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Feb 2019 · 288
Overcome
Zach Feb 2019
I will overcome this.

You will overcome that.

I believe in you.

Can you believe in me?
Zach Dec 2018
Fight your own **** battles

Don't send your little army after me

Those you've manipulated before me

Those that'll suffer the same fate as me.

Fight your own **** battles

Be the adult you wish you could be.
Dec 2018 · 132
Out of Mind, Peace of Mind
Zach Dec 2018
At first I pushed her away, avoided her.

The actions she did unforgivable

Time would heal my pain

That was not the case.

Letting my hurt fester and grow

Making me someone I hate

I needed to vent

I let out the steam billowing up inside me

I relaxed

I apologized

I am one of tranquility

I am one of hypocrisy

I am.

Sorry.
Dec 2018 · 84
I thought about someone
Zach Dec 2018
I remember talking to them

I remember making them laugh, and smile.

I hope they're doing alright.

I don't know if they think about me.

I'm worried if I talk to them

It'll be opening old wounds
Nov 2018 · 74
Closure
Zach Nov 2018
I feel..... Relieved.

I think.


I feel as if this weight has been lifted of my shoulders.

Although, this invisible divide is still there slightly. Unsure of whether if it wants to leave my mind

I guess I'll just see where it goes, if it goes anywhere at all.

Hopefully it won't just remain there forever
Nov 2018 · 112
Eternal Slumber
Zach Nov 2018
I want to sleep forever

I want to have dreams of the happiness I worry I'll need have.

I want to never forget the feeling of a warm bed on a cold night.

The feeling of freshly washed and dried sheets

The dream of someday waking up next to the woman I love

She's out there somewhere, but for now I'll only see her in my slumber.
Nov 2018 · 58
Time
Zach Nov 2018
Does time really have the healing power so many say it does?

Does it make scars fade away?

Does it make the most heinous of crimes forgiveable?

Will it help me forgive and forget?

I just want to move on from this

I've had enough tears for a while now.
Oct 2018 · 102
Immature
Zach Oct 2018
I thought that we'd be considerate about each other's feelings

Although, while I was trying to protect yours, you were busy ignoring mine

You won't ever see this. That's a fact.

But I hope you're happy with yourself. After all that.
Oct 2018 · 72
Death
Zach Oct 2018
I am not completely afraid of death, nor am I unafraid of it.

I don't intend to go peacefully if I may

I want to go out of this world as I came into it

Kicking.

Screaming.

We don't have control over how we go, but if I did

I want to go knowing my loved ones are safe.

I want to go protecting those that I hold dear and close to my heart.
Oct 2018 · 50
Another crack in my life
Zach Oct 2018
Another smash of my glass house

Another set back

Another realization

Another worry

Over 2 small things

Small to them

Do I even have the right to be upset

Do I have the right to feel the way I do

I want you to have happiness so I sacrificed my own

And now I'm at this all time low

I'm just hurt, confused, and tired.
I'm scared
Oct 2018 · 66
Ping
Zach Oct 2018
The ping of the notification

the pop up of the phone ring

Every sound

Every sight

A distraction

The strength taken just to focus

Distracted by this, that, you...
Oct 2018 · 73
I see how it is.
Zach Oct 2018
I thought we'd be fine, but you're going to be petty and annoying about it.

You're going to be ever the child.

You ignore me every where else but here maybe.

I should thank you for all the frustration I get from you

You wanna be like this? Fine


I've tried to remain nice but if you're gonna be true to your name. Then so be it.
You know those long and irritated groans everyone makes?

Yep.

I need to vent lol. Not usually this full of anger
Oct 2018 · 131
Strong Willed
Zach Oct 2018
This is not me being stubborn

This is me not letting go of you

This is me not giving up on my dreams of there being an us.

This is me nervous

This is me worried

This is not me as when I am broken

For my if I can make my heart as strong as my will

I'll hold on to this until the bitter or sweet end
Oct 2018 · 56
Torn
Zach Oct 2018
I once said I was like an open book with a few pages torn out,

I still have those pages

I'm just hesitant about putting them back

I'm worried they'll be ripped out again

Leaving nothing but shreds.



but... I hope you'll read my book and encourage me to keep adding page after page
Oct 2018 · 108
Huh. That.
Zach Oct 2018
Not a huh?

But just a

huh.

I read that

Don't know what to do bout' that

Can't say much on that

Wishing you the best

Can't comprehend it all

Huh
Oct 2018 · 48
Happy Anxiety
Zach Oct 2018
I'm nervous but also like

I'm woah **** I'm excited

But I'm calm and collected

Although I'm also like

Losing my ****, is this really happening?

I can't wait

I figuratively can't wait

I literally have to wait

I'm a bit worried, I'll admit

Today wasn't all that compared to other days but any day with you is a good one
Oct 2018 · 49
Soon
Zach Oct 2018
So it's almost time

Optimistically you'll be mine

On top of that, no flip of a dime

Now, it's just our rhyme
Oct 2018 · 69
Patience for You
Zach Oct 2018
I only have patience for you

There's nothing I wouldn't do

Don't let things get askew

My heart belongs with you
Oct 2018 · 112
Given a chance
Zach Oct 2018
She gave me a chance after no one else would

She gave me a chance when I thought nobody could

It's in my grasp and I can almost taste it
Sep 2018 · 103
Love is a sword
Zach Sep 2018
I feel like love is like a sword, not a double edged one, just a regular one.

You start off grasping the handle, but you drop it over and over, each time it falls with the blade facing you. You have to pick it up every time, cutting yourself another scar of failure, each one getting more painful then the one prior.

Sometimes you think it will land with the hilt facing you.

The only real question isn't how it lands. It's that you have to realize you can easily just pick it up by the handle, it's a lot harder and not as easy as grabbing it by the blade, but it's always been option. You just have to realize it's there
Bloodied hands for stupid plans
Sep 2018 · 89
Quiet
Zach Sep 2018
Words left unspoken

Awkward silences from brash feelings

Are you okay?

I hope you are
Aug 2018 · 126
Are you really though
Zach Aug 2018
You told me you could take it

I didn't believe you

You said I was a liar

I didn't believe you

You said I was unaffected

I didn't believe you


You told me you were sorry.

Are you really though
Aug 2018 · 92
Never
Zach Aug 2018
I've never done a lot of things in my life.

I've never had seafood, because it doesn't seem all that good

I've never had a first kiss, because I could never find the one then

I've never had....





"It's better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all"

That's a horrible phrase. Because either are horrible
Aug 2018 · 234
I hated writing this
Zach Aug 2018
All it takes for some is a single blot of doubt to make me want to scream

I ignored it for as long as I could but I can't any longer

It feels as if the path I'm taking may seem right to me, it is a corrosive acid that destroys what I hold most dear and if it doesn't get the thing it wants it will ruin me

Why won't the rain clouds go away?

I hope I never have to publish this, I'm only writing this to vent, but if you see this poem then know I'll be fine. I just need time to accept all that's happened. May take a day, a week, month, or maybe months. However I'll bounce back. I usually do.
I wrote this January 7th, 2018.


The original reason for writing is temporary lost in the cosmos, but I had just enough space in my brain to make this relevant several months later
Aug 2018 · 147
Muscle
Zach Aug 2018
Every boy grows up and is told that a real man works out, a real man has a six pack and is muscular

They don't tell you of how really tough that journey is to get there

Everyone has their own reasons

Maybe it's to impress that girl

Maybe it's to boost your self esteem

Maybe it's so you won't be the little guy anymore

Maybe it's all that and more

You spend the hours doing work that brings pain and aches later on and you never want to do it again
Written February 2nd, 2018
Aug 2018 · 103
Girlfriend
Zach Aug 2018
Why do I have to be the only one alone

No I don't mean that I don't have friends or family.

I mean why does my brain make meeting someone special and being in a relationship with them such a concept that I can't grasp

Why do my hands and mouth slip at the chances I get, why do I hesitate until too late and my chance is foiled by none other then myself
Written May 25th 2018
Aug 2018 · 116
4:28 am
Zach Aug 2018
I've had a long day, seems to be an even longer night

Dealing with you, but not you

I'm actually dealing with all of them

I'm actually also dealing things other then you

I'm dealing not drugs, but death sentences if I can't fix myself onto the track I'm just going to derail myself of later anyway
Aug 2018 · 77
LNHBATW
Zach Aug 2018
Late

Night

Head

Banging

Against

The

Wall
An overly excessive acronym for an otherwise meaningful phrase
Zach Aug 2018
Why are they all here now, when it was just going to be the two of us?







Forever
Aug 2018 · 79
Really now..
Zach Aug 2018
You think I don't

But I do

I'm just not

The same as you
Zach Jul 2018
I hate that thing

I that my mind is so focused on that, THAT. That of which I could end up horribly from

But I can't think of it being anything else but that

I don't see any other option then that, I just believe that, it's my key to happiness is to that.

What's your THAT

Mine is, well. Truth be told, it's just, THAT.
A poem I wrote back in April, no longer sure if I relate to it
Jun 2018 · 297
Positively Uncertain
Zach Jun 2018
It's about a girl again, isn't it?

Yeah, yeah it is.

Is she different from the rest?

Yeah, yeah she is.

Does she know?

Funny enough, yeah she does.

Welp, here's to a different one

Yeah, yeah it will be
Jun 2018 · 226
Summer
Zach Jun 2018
Welp, I'm a senior now

Too bad I got one more year now

Too bad I got summer school

Too bad I got a summer job,

Well it ain't all that bad,

It's only just begun
May 2018 · 115
Balance
Zach May 2018
Balance the tipping scale of your life

Does it lean in the way you want,

is it on its side, fallen from the weight of the daily stress?

From that upcoming test,

To that strained relationship

To the mystery of what is really what

Is it even worth it?
Apr 2018 · 140
Race
Zach Apr 2018
My mind is like a race track, every thought trying to be the first to cross my mind

Will it be the one who's positive, the confident one, the one where everything is going to be alright, the one that makes me smile and determined to keep going forward

Will it be the one who's negative, through one saying that it won't turn out like I want it to. The one that gives me nightmares that I'm not enough

I don't know which thought will win the 17 year long race that's been going on in my life.

I can only hope that the truth will come forward, and that I'll be ready for it
I'm going to the Magic Kingdom in two days, I'm excited for it, I'm on vacation for crying out loud, why do these thoughts enter my mind now <_<
Mar 2018 · 72
Untitled
Zach Mar 2018
Maybe someday, I'll be in downtown New York, a coffee shop in the underground,

Where all the poets, artists and rejects of society can come together as one

Maybe I'll have learned that instrument I've always wanted to learn

I'll play an old song from long ago about life's sorrows and sadnesses

You might walk in and see me, long forgotten until now, a one time deal you never thought you'd find again

Maybe we'd make the connection that our pathes were once heavily intertwined as some paths do

Maybe you won't recognize me, but I'll recognize you
I didn't know what to title this, if anyone had a good idea, feel free to shoot me a email and I'll put it in and credit you. I also kind of hate how this turned out
Mar 2018 · 74
Alone
Zach Mar 2018
Some people are just naturally alone, they don't choose to be, it's just how they've always been and how they always will be

I chose to be alone, but not on purpose.


I chose to be alone by pushing people away and not even knowing I was doing it

I guess now I'll be the type of person who's just naturally alone since I can't manage naturally to not be alone.
Zach Mar 2018
Always putting yourself first should be a priority of life, but sometimes you don't do that

Sometimes you stay up the whole night to make sure you have all your homework done

Sometimes it's because you want to make sure someone is going to still be there in the morning

Sometimes you get angry that you're not where you want to be at,

Sometimes you get angry that others aren't where they need to be at
Written March 20th, 2018
Mar 2018 · 97
Change
Zach Mar 2018
Do people really change? As the seasons change throughout the year?

Am I really different from what I once was?

I think a part of seeing someone change isn't even them changing

You simply get to see the real them and what they really think
Mar 2018 · 102
I'll wait for you
Zach Mar 2018
I'll wait for you, under the old oak tree,

I'll wait for you, whether it be for a year or three

I'll wait for you, because I love you
Feb 2018 · 433
Open Book
Zach Feb 2018
I'm an open book, but there's just a slight problem.

I'm an open book with some pages torn out

I'm a library book that few check out, and fewer take care of.
Feb 2018 · 155
No Control
Zach Feb 2018
I hate them.

They make me say that

They give me no other choice

I have no free will of my own in this home

I have no say in the matters that directly affect me

I'm just a viewer watching the TV about the boy who hates his parents

It's unhealthy, but who's fault is that?

The ones who get ****** at me because of the most minor of things, the ones who punish me over reasons that to be honest, aren't reasons in the slightest whatsoever and honestly it makes me want to scream

I have no control over this steering wheel that's driving my life

It's hitting bumps and crashing into every and all things bad

And I'm basically helpless to stop it

I have no control over my own life.
Feb 2018 · 115
To the tune
Zach Feb 2018
I wish these poems would sound like more then just words flowing by on the river of your ears

Something strong that resonates with you after reading, makes you stop what you're doing and reread it to make sure you understood it all

Words that make you wanna get up and dance to the beat of the heartbeat drum you have going on inside

The truth will pour out of us and reveal the fun side of life
To the tune of your favorite song
Feb 2018 · 639
Poems To Songs
Zach Feb 2018
I wish I could sing the songs I relate to as well as the artists that wrote them

I wish I had the rhythm and the tone to handle the notes

I wish I was able to write music, play it on an instrument for all to hear,

Hear my sorrows, joys, all the aspects of my life
Feb 2018 · 114
Love is like a Bullet
Zach Feb 2018
It's fast and it hits hard

Depending on what kind, it may even hurt

But you stand there tall with your armor of pride, protecting your inner self from this outer threat

But then there's the new kind of bullet, one you don't know how to fight back at

Maybe this love will be greater then others before

Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic
Feb 2018 · 71
Accepting the Hard Truths
Zach Feb 2018
You tell yourself,

"Hey, maybe it might work out"

Yeah, maybe. But maybe not

You always should be ready for failure

Maybe you fail yourself

Maybe you fail the ones you care about

You need to accept that sometimes things aren't alright, and that you can't do a thing to fix it

You're just chasing the ghosts of dead dreams

You can still choose to feel the same as you had, but don't let that ruin things you've worked so hard for
Feb 2018 · 313
I wish I could
Zach Feb 2018
I wish I could cry.

I wish I could take back words that come from my head and mouth

I wish I could curl up into a ball, and maybe my future self could reassure me that maybe I still have a chance.

Just to know that even if I'm failing now, time and time again will I know nothing but failure, that I'll succeed once.

Just to hear that would keep me ease until then. I'd be able to keep my upbeat personality and charm people think I have up. Maybe I'd find it's actually real

But that won't happen

I won't ever know for sure until it happens

And that's not likely in my state





I wish I could cry
Feb 2018 · 82
Spectator
Zach Feb 2018
What if I truly didn't have any control over what I do

What if I'm just watching a movie set in the first person about a guy who thinks he can do what he probably shouldn't even attempt

That'd be nice, moving the ***** up to different shoulders.


But only mine would be willing to carry that burden
Feb 2018 · 71
I wish I had a sister
Zach Feb 2018
I wish I had a sister

I have enough brothers, 3 in fact.

I wish I had a sister to go to because she'd know exactly how to help me through certain situations,

I wish I had a sister because she knows how girls work and I just don't have a clue

I wish I had a sister because a family of basically all boys isn't a very emotional family.

I can't cry, not even if I tried

I just sit and ponder what's beyond this painful, this darkening, this overwhelming fear of what lies ahead

I wish I had a sister
Feb 2018 · 96
Mixed Bag
Zach Feb 2018
I... I don't know what to call this

I'm too afraid to ask you where we stand because what if I don't like the answer

What if it never advances past this

I keep telling myself not to go too fast

But am I just not moving at all?

It's like a mixed bag of snacks, we all like to pick out the good moments and leave the bad ones inside

I don't know what will happen when I grab you from the bag
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