Across the table
Alongside the cups and plates
Beyond the crazy people
Since the dawn of time
Over the green hills
Around the tall tees
Amid the infinite sky’s
Lays a taco
Ready for Tadly to eat
Despite it being there forever
It somehow is still magically fresh o-o

Unable is what they called me
Foreign voices around the lonely tree
Inhibitions tugging the roots
Despair eating the fruits
This tree has nothing to lose
The seed’s already dead and there’s no one to accuse
Logan is awesome and thy cannot disbute
For he is the best person that has ever taken a breath
All those hail the Logan for he is Thor

Through the dark and long night
Into a new world
Away from the suffocating reality
And into my own that I control
Past the closed eyes
Despite a still body there’s an active mind
During the night rest
Until a bright sunrise
Till the next dark night
Throughout the day I will wait for sleep

Why do you do this to me
Make me feel weak
As if the world was crashing down
like im unable to speak
I try and move but I only fall
not to the ground but into your arms
I may say this but only to you
but I have fallen for you
maybe once or maybe twice
I cant make out the words running in my head
Yet I can only see the blur's that lay ahead
I can only see the perfect vision of you
You come by and like
****
My heart went flying into your hands
like a mist you went away
Carrying my heart as a prize today
Knowing one day youll come back and say
I have a heart and you may take it today
So maybe one day this will happen
or maybe in my dreams it will too
Today was the day I fell for you
1-27-15

Motivation is a remarkable flavor
Either leaving you bitter or craving to savor
It can help a bird learn how to glide
Or convince a person to commit suicide
A gift always taken for granted
A gift that has left my mind stranded
I was full of it
Problems far from heaving
But after awhile
I stopped believing

I was pleased like the sun healing from the flu
I was wrapped in an atmosphere of peace    
A blanket I could never burn through
But it was snatched, it was too good to be true
Leaving this star with a shattered debut
Abandoning dreams that I’ll never pursue

I thought the fight would be harder than reaction
But these faces are just unwanted attraction
I didn’t do it well but I survived the distance
But they’ll never stop questioning my existence
It’s funny how one mistake can change so much
My heart is injured and in need of a crutch
But I don’t think I’ll ever recover from this permanent smudge

My clothes are ***** and my thoughts are unclear
I’m starting to believe that I shouldn’t even be here
All I can think of are the bad possibilities
Of what’s to come in the future of me being guilty

But if you’d just take a chance and have faith in me
Break the shackles and let me free
A prisoner no more, a citizen I could be
One who could clean all the mistakes and all the debris
For death by doubt is a painful decree
The human mind can be cruel only to a certain degree
All I ask for is redemption, oh won’t you end the agony?
Before I make another mistake, before I lose my sanity

I walked into the airport with my usual grimace  
Seats colder than my heart when I heard the news
From Ohio to Washington, such a distance
I complained to my parents but their decisions were tightened with screws

People walking, phones ringing
Luggage strolling, my head exploding
This place functions like my worries, they never stop
So rushed, so focused, the ball never drops
No time to stop and hear what I think
You’d have to read an endless book printed in faded ink

People never try to see behind my disguise
My smile dies but mind survives
The struggle to board the plane that would change it all
I wish time could stop, give me time to stall
Out of their hands, the tickets would melt
Along with the ton of ice my heart felt

That’s what I needed right then and there
But I’m sick of this line, “Life isn’t fair”
A dreadful motto I can’t bear to listen to
Or the breathing of this airport
Its well-deserved smothering is well overdue

But they got something running here
Something that can’t be delayed
An intangible eternity
Ignorance perfectly portrayed