Ekuna CH: Poems

Aug 2021 · 636

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Ekuna CH Aug 2021

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Each time your face
Sparks in my memory,
I am holding my heart
on my sleeve,
But life has a phase
When sweet becomes savory,
And I am too hurt
To receive.

To Hurt to Receive

Aug 2020 · 105

Her poems

Ekuna CH Aug 2020

Her poems

Her poems are sentimental,
Pessimistic, empty of mysticism and sun.
The century of the pity poems is long gone,
Art should be positive and fun.
And anyways, who reads poems nowadays?
We need something positive to reed,
Something that does not bleed,
Something commercial,
Art should make hays!
But she still writes.

Aug 2020 · 83

Fear

Ekuna CH Aug 2020

Fear

Some which conquered hardships,
Still live in unrest,
Ignoring all the lights,
When the dark is what they dread.
What’s there they can hope for?
In past, all hopes were crushed,
Spiritless, but so soulful
They live, die, leave a dust.
It might be that a prayer
Can change their pity end,
Help me God, my savior,
Some murmur end bend.
But those conquered with fear
Have fear as only god,
The troublesome affair
With fear is all they got.

fear PTSD

Mar 2019 · 206

Learning

Ekuna CH Mar 2019

Learning

Your scrapper is learning to be
Who she is,
She is learning to love
by loving you.

Feb 2019 · 210

Fictional Pain

Ekuna CH Feb 2019

Fictional Pain

A love story that never happened
Like a sad fictional book
Felt fully but never experienced,
The only escape from my apathy,
Crushed on me,
And I am bleeding as a hero of
My pathetic book I managed not to write.

When I feel worthless,
I cannot forgive you inability to see my worth.

Feb 2019 · 664

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Ekuna CH Feb 2019

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At the horizon where skies meet Earth
The mystical nine floors lead to re-birth.
It is a struggle to take a step,
To shift from the earthy to the cosmic map.
I ceased existence in order to live,
And I drew your picture on a Saturday eve.
If you are a dream, you are the fairest of them,
But why do you bleed? Are you hurt as I am?
It rains with star dust to wash away blues,
We gain forever for pieces we lose.
Deeply connected to each other and others
Our father is Sun, Moon is our mother.
You are my passion which brings me up-high,
But are you an illusion? I wonder and sigh.

#passion #illusion #love #inspiration #insanity

Jan 2019 · 212

Hush

Ekuna CH Jan 2019

Hush

You are not born
On the luckiest star,
I am your scars.
Wounds won’t heal,
But let us walk up
To the top of this hill.
Hush...

There is no soul
To make you whole,
You feel so small,
But you are so tall.
Hush...

It is your call:
Being weak,
Or strong,
Your decision.
Sing a song...
Look up...
Hush...

Your vision
Is darken
Without love,
life is a puzzle,
you cannot solve.
But
Listen to me,
I am all you got,
We have to find
God.

#hush

Jan 2019 · 294

Strangers' Story

Ekuna CH Jan 2019

Strangers' Story

When two strangers’ eyes meet
Once they pass on a gloomy street:
Was it her? Or was it him?
Light is on, but light is dim.

Was it just a wishful thought?
Just a dream which they have sought,
Hearts in heaven, feet on ground,
Were they lost, or were they found?

We are bound with strings of reason,
Senses, feelings are imprisoned,
We see, but we lost our vision,
Light is dim, but light is on.

When two strangers’ eyes met,
As per social etiquette,
They avoided improper stare:
Was it him? Or was it her?

#him #her

Jan 2019 · 140

Angry

Ekuna CH Jan 2019

Angry

I am angry at the pictures I painted
For they never became real.

Jan 2019 · 364

Escape

Ekuna CH Jan 2019

Escape

An imaginary river
Delivers me to the darkest place,
Where I escape
All that is real.
On both sides of the water,
Strange shadows meet
To greet the ****** moonlight,
I reflect unknown,
Thrown in the waves,
The water never gives,
It just takes,
As it flows
With painful motion,
As I run down to the hill,
Carrying my sorrows
As all I have,
I run to my lover:
The dearest solitude.

Escape

Jan 2019 · 186

Today

Ekuna CH Jan 2019

Today

It is a gloomy and unusually warm winter day in Chicago,
I would love to walk arm to arm with someone
Under high-rises of this city,
Someone as gloomy and unusually warm as today.

Jan 2019 · 884

Destroyer

Ekuna CH Jan 2019

Destroyer

When I was a child,
People said
About me:
She will be a
Builder, or destroyer.

As an adult,
I never got to
Build anything,
Or destroy anything,
But myself.

Dec 2018 · 171

Light

Ekuna CH Dec 2018

Light

Little piece of fire
We need to shine,
Gives us desires
Inclined to reach out,
To move and move on,
To laugh loud,
To find endurance,
And glance at tomorrow
With hope.

Little piece of light
We hold when we walk
On the rope
To the unseen sight
Of beautiful.

Power to be true
To ourselves,
That Sun we own,
Thrown at us,
By unknown God.

The shinning planet
I have found in your eyes,
That bottomless gold,
My treasure.

Can I have just a little piece
Of that light
To survive
The cold and gloomy world?

Dec 2018 · 222

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Ekuna CH Dec 2018

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The world of punished,
In the state of despair,
Awaits to be perished.

Dec 2018 · 173

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Ekuna CH Dec 2018

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Where God left me unprotected
In the midst of internal war,
The ground I fell on,
I scared with love letters.

Soothed with art,
Searching light in self-knowledge,
On the edge
Of the wisdom and complete bias,
I painted God, and faced myself.

Dec 2018 · 131

Burn

Ekuna CH Dec 2018

Burn

My eyes and eyes of yours
Talked,
Words were bold,
The story told
Was old.
From the time of ice cold,
One has hold
Another's heart
(It is not very smart
For the heart to be art,
The hanging picture
In a gaze of another
Creature,
Who can dump it
Deep in a mixture
Of just memories).

My eyes and eyes of yours
Talked;
with no remorse
You let your gaze
Burn mine in
a hazel
Haze.

Dec 2018 · 104

Words

Ekuna CH Dec 2018

Words

I write words I cannot pronounce,
Lyrics my soul holds,
And music from silent chords,
Interchange and bounce.

I write words not to break a cold,
Not to save the world, but myself.

To be heard by my heart,
And maybe god will hear me too.

I write words as most honest prayers,
From the layers of my unconscious surface.

Words from a blue place, or a winter haze,
Words sunshine laced...

Words to embrace him, who I miss,
Words to find a grace, and words to dismiss
The ugly interfaces of realities.

Words rain,
Words run in veins,
From a word to a word I race.

Oct 2018 · 119

Afraid

Ekuna CH Oct 2018

Afraid

I am afraid to pray,
Thinking God will
Continue punishing me,
Out of love,
To teach me a lesson.

I am afraid to hope,
As always,
Hopes will turn into
Delusions.

I am afraid to feel,
I felt too much pain
And disappointment.

I choose to be effortless,
Over being incapable.
Every step I took
Was a failure.

I don’t want to be strong,
I felt my strength
In my hardest times.

I am afraid to
Think of you,
But I still do,
Even though,
I fear insanity.

I am terrified.

Afraid God Fear prayer

Jun 2017 · 292

Shamless

Ekuna CH Jun 2017

Shamless

My soul is dancing on a pole,
Shameless you are! -
from near and far
Spirits whisper.

My cry is a single tear,
scrolling down
on my cheek,
My nervous tics,
As time ticks,
Disclose the fact
That I still care,
But I forgot what for.

My days are factored
by gloom and rain.
I still remain
Just breathing.

All of my wishes
Became surreal,
What should I go for
is a metaphor
for a fool I am.

Did I suffer and die
without knowing,
Thus, am I touring
through Hell?

Should I exhale
Pains I hold
and seek salvation?
Can a creation
Find catharsis
While its soul dances
On the pole,
and I no longer exists?

Dance, you beloved baby-doll
of my angels and beasts!
Dance, you shameless...

#weakness #duality #broken #shamless

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