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Jul 30 · 324
Ruin.
Deadwood Jawn Jul 30
Terrible chains surround my heart
coated in an obsidian aura
and dripping in ink.

I am alone.

Though I understand I must walk,
I must move forward,
I must rise again.

I need this.

Rest.

Rest, kneeling before no one in particular.
Rest, in the position of a knight's kneel.
Rest, remaining in this space for a while.

For however long it takes.
For until the nightmares end.
For until the memories cease their assault.
For until I cannot feel her touch.
For until I cannot taste her anymore.
For until she leaves from under my skin.

I am...
Yes, I am...

Ease...
Ease...
Ease...







I do not wish to be alone with my thoughts.

I am afraid.

...


Torn.
Confliction.
Forlorn.
Needing.
Bleeding.
Dyi­ng.

My darling.
You who approach me.
Take my sword in thine hand.
Draw.
Aim at the vitals.
And impale me deeply.
Impale me with sincerity.
With the woes of a million.
And let me see my blood once again.

Once more, until I come to ruin.
I feel incomplete without her.
Deadwood Jawn Jul 27
Grant me the reaper's scythe so that I may
awaken
awaken
awaken
AWAKEN
AWAKEN
AWAKEN



A̵̾́͊̈́̈́̐̄̀̑͆̆̕͝͠­̧͖̠͇̱̠̙̬͈̓̅̀͋́̄ͅͅW̸̨̗̼̙̠͙̦̖̫͔͇͖̙̤͉̮͕̜̌̐̕͜A̴̛̤͈͑͊̏̎́̾̓̉͆͐́͐̓̏̐̒̃͘͝­̡̢̡̧͙̞̣͉̻̯̲̭͜K̵̨͈̮̟̘͍̞̠̐͗̽̆̈̆Ę̶̢̛̛̝̝̠̪̠͖̠̞̬̱̪̤͜N̸̢̨͙͕͔͔̝̼͖̥̉͒͜͜
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D̴e̸v̵o̴u̶r̸ ̶m̸y̴ ̴s̶o̶u̶l̴ ̷a̴n̶d̴ ̵c̸a̷r̴v̴e̷ ̸o̵u̵t̶ ̴m̵y̶ ̵h̴e̵a̴r̸t̵
̵C̴l̸o̸a̷k̷ ̷m̴e̶ ̵i̷n̸ ̶o̴b̷s̸i̶d̶i̸a̵n̵ ̵a̴n̸d̷ ̷d̶e̷c̴o̴r̸a̸t̴e̶ ̶m̸y̶ ̸s̷k̷i̵n̸
̷w̵i̸t̸h̴ ̷c̷a̵r̶m̶i̷n̷e̶ ̵b̵l̵o̶o̶d̸ ̸
̸a̴n̵d̸ ̴r̴e̵l̸e̵n̸t̸l̶e̵s̴s̷ ̷r̴e̴d̵.̴

drip drip drip drip drip drip drip
drip                                            drip
drip        Razor my veins.       drip
drip        Razor my veins.       drip
drip        Razor my veins.       drip
drip                                            drip
drip                                            drip
drip drip drip drip drip drip drip

N̵o̵ ̴s̸a̷i̶n̶t̶ ̵s̴h̷a̴l̴l̴ ̷b̴l̶e̴s̸s̶ ̷m̴e̸ ̶
̶N̵o̸t̴ ̷u̵n̵t̵i̴l̷ ̸I̷ ̶t̴e̷a̵r̷ ̴s̸o̵f̸t̸ ̷s̵u̷p̴p̵l̷e̵ ̴f̸l̶e̶s̵h̸ ̵t̴o̷ ̵s̵h̴r̶e̶d̵s̵.̴
̶P̶i̵e̵r̴c̴i̴n̷g̵ ̸g̵e̶n̴t̷l̵y̸.̷
̶D̵i̷v̵i̴n̸g̸ ̸s̴k̶i̷n̷ ̴a̸s̸u̸n̶d̸e̵r̸.̵
̷C̴r̶y̶ ̴d̷o̷w̷n̴ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̴p̶i̸l̴l̷a̷r̵s̵.̶
̷A̷n̸d̵ ̸b̸e̴ ̴c̷r̸u̶c̸i̴f̸i̷e̸d̷.̵

B̵e̶ ̴s̶l̸a̷i̷n̷.̸

B̴͈̻̣̱̌́ë̶̬̮̙̜͉̥͙͚́̄́̆̇̌͊͝ ̶̨̦̤̌̽s̴̹̪͎͖͖̕͜ͅͅl̵͉̞̮͕̼̙̯̉̏̋͋̌͑̇͆͝ͅa̵̢̼͎̫̹̬͔̅̀͋͐͊̀̀̚ͅi̵͂̽̉ͅn̵͌͌͝­̩͙͎̭̮͕̱̫̳̔̀̍̂͠




B̸̨̛̤͎̹̲̺̫͔̜̬̪̤͔̩̖͔̓̍̂̑͆̒́̇̊͋̇̑̌́̊̽̋͂͊̀̓̓̎̋͊̕̚­̗̤͓̥̥͍̤ę̵͖̳̖̹̟̲̬͕͓̝̳̃͛̿͗̔̂͐͌̅͗̈́͗̉̔̀̕̕͜͝͠͝͝͝ ̴̡̬̞͈̖̯͖̯͙͉͕̺̲͚̈́̅̒̆͂̑͝s̶̡̨̬̰̗͖̺̟͍̻̤̩̠̘̻̬̯̩̫̄̓̈́́̈̇͒̐̉̄l̴̓̌̇͑̆̐̊̀͘̕­̢̨̬̺̺̝͈̳̱̭̘̩̩̦̳̪̮̞͙̦͇̠̦͚̦̠͇̃̆̇̄͛͘ͅa̵̹̰̝̖͙͗͂͐͂͑̐̄̕í̷̮̍̂̈̿̃̎̽̎̔̐̊̚­̢̡͖͖̭̫̲̼̻̭̳̩̰̙̣͈̲̱͙͜n̷̢̨̛̛̹̣̱͙̭̤̳̠̹͓̝̺͕̹̟̣̂͌͌͊̅̽̿̐̓͋̔͑̓̎̃́́̕̕̚͝ͅͅ­͖̻






SAY MY NAME EVERY TIME YOU ***.


SCREAM AT ME WHILE DROWNING IN YOUR DARKNESS.
SHRIEK IN TERROR AT MY NAME.
WAIL IN AGONY AT THE REALISATION.
YOUR TIME IS SHORT.

CRY OUT IN ANGUISH.
BLEED P̴͎͍̭̹̬͚̰̳̞̼̤̟͎̍̍̀͐̃̇̐̒̾̆̀̿̂̒̂͐̓͋̔̔̽̉́̄̇̈́̈̀͂̄̿̏̂́̈̓́̽̃́̅̀̇̑͝͠͝͠͝͝­̡̡̢̨̩̗̲̝͇̳̙̳̞͖̗̹̺̮̦͉͎̜͇̖̯͈͓̹̩͍͚̦͕̻̼̲̘̞̞̬̼͇̺̮̤̦͖̦̟͔̖̳͉̝̙̺̻̮̜̫̮͜͜ͅͅ­͈̮̯͎̪̯͚͉̞ͅR̸̛̛̈́̾͂̇͛͆̔͐̌̑̀̿͑͋̿̇̈́̈́̎͗̎̓͑̈́̏̑̐̽̑̈̈̈́̑̀̈́̐͛̆̉͑̕̚̕̕̚̕̚͝͝͠͝­̧̨̧̧̼̬̼̻̝̣̙̳͇̟̯̩̬̪̻͔͎̱̟̠̟͓͇̟͔̆̃͗̍̑̊̓̍̂͗̅͒̇̑̀̉͐͋͆͑̀̓͒̄̾̆͘̚͘̕͝͝͠͠͝ͅ­Ơ̵̛̂̈̎̈̈́̀̇͆͊̄́̈́͑́̿͒̈̂̏̏̍̌̿̅́̀̉̇̊̆̍̍́̈́̽͒̈́̉͂̑̒̍͒̉̔̽̑̿͘̕̕̚̕͝͝͠͝͝͝͠­͙͉̣̙̮̦̪͔͓͐̊͂́̈́̆͋̿̊̋͆͂̅͊̽̀̎̈̓̀̒̂̈̈͛̇͆̐͐̃̀͐̃̈̓̈͂͗̿̔͒̀̿̂̏̍̓͗͘̕͘͘̚̕͠͝­̢̡̡̧̨̱̟̜͓̰̪̻͈͔̼͔̬̠̖͓̺̗̱̗͎̹͉͕̲̲̳̪͍̹̭̙͉̬͎̟̝̣̲̻͎̥̱͎͔̱͓͓̣̖͕̩̼͍̙̩͜͜ͅͅͅ­̢͎̟̳̲̖̤̤̬͖̗̪̖͓̤͎͖͕̘̬̺͕͇̝̭̱̺̻̠̫͓͈̠̭͜ͅͅF̸̡̥̲̞̞͍̰̩͔͇̳̠̘̳̼̼̾̿͐͑̌̑̉̓̇̕­̨̨̡̥͔̹̜̤̮̻͍̱͙͕̙͖̖̮̗̠̗̯͇̳̖̭͇̥͚̮̯̩̱͙̮͈͉̣̫̬̗̩̱̥̜̬͕̝̟̻̮̟̬̤̹̼͖̺͖ͅͅͅͅͅͅ­̨̡̢̨̣̙̺̪̥͙̬̥̪̣̻̗̼̞͙͓̗̗̻̟̬̪͈̥̫̬̬̰̗͜͜Ǔ̶̒̀̅̋̐̄̿̀̆͒̀͐̈́̊͂͆̄͐́̑̔̐̕̚̚͝͠­̀̋̈́̈́̽̄͒̐̾͊̉͌́̇̎̅̊̇͌͌̄͗́͑̎̀̿̌̔̄͛̀̇̿͋̏̎̇͆͊̎̈́̂̐́̽̌͐͗̍̆̋̍͘͘̕̚̚͘͝͝͝͝͝͝­̢̧̧̢̨̢̧̢̡̬̹̞̳̺̱̣̥̟̼͔̰͕̯̭̠̣͔͇̰͖̝̗̱̫̣͕̟̥̱̩̯̻̺͓̪̣͕̩̞͓̝̫̳̘̣͖̣͉̮̙̳͜͜ͅͅ­̡̺͔̱̟̦̲͔͕̖͙͇͜S̶̢̧̛̛͖̙̩̳̜͈̭̩̪͙̞̘̥̪̻̎̒͋́̔́́͑̐͆͂̇͗́̎̔̆̎̅̓͊̀̎̈́̀̐̊͛͆̚ͅ­̨̡̢̧̢͙̻̟̯̜͚̹̖̳̠͖̞̺͎̬̦̤̬͍̥͔̼̪̙̥̭͍̥̘͍̩̲̤͍͉̦͚͕͇̱͓͖̠̰̠̳̠͖̣̠̜͔̣̻̫̻̭̥̳ͅ­̹̭̥̭͔̺͉͚É̶̤̠̮̞̠͍̰̗̫̙̪̏̈̓͊̽͗̐̽͂̓̉͊͋̇̔́̈̽͑͐̇̌͆̔̀̈́̋̇̄̃̔͂͆̇͌̔̔̕͘͘̕̕͝­̧̢̨̢̡̡̨̧̲͓͉̩͉̺̦͎̳̠͚̤͈͈̯͈͈̬̦̲̝̗̲͖̬͙̦̞̤̳͔̺͕̲͓̬̗͚̖̝̻͓̬͓̲̠̼͓͜ͅͅL̴̓̄͝͠­̱̲̓̓̉̌̈́́͒͗̑̎͑̀͗́̇͆̅͆̈́̇̈́̀̐̍̈͂̐̋̿̿̀̏͋̄̏̀̐̒̚͘͘̚Y̴̡̻̳̜̺̜̦̩̑̇͛̊̓̇͐̇̒͘͠­̨̨̡̡̧̨̢̧̣̗̲̮̣͚̼͓̼̺̮̠̗̬̱̲̩̞͓̫̦̙̫̱͇͇̱̗͓͕͚̗̪͓͕̩̠̟̲̟̖̰̻̖̼͚̹̭̪̹̥͕͕̗͜ͅͅ­̡̢̟̩̹͈͙̞̺̹̳̪̫̣̲͜ͅ.
LEAVE YOUR LOVED ONES BEHIND.
BECOME AN ANTI-CHRIST.

RID THE WORLD OF YOUR SOUL.
SCATTER.
INTO.
OBLIVION.

OH SUCH EXHILARATING
FLOW.

THAT DARKNESS AGAIN.

ANOTHER NIGHT.
ANOTHER DEMISE.

I'll meet the reaper once again,
I'll transform my face

Every Time I D̷̈́̎͐̽̃͆͑̀̔̍͌̈́̉̉̔͒̉́̇̒͗̽͗̄̒̾̆̾́̾̃͐͂͆́̏͗͛͒̑̇̌́̓̎̏͂͛͊̿̋̈́́͘̚̚̕͝͠͝͠͝͠­̢̨̧̧̪̰͙̠̪̝͔̼̦͚̖͚̣̦̩͓̤͔͚̖͕̤̙̙͎̭̝̒̔͆͛̓̋͗̈́͂̓͂̋̊̿͑̈́͌̅͊̈́̀̏̀̃̌̅͗̉̒̄̕̚̕͝­̧̧̧̧̮̮̳̬̻̹̺̜̲̣̖͖̜̜͕͕̫̺̟͚̭̟̞̲͈͔͉̤̼̳̬̼̗̮̙͇̩̭̖̳͖̱̝̙̖̟͎͖̰̘̘͇̩̖̭̼̗̲̝͜ͅ­̨ĭ̷̛̈́̿̎͗͆̎͗̔̃͛̓̐̀͐̍́̂̒̈͗̌͂̓͑̾̾͛̅̉̑͋̑͒́̓͗̓̽̾̒͂̋͗̈́̅̀̀̍͆͊͒͆̆̍͝͠͝͝͝͝­̢̨̧̝͇̳̻͇͕̩̗̰̖̤̞̼̥̥̙͔̱̖̘͇̭͖͎͉̟̠̦͎̯͎͕̦̣̦͎̹̗͕̼̯̭̤͎̑̋̿̇̓͜è̸̈́̒̈͐̓̾̆͋͝­̛͌̽̅͛̈̑̈̿͗͛͛͌̇̏̔͊͑́̓̍̒͐͊̀̓̉́̊͆̇̈̂̃̃̈́̐́͊̈̂̌́̀̂̇̽̈́̓̍̈́̅͑̿̐͋͛̾̚̚̕̚͘͝͝­̡̗̝̟̦̲̳̪̣͚̹̙͍̳̠̜̳̭̩͉̮͕̻͎̩̗̜͙̰̠̻̮̰͓̤̣̯̰͍̗̲̖͑̅͌̄͆͗̃̃̎̓̊͊̊̎̃̑̕̚͘͜͜͜͝­̡̨̡̼̙̥̲̙̘̬̝̜̙͓̰̠̺̻͙̯̝͈̞͕͓͚̟̠̜͉͔͎̯̣̙͙̰̣͉̘̝͈̟̭͔̖̖̲͙̺̲̯̜̼̝͇̩͙̖̭̼͜͜͜ͅ­̧͉͇͎͎͕͕͕̲ͅ/

















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Following the breakup, she got with another person. None I have ever heard of. My gut is telling me she cheated. I hope she screams my name every time she ****.
Apr 19 · 529
Shrieks of Torment
Deadwood Jawn Apr 19
I can't do this...
Everywhere just hurts.

Calamity is swirling around my heart.

A dance of
sadistic
torture.

Cavort with malicious intent.
Darkness bleeds from the pulmonary veins.

The back of my skull shrieks with crimson red;
Red spitting and violently decorating the room.

Nails are within my nails
And i must scream

But my mouth is sown shut.
I just wish to weep. For any comfort from anyone, i wish for them to remain by my side and weep with me also.
Mar 19 · 201
Slow Shred
Deadwood Jawn Mar 19
Slowly,
down my spine

Frosty claws...

White smoke..

Acidic burns..

Loneliness.

Get away...
Get away.
Get away!
Get away!!
GET AWAY!
GET AWAY!!
G E T  A W A Y !
G E T  A W A Y ! !
G   E   T     A   W   A   Y   !   !
Being stuck in the household is a psychological death penalty. I hate this.
Mar 13 · 144
Loss
Deadwood Jawn Mar 13
Already, to the start of 2020,
I have lost five from the circle.

Still, I must believe...
Quality over quantity.

It is just...
Some of them were long time
Friends.
I'm trying my best.
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