This is giving me chills
*******, I do not know what to feel.
I'm totally head over heels
Our conversation feels unreal.

I'm paranoid, my mind's dead.
Random thoughts are comin to my head
Thinking that my feelings are uncertai
And that one day it'll start fadin'

I know I'm afraid, that's a fact
Dont know how to feel or how to react.
Like a meteor afraid to the impact
Or an artist's painting, my mind's abstract.

This is frustrating, hell I'm confused
Im hurting and my head's *****'s loosed
This is making me dizzy and unfocused
Do i open my heart? Or let it stay closed?.

Makalipas ang taon ay nakita kita
Nilapitan, kinulbit sabay "oy kamusta"
Di ko alam kung baliw ako at ba't ko yon ginawa
Naging awkward ang paligid, puta antanga

Di ko alam ang gagawin, gusto kong tumakbo
Pero ngumiti ka't sumagot "uy okay lang ako"
Lakas ng kabog ng dibdib, "puta ano to"
Di ko namalayan aking nasabi "tara kain tayo"

Habang kausap kita tila ba't nanginginig ako.
Nagpapawis, natataranta, habang nakikipagusap sa'yo.
Nalulula at para bang nagsisimulang maliyo.
Ewan ko ba kung bakit nangyayari pa ang mga ito.

Paglipas ng oras ay nalimutan ko na.
Napagtanto ko na para bang bumalik sa umpisa.
Kay lalim **** mata at labing kaypula.
Talagang di ko maiwasan kaya ako'y napatitig na.

Ayun! Hahaha naiintindihan ko na.
Habang ako'y nakatitig sa mukha n'yang kay ganda
Tumpak, tama! Wala ngang nag-iba.
Oo gusto kita. Gusto. parin. kita.

To the angel from my nightmare, hi
I just wanna thank you for the time
Tho we didn't end up together, it's still fine
I'm not hurting. That's a lie

Thank you for listening to my cry
To the talks and for your ears every night
I can't believe I'm this shy
I can't even say a simple goodbye

How i wish we'd never met
Cos you're a **** hard target
A painting too big for my palette
A silhouette vanishing through sunsets

How i wish we'd never met
Because you're too hard to forget
A wish too fast for the comet
A dream that i can't get

I couldn't forget your smile
At one point it was my saving grace
Now it's my destruction

I couldn't forget your face
I'd look at your picture every once in a while
Maybe it is an addiction

I couldn't resist your laugh
An angel saving me from nightmares
Now you're one of the demons

I couldn't resist to care
Even if it's painful, tiring, and rough
Forcing love to be in season

I couldn't walk away
Hoping you'd still come back
Begging to hear your reason

I couldn't walk forward
From now I choose to stay
Stay in this state of emotion

I thought you were filling me up
But I was just your boredom cup.

Days have passed
I thought we'd last
Things happened fast
This is a big bust

Late night talks and 3hour calls.
I totally remember it all
How you flirted with that mouth of yours
How you brought butterflies down to my core

Then came the day, zipp zappp
Like thanos, you killed the emotions with a snap
You distanced yourself and made a huge freaking gap
And then i realized "oh **** this is a trap"

Let me understand
what it means to be free
I don't know if this is the right thing
tell me how it's supposed to be

Let me understand
how it's like to be owned
with force? control? dominance?
A mystery of the unknown

Let me understand
The beauty of being alone
is it to stare at the abyss  
of the sins I have to atone

Let me understand
why'd you hurt me at such degree
am I really not enough
for you to bring me agony

A lot of things happened.
Things my mind cannot comprehend.
Like a kid in a knight's armour trying to pretend.
Or a small calendar nearing it's yearend.

I'm lost and no one wants to listen.
Everytime i open up, they think I'm joking
No one will understand the devil's pain.
Nor the guilt, sorrow, and despair that I obtain.

I'm the "happy" person that everybody gets by
You can always see me laugh and smile
Little did they know that every once in a while
My biggest smile holds my loudest cry

I'm sorry, Queen of the sea
how rude and unfair of me
I didn't keep my promise and I flee
I just want to be free

Please let go of me
I can't sail anymore on this vast sea
Your pain and sorrow is haunting me
I just want to be free

Your heart is locked and I'm not the key
I cannot join you in this Odyssey
I'm getting devoured by my misery
I just want to be free

You have to accept that it is not me
The "One" in your so-called "Destiny"
So listen carefully, Your Majesty
Please, let yourself be free

Be free Queen of the sea

Your face, your smile, oh how sweet it is.
Meeting you put me in an everlasting bliss
Up until now you're still the one i miss
You filled my heart with joyful memories

Seeing your face makes me want to reminisce
Remembering the past; it puts me at ease
Making me happy and filling me with tears
You're still the one I want over the years

Don't worry tho, I won't force myself to you
Respecting your decision is the least i can do
Even if you left me out of the blue,
Just know that I don't regret meeting you.

To the days when our love was at peak
When it's always each other we seek
Dates and talks from morning till six
Ain't no problem that we can fix

Moments when our love was so sweet
Hearts were pact. drawn bit by bit
Lips that can't I just can't resist to kiss
Old us is what i inevitably miss

Pride had nothing to do with this
Stop covering it with excuses, please
It's obvious that it's fading at least
Fake care, fake happiness, fake kiss

Please take me back to the love you promised.

It's been a hell week
I've been through alotta ****
seems that happiness is the one I can't seek
Must've been better to jump of a cliff

Depressed? Nah that ****'s low
I'm not depressed, I'm just a lonely crow
I've got nothing to express nor to show
I'm dead inside and i really want to let go

How can somebody become this numb tho
My life's a mess and a big shitshow
I knew it, I should've ended it days ago
But somehow here I am, cyring on my pillow

I'm turning into a dramaqueen, jeez
Forgive me, but i can only express myself through this
C'mon stars just grant my wish
I just want to be happy like everyone is

One day, you're going to meet a person
that you'll love the most
A love that's way dominant than your pride

Just like i did


on you