This is the first lonely day of many to come
I'll miss your presence in my every day life
I don't want to die so young
I'll lock myself away so I don't hurt
I'll embrace the emptiness
I'll embrace the night
I'll embrace myself
I'll lose some humanity
In exchange for sanity
Forget what it means
I'll miss you old friend
I wish you the best
When you remember me
Think of all the good and move forth
I hope you don't miss me
Don't let all you've worked for go to waste
Even if I'm not there
I still want you to succeed
To grow and mature, to be happier
Farewell

You always wanted someone there
You pushed me away
I was always there
When you needed me
I was there even when you didn't
I was never enough for you though
You always had others on your mind
My mind was all yours
I did my best to keep together
I couldn't
Now I'm just pretty heart broken

Like music,
I can feel the beat of my heart
I can feel it quicken when you're near
I can feel it slow as I fade away
Unlike music,
This beat will continue forth
At a steady pace until no longer more
I wait for that day to come
I no longer can stand this hollow ache
My heart beat,
A constant reminder of how empty I am

Hey there
This is just me venting my inner feelings
You can move along if you like
I will be here regardless
I will exist regardless

I am disposable
Easily thrown aside and forgotten
I fade from the memories of those I called friends
Becoming nothing, yet I am something
I am something to myself

I feel
I see
I hear
I touch

I am human
You may have forgetten I exist
But I am still here
Invisible to you
Visible to myself

Sitting nowhere
On the phone
I love her so
Yet I feel so empty

Is it me
Is it you

Recently I can't seem to feel
The only time I do feel is when I wake up at night
Terrified of life

No one told me it was going to be this way
Life was suppose to be easy
I prepared
I learned

Somewhere down the line
Something changed
Was it me?
Where did I go wrong.

Maybe I'm too pessimistic
Maybe you're too optimistic
Its clear we're not seeing eye to eye

Who am I
What am I

What is this skin
What are these eyes
I feel like I'm in a foreign body

Where are my people
I have become a social recluse
I've come to notice a lot of things

I don't know what I've become
I've lost myself

I keep it behind a gate
I keep it right at bay
I cannot contain you forever

When you break free
What will happen to me?
To my family?
My friends?

I drown my sorrows out
But everything is dry
The drought took the fight I had left

I can't get it out of my head
I can't seem to get out of bed

What I wish I could tell you
What I wish I could tell myself

I'm stuck in my ways
I use music as a sedative for the pain
but the sedative doesn't quite do the job

You look for more, you've searched and searched

How much longer 'till the candle burns out
It will burn until nothing but old age remains
useless wax melted over my ambitions to be forever lost