico sits against this bone carved seat
Two black ears a brown patch next to the left

And

A pink nose
Obsidian stitched whiskers held high

A pink fox hides under this crypt
An adorable trade in
Heart skips

Content with this deal
End pieces smile in glee
It's not so bad having two plushies

Weathered round top
And a steady beat
Sometimes that's all you need

A metronome ticks
Reminding me of band
The curve of my French horn

This wasn't supposed to last
Finger printed love poems
Skip the fire stage

Straight to ash
It could've been fixed you weren't wrong
I know that I didn't draw these lines on this map the right way

Crooked and scrambled
I'm not going to say sorry though
Sometimes things aren't supposed to make it

And that's ok
Because it's just the experiences
That have peeked out from behind a rock
Sap covered lessons
That stick to us when we walk away

I'm fine
Happier even

Raven feathers descend
Upon this still pitched mirror
Ridiculously puffy clouds

Reflect back to this cornea
Everything is alright

And I will gladly indulge
In this tranquil water
For however long

It chooses to stay

Smiles get wider
                       Streams increase
hair gets lighter

             Winds get  warmer
Water laps happily                    
             Sun waltzes me along

Just a little more
              Beethoven
tastes              
       a little
sweeter          
                      Heartbeats
faster

               I get a little happier
Red cherry blooms        
          Blued jays

                  Reflected memories
Glinting and Bubbly              
                Off the water  

Fawned leaves
                     Frolicking in wind
Titillatingly happy again

Once upon a time
I built a tower in the sky
Because I wanted to be closer to you

I crafted your glass
With careful hands
And heated  breath

I forget your stone
With broken bone
But no matter how hard I tried

My tower in the sky
Would never be close enough
My fingertips

Could never graze your pale facade
Instead
I sat in my tower
Hour
By
Hour

Content to watch
You set and rise
My lovely pale moon

Forever out of my reach

Happiness
Lately it's been tasting like a starfish
Dipped in starfruit

Coating my tongue like fresh strawberries
Chocolate follows after
Spearmint

Because things have been so busy
The main avenue of fifth street in new york
Caramel for slow days

And

Bits of sunshine when you're nearby
But I've managed to do without
The strong flavor of black tea

With a pinch of chai
And a favored glimmer of lemon
I haven't been around much

I'm sorry for that things have been
Hectic to say the least
An enjoyable

Fast paced briskness
But
I think I'm back now for a while at least

Lift that smile
Brighten those eyes

Cheery notes play throughout the skies

Featherlight suffocation
Leaden words weigh tongues down
Free range cage
Weary heart o mine

Sagging against restraints
Drowning
Burning edges
I wish to tell you these words

Things you've already heard
Pressed into my vinly tongue
Scream the same three songs

1. I'm fine
2. We're fine
3. Our relationship is fine

Scalded skin
Boiling showers

To soak the worries away
To thaw out this anxiety
The insecurities
Its just me

Not everything seems
As polished as it was
Love still graces this heart
Love is a fear

Fear of fading
Falling out
Washing away
A castle crumbled by surf
Grains slipped
Mottled rib cages

Curled under a blanket
A sembalance of warmth creeping in
Mock comfort
Shells rattled by your breath

Inhale
Exhale
Turned over in these fragile hands
Committed to memory

As if it would be the last
Another sunrise
Surprise
Another relief
A sight to hold dear
Throughout this day

Just inside the preferial
Of this skull
Just in my head
My head
My head

This fear that you'll disappear
Vibrancy  leeched out of this shell
Skin crisping
Withered

What if
You were
Never here

Just in my head?

The Last letter typed
Given form
To nightmares at the prow

How is it
So easy to breathe now