I’m strapped in
On a slowly sinking ship
A new pilot with an iron boot
Will soon make her way
But the hope quickly fades
When I’m told to throw buckets
Overboard of water in the sand
And I know I could right this ship
If only anyone was listening...

I’ve counted in my head
The times I’ve looked ahead
But looking toward the future
Is all about the past
Not what was first
But always what was last
A heavy burden planning
Never a thing to say
The crystal vision made
Fades, slowly blurred gray
What is done is thought
As to be good or not
The pressure has amassed
But only the bad has stayed
How many times I’ve done wrong
How many times I’ve doubted
How many times I could, and should
And how many times I’d never

Looking ahead is always a task
Never look first, then to ask
Pass the past, cast the last
Nothing changes about time that’s passed

Lord, it’s a shame, I know
Thinking of how it could go...

Always felt
Constant
Loneliness

Reality set
Now I know
What lonely is

Your yellow hair is like
The sunlight
However sweet it shines
Bit by the cold of December
I’m warm beside your smile
Oh lady, tell me I’m not leavin’
You’re everything I dream
I’m killin’ myself thinkin’
I’ve fallen like the leaves

Given the circumstances
We only exchange glances
We’d hold a stare and exchange rings
If only our love grew velvet wings
But you say what I’d say
If only in the way
Never does one make you laugh and smile
The way I do, loving you all the while
I have no idea why you run
If only I had one

If only...

Please,
Take me by storm
**** me by hand,
Just not over the phone
The silence is much too much

Please,
Take me by surprise
Respond to me once,
And I’ll be so happy
It’s all I really want

Please,
Take me by the hand
Show me what you want,
The things you love
And what you adore

Please,
Take me by storm,
Take me by the hand,
Take me by surprise
Just please, take me if you can

Take me far away with you
Because I am done with this land