Earthchild

Earthchild Dec 2013

Memories of you claw
endlessly
at the back of my delicate mind
iron nails dragging
down that charcoal chalkboard
SCREAMING

Photoflashes off all those
endless moments, blinding me
images I can not seem to burn
could I please
pour the gasoline
ignite
let the flames engulf
the memories

Let them degrade to ash
let the ash settle
into the roots of my wilted flowers
let the sun shine again
like it used to shine
like it did
oh
so long ago

You are nothing but ash

Earthchild Dec 2013

I'm High

Our parents always told us
no drugs
I ask myself
why not

Sitting here inhaling toxic fumes
smoke dancing about in my tired lungs
stimulant seeping into my blood
am I dreaming?
Wilted flowers seeming to lift
take another deep breath
inhale, let the smoke corrupt your tired lungs
its their sunshine

My laughter
SINGS
a spring bird flying up
into the oceanic sky
Music notes
dance around me
through my body
as if to their own melody

I wish I could join them
I could almost swim
music runs through my frail fingers
just like warm spring water, filling my ears

Without drugs
How could I grow my flower garden

Earthchild Dec 2013

Beginning

8:00 pm
My parents tucked me in at night
my dad smiled at me, kissing me goodnight
my mom sat at the edge of my bed
reading me a bedtime story
departing as I drifted off into a dreaming faze
thats what they would always do

9:00 pm
My parents tucked me in at night
my dad hugged me
turned and left to bed
my mom sat at the edge of my bed
telling me to get better grades
because I was failing math

10:00 pm
My parents tucked me in at night
my dad went to bed before me
patting my shoulder as he passed
shutting that wooden door behind him
my mom cracking the door open "night"
I smiled as I worked through my homework

11:00 pm
My parents tucked me in at night
my mom sitting behind the bright computer screen
telling me to go to bed because she was to busy
my dad huddled under the covers snoring softly
behind that white wooden door
I sat alone in my cold room

12:00 am
I tucked myself into bed
tears streaming from my hallow eyes
sorrowing tremors shaking my fragile bones
knees drawn to my chest, attempt to hold myself together
a trail of dark scarlett snaking down my arm to my finger tips
my head a hazy storm, I lean back unconcious, asleep

My parents never tucked me in

Earthchild Dec 2013

Breathe

I stood in the cold snow
Arms crossed
Over my broken winter ribs
Fingernails digging into my pale arms

The cold mountain air
Absorbs into my frail bones
Raspberry lips parted
Amazed by the beauty

Green eyes gazing at the sleeping mountains
Tree roots spread across the ground
As to keep the Earth from collapsing
From cold winter tremors

The hazy moons glow
Constellations of stars
Dance as if at a royal ball
Clouds swirling like cigarette smoke

I love the night and the mountains, or nature in general

Earthchild Nov 2013

Sleeping City

I am one with the night
I have outwalked the last city light
upon the lonliest paved road

Hid from city faces
walking in shadows
dropped eyes, not knowing how to explain

I have stood at the edge of the furthest riverbank
crisp air escaping my parted scarlett lips
drowning in the song of the rushing water

Just to escape the inturrupted city
my only companion
the stars

I am one with the night

Go out at night, you will be amazed from the serenity

Earthchild Nov 2013

Month Of May

My mind is corrupt
the flowers that used to bloom
dancing in the rain of happiness

Are wilted now
fragile to the touch
awaiting my sunshine

I wait
and I wait
my petals drifting slowly to the ground

Degrading to dust

Earthchild Nov 2013

Cancer

Why did I let you force your demons apon me?
those demons crawl through out me like a deadly cancer

Taking over my veins
a dark cloak of self hate
attacking my mind,
my heart

You turned me into a demon
Left to fade into the dark.