Days have passed
I thought we'd last
Things happened fast
This is a big bust

Late night talks and 3hour calls.
I totally remember it all
How you flirted with that mouth of yours
How you brought butterflies down to my core

Then came the day, zipp zappp
Like thanos, you killed the emotions with a snap
You distanced yourself and made a huge freaking gap
And then i realized "oh **** this is a trap"

A lot of things happened.
Things my mind cannot comprehend.
Like a kid in a knight's armour trying to pretend.
Or a small calendar nearing it's yearend.

I'm lost and no one wants to listen.
Everytime i open up, they think I'm joking
No one will understand the devil's pain.
Nor the guilt, sorrow, and despair that I obtain.

I'm the "happy" person that everybody gets by
You can always see me laugh and smile
Little did they know that every once in a while
My biggest smile holds my loudest cry

This is giving me chills
*******, I do not know what to feel.
I'm totally head over heels
Our conversation feels unreal.

I'm paranoid, my mind's dead.
Random thoughts are comin to my head
Thinking that my feelings are uncertai
And that one day it'll start fadin'

I know I'm afraid, that's a fact
Dont know how to feel or how to react.
Like a meteor afraid to the impact
Or an artist's painting, my mind's abstract.

This is frustrating, hell I'm confused
Im hurting and my head's *****'s loosed
This is making me dizzy and unfocused
Do i open my heart? Or let it stay closed?.