I miss you
Everything in you
Everything with you
Come to me
Let me mould you in my love
Let me cradle you in me
Let me show you how much I need you
Let me show you how much I miss you

I laid in bed
Couldn't sleep
It wasn't the heat
I already showered twice
It wasn't the heat
Gentle breeze raising me up and bring me down
It wasn't the heat
I already felt cold inside
I missed you
I felt your absence in the heat
In the breeze
In the cold even with the heat
Rolling over
Rolling sober
I didn't miss you
I missed the way you made me feel
Like gentle breeze, raising me up and bringing me down
Like the heat, overtaking every inch of me
It wasn't you
It was the feeling
Then I realised
It is **** too late to be awake
Thinking over what can be replaced.

All I wanted was you
All of you
The real you
I didn't care for anything more
I didn't care for anything less
I know who you really are
All I wanted was you

Some nights
I wish
It was just me, you and the darkness that covers us

Finally!

Somebody that wants me

Think with your head
Feel with your heart
Don't switch it!!!

I told him to go
And he left
And he didn't look back

I drove him away?
Naaa...
If he wanted to stay
He wouldn't have left

He loved me because it was convenient
That's not love...

He stayed with me when it wasn't convenient
That's love.

He said goodnight
But he didn't leave
He stayed

I met you when i didn't want you
You held my hand
Made me smile
I am at ease
Now I want you..

I just want to know,
Do you miss me the way I miss you
and do you think of me....

I think having feelings is one of the best gifts given to writers,
Because feelings are dynamic; ever changing. It is an opportunity to express freely.
So I write to release the feelings that hunt me....
Introducing ME..

With you is ice cream and cookies

With you is lovely evenings

With you is laughter fest

With you is crazy me -unfiltered

With you is safe and happy

I wish
I wish
I find a you is someone else

I deserve Ice cream and cookies

I deserve attention and commitment

I deserve 'I miss you' 'I need you' 'You are beautiful'

I deserve happiness and a heart to rely on

I deserve hugs and the deepest kisses

I deserve laughter and a sound sleep

I deserve promises and a willingness to keep

I deserve openess and acceptance

I deserve dedication
I deserve them all

And when I find myself
Missing him
After everything he has put me through
I speak to my soul:
You deserve better, Soft one

You deserve Love

It's hard sometimes
Trying to forget you
When all the memories come in like a flood
It's hard not to cry
It's hard every time
Trying to move on

I think I'm crazy
Insecure
Overreactive
Overthinking
Stupid
My friend held me close and whispered
"Not everything is your fault."

He said I gave up on him easily
That I left him too soon
I didn't give up
I just got tired of knocking
On the door of your heart
Hoping that you let me in
I was beaten by the rain
I was flogged by the wind
Laughed at because I looked desperate
Mistaken for a beggar
Mistaken for a con-artist
But never seen as a lover
I got tired of knocking
Because if you keep knocking
And there is no answer,
It means nobody is home
Or they don't want to let you in.

So maybe I did give up
Atleast I tried...

They say it hurts like a sting
When your heart is broken
Into a million different pieces
But I don't feel a thing
Instead I feel nothing
Not emptiness
And not heaviness
Instead I feel free

Maybe my heart was never broken
Maybe you can't break a heart that is already broken.

Why were we created with the need for another mortal?
Another mortal as foolish as we are...

I hate you Arnold shortman!
I hate how you make me feel
Weak
Needy
Alone without you
I hate that I think about you
Every minute
Every hour
Every passing day

I hate that I dream of you
I hate that I need you
I hate that I want you
Weak
Needy
Alone without you

I hate that you love me
It means I have to love you back

He doesn't belong to me
Because I am a mess
a weird human by nature
He has all these things he can hold on to,
I am like smoke
Broken by the disaster
That is my unsteady nature
A hurricane in search of love
I am
A rose with many torns
I am
A pearl in an oyster
I am
And so he belongs to them
They are better than me
Touchable
Stay-able
I am the wild horse
That falls everybody off her back
But waits patiently to be tamed

I don't care if you don't  like me
Don't try me
Dice spicey
Chilling nicely
Red hot  chili peppers
Don't try me
I don't know if i might be
A little crazy
Lately
But try me
I'll cut the king off your kong
I know it best, when you are wrong
I love the chest, pandora's box.
Beg me i pray
Trust me you ain't
That fly
Fly fly the butterfly
And you ain't
That smooth
Smooth smooth
Nobody move!
It ain't a stick up!
But he think he fly
Moving around like some butterly
He think he smooth
True! True!
To that you win
But i don't care
So boo-hu to you too.

Our past has done so much to us,
We are only left with memories.
What was,
What would have been,
What should have been.

Our past has done so much to us
Kept us on a leash
We are afraid to do anything
We are afraid to love again
We are afraid to trust again
Too scared to repeat again
Too scared to be again
Why should i Begin Again?

I wish i could stop worrying about what people thought of me
Will they like my dress?
Will they like my posts?
Will they think i'm too needy?
Will they think i'm too proud?
Will they think i'm too blunt?
Will they think my skirt is too short?
Will they think my skirt is too long?
Will they like my new car?
Will they like my boyfriend?
Will they think i'm too slim?
Will they think i eat too much?
Will they think i make a lot of money?
Will they think i'm too poor?
Will they think i deserve this?
Will they like me now that i'm abroad?
I unconsciously ask myself these questions..
I unconsciously create a life that others will like
I lock myself away
Who cares what i think?
Let's live to please others shall we!

Have you ever loved someone that didn't love you back?
Have you ever loved someone who loved you when it was just both of you?
Have you ever loved someone that didn't know you existed?
Have you ever loved someone that hated you?
Have you ever loved someone that loved someone else?
Have you ever loved someone that thought you loved someone else?
Have you loved someone that was far away?
Have you ever loved someone that has past away?
Have you ever loved someone that you are not suppose to love?
I see we have all loved that way and that way and that and that....
I see we are all caught in some kind of web.

We are letting go of the past

We are reaching out to the future


But we have failed to embrace the beauty of now....

Alarm!!!!
Today is going to be a lovely day!
Coffee stain!
Traffic!
Rain no umbrella!!!!
Terrible boss!!
Forgot lunch!!!
Deadline not met!!
Disappointed boss!!
Traffic!!
What's for dinner??!
No hot water!!!!!!!!!!
Today was actually a lovely day...
I'm alive ain't I?

Today i discovered that there are some things bigger than us,
bigger than your hands holding mine,
bigger than your smile, they are divine,
bigger than the way you play with my hair,
bigger than the times we share,
Bigger than us.

bigger than your words - your promises,
bigger than our our eyes - we stare,
bigger than the future we once imagined,
Far bigger than us, i fear.

Bigger things awaits me,
Our love too soon
Has come and past.

I tried,
I tried to pick up the pieces, please forgive me....
But bigger things call me.
Goodbye my love,
Greatness is calling

We shall rule, when the Captain dies,
We know and we believe,
As we wait patiently,
As we plan carefully.

When the Captain  dies, we shall rule,
We have taken in more,
More than we can condone,
But we will not lash out,
Because,
We shall rule, when the Captain dies.

We shall rule, when the Captain dies,
No one will accuse us,
No one will think it is us,
Because they can not see our hearts,
And we have served with our blood,
And with smiles on our faces,
Surely,
When the Captain dies, we shall rule,
We deserve to rule,
The Captain will have to die,
For us to rule,
So,
We shall rule, when the Captain dies.

We shall rule, when the captain dies,
They say,
But there can only be one Captain,
Who will be the Captain?
If we all want to rule,
We shall know the answer,
When the poor Captain dies,
Because as we secretly chant,

When the Captain dies, we shall rule.